The scope of love

Chapter 7

I waited for him to say anything, but I was met with silence. I was disappointed and needed to get out of there. I didn't want him to see me cry. I didn't want his decision to be based on guilt. I wanted him to agree because he wanted to be with me. I turned to leave before my tears could fall, but he grabbed my hand. I turned towards him with hopeful eyes.

"Of course I choose you. Why wouldn't I? I wanted to register with you and that means I have feelings for you. Deep feelings. It's not just something I can forget. This just took me by surprise and I need to wrap my head around it. I just don't want to loose you while I do that." I let go a big breath. I was so relieved. This could have gone so wrong, so fast. I jumped in his arms laughing as the tears flooded out of my eyes. I don't think I have every been this happy. I pulled away just enough to slam my lips against his. This is what I've always wanted. A real relationship not a forced one.

"The two of you get back in your lunch hall! Have you no shame making out in the hall like this. Really!" We pulled away from each other after hearing the teacher. If she came five minutes earlier we would have been caught in a completely different way. Declan took my hand and led me back inside. There was still so many things we needed to talk about, but we need privacy to do that and we weren't going to get it surrounded with other students. We'll have to talk things out on another time. At least this will give him