The scope of love

Chapter 1

I stood in front of my full length mirror and sighed. I’m so bored of this whole damn scene. I’m tired of this school, these rules and this uniform. I turned around in the mirror watching every angle of myself. Don’t get me wrong the uniforms are pretty cute and plain. We have grey skirts with long sleeved white shirts and grey pullovers. Our ties are the colour of our Zodiac dorm. So in my case I’m wearing a plum tie. It’s winter so I’m also wearing black stockings. I’ve curled my long blonde hair and pinned it up for today. As for my make up I lightly applied some concealer and blush with a bit Mascara.

No point in going all out after all I only see the same people I see every day, the same people I have seen since I was fourteen. The same boring people I know all about. I swear if one more Taurus boy comes up to me to try and flirt I will loose it. Like I’ve said it’s so boring and so damn predictable. Honestly I feel that the people that came up with this damn program are boring stick in the mud’s that love predictability.

Just then my best friend came walking into our room. Madison Claren. She is my support system. I would have lost my mind by now if it wasn’t for her. She is a breath of fresh air compared to the other zombies in this damn school. She still has some free will. She isn’t against the program like I am, not even close, but she also doesn’t live and breath for it. Her older sister has gone through the program and is one of the many stepford wives of the new world. So her family expects it of her. She knows this is what her life will be, but she is in no hurry to actually start dating yet. Unlike me she will find someone and get married. That’s just not the life for me.

I’m going to fight this as much as I could. I still beg my mother every chance I get to transfer me to a normal school. I keep on hoping that she will finally do it since it’s been three years and I haven’t come closer to finding someone. I hoped that she would be embarrassed by my failure so that she’d want to hide me away in one of those small town schools. I’m not so lucky so far.

“I know that look.” Madison said falling on her bed, her black hair sprawling all over her white duvet. Madison is pretty beautiful most of the boys have been after her since we were fourteen. She has black hair and blue eyes. Her build is also very tiny.

“Do you want to talk about it?” She is always up to talk to me about it, well she is always up for listening to my complaining. Even though she has heard the same rant over and over again for the last three years.

“I’m so sick of this, don’t you get bored. We have the same classes every single day with the same people. Don’t you long to be free. To talk, flirt and kiss anyone you want. I’ll even settle for just seeing someone different. We haven’t even had a new teacher. I’m even up to have an illicit affair with a sub teacher that isn’t a Taurus. Can you imagine it - the sneaking around, the suspense, secret looks given across the classroom and slight touches.” I said as I fell down on the bed next to her.

“Isn’t that taking it a bit to far, I mean he would be old and married. If he is young that means he believes in the program and is most likely to be married to.” She was being to smart for her own good.

“I’ll corrupt him. It’s decided I will be having an affair with the new teacher as soon as one of our teachers decide to quit or become pregnant or just sick for awhile.” I said imagining it all in my head.

“You are awful!” Yeah I can’t argue with that. I’m a dreamer after all and all I am dreaming of is freedom and love. I want to be swept of my feet. I want to be rescued from this prison by my one true love that isn’t a stupid Taurus. Although all I can do is dream because I know that in reality I’m pretty much screwed.

“We have clean up duty after school. All that work will get your mind of it.” Madison said getting up.

“I came in to get you for breakfast. I’ve already poured the cereal. I’m going to add the milk. If you don’t hurry up it will get soggy.” She said before leaving the room. In order to cure us from the boredom Madison and I signed up for the party planning team. Well I signed us up. Once a year we have a school dance for almost two months. Each weekend one grouping gets to go to a dance. It’s not like the whole school can go to one dance, that would be entirely impossible since then the different zodiac houses would fraternize with each other. I wanted to be a part of the party team because I thought even planning something for different groups would feel very rebellious. Seeing other colors except for plum and olive green. It’s exhilarating, yes that is how bored I am with all of this. Planning parties for other groups is exciting for me.

It all fun and games until we need to go and clean up afterwards. The clean up is always on Monday afternoons so I’ve heard, this is my first clean up. The teachers are apparently to lazy to come and supervise us on a Sunday. Since they already have to supervise the dance on Saturday. If they allowed us to have a dance together, they would only have to sacrifice one Saturday instead of six Saturdays. I rushed out the room to go and have my breakfast with Madison. We usually sit in the sitting area in front of the television watching funny videos on youtube to distract us and put us in a better mood for the day. We do kind of isolate ourselves from the girls. Especially me, Madison actually tries to be friendly with them because these are the people she will be friends with in university and afterwards it will be them she ha play dates with until the kids are too old and aren’t allowed to mingle due to their zodiac sign. Our friendship has a time limit though, because if I don’t end up following the rules I’ll be shunned.

I grabbed my bowl from Madison and sat down on my favorite spot. I didn’t say a thing having depressed myself with my own thought about our friendship ending. Once we were done we left for class. Classes were boring as usual, but I enjoyed them more than our Zodiac classes. Those just rub me up the wrong way I hate them. I’ve learned about my Taurus partner for three years now. I honestly feel like I know everything there is to know. I feel like these classes are a cheat. They are basically teaches us to manipulate our perfect partner. We know exactly what they like and most of the girls change themselves to fit in with that, but my question is, if we change ourselves to fit with our perfect match then we are in a sense changing the very personality that is supposed to match with theirs. So are we really matching with them or are we changing in order to match and if that is the case then we can change to match with anyone. In my opinion it all still a big con it only works because they train us to make it work.

When our lunch hour finally came I was ecstatic to just unwind a little. Our classes always feel like a drill routine. Everyone is so stiff and uptight. You could hear a pin drop. Our school is the one with the best success rate. They make sure everything goes perfect. It’s the school to be parents fight to get their kids into this school. I wonder if it’s different at other schools. Are they as strict or is there a couple of scandals.

We got our food and sat down at our usual table. A couple of girls came to join us. We aren’t exactly friends, but we are friendly. We talk a bit about idle stuff, but never get to know each other. I mostly spend my time eating and listening to their stories. I don’t really have my own stories to tell, because I’ve never put any effort into making friends and forming love interest. It’s usually when I complain that people tell me I haven’t even tried to make this program work. That of course isn’t true about a year and a half back I tried and I have regretted it ever since. Like all these silly girls I did my make up and hair, I bat my eyelashes at a few boys and smiled all pretty for them.

“Hello sweetheart.” and this is the result of it. A thorn in my side. A boy with a lovely smile and a handsome face. Finley Daans. I looked up at him, my eyes landing on his warm brown ones before catching the glimpse of his cocky smile. The class had proven to be correct when it came to him. He is a arrogant, possessive jealous prick. As soon as I showed interest he acted like he owned me. I don’t know if it is just his personality or if it is the program that gives these boys a sense of entitlement. They know the girls have to find partners and that loyalty is a given. It still doesn’t mean that they can act like we are their property. He expected me to jump when he said so and he was disappointed that I wasn’t an exact clone of his cheat sheet. Clearly I didn’t fall for that.

“What do you want?” I asked looking at him with the meanest resting b***h face I could manage. I wanted him to leave me alone, but he was adamant that I was the one for him. He’s been with a couple of other Pisces, but he always circles back to me. He has also made it clear to any other Taurus that might seem interested in me. I guess he did me a favour, because now I don’t have to fight of anyone’s advances.

“I just came to see my beautiful golden angel.” ‘my’ he is seriously delusional, but hey let him stay delusional and in the end he might just end up all alone and shunned for being alone. I know that wouldn’t happen at some point he’ll give up and pick someone else. Good luck to the person he ends up choosing.

“Leave me alone.” I always tell him this and he always comes back. I wonder if he thinks that he can break down my resolve by being so persistent and irritating. Before he could say anything back the bell rang. My true saving grace. I smiled at him pleased with myself before I got up and left. The rest of the day went by pretty fast. The second half of the day a lot better. I knew the stupid classes was over. Madison and I left for the hall. Saturday was the Cancer and Scorpio dance. All the decor consisted of red and lavender, not a very good combination, but we had made it work when we set it up last Friday. Now we need to take it all down, only to replace it with new decor and colors on Friday. We packed everything up and put them in containers for next year. After we were done we started to sweep up the floor.

It was while I was sweeping that I can across a necklace. I’m not sure if it’s Scorpio or Cancer. We aren’t really taught about other zodiac signs, the school doesn’t think we need to know since we aren’t supposed to socialize with them. I’ll have to take it to lost and found. I told Madison that I’ll need to take a detour before going back to the dorm. With the permission from the supervising teacher I made my way over to lost and found. Opening the trunk to put in the necklace I saw just how much nonsense people actually loose. Which is when my plan started to form in my head.

Book entry: the beginning

After three years of always fighting and being suppressed with no say in how my life would go. Of knowing that it would be their way or no way I finally came up with a plan. I saw some resemblance of hope and I knew that it would be hard, but it was a choice I made eagerly. It was the first step in the right direction for me.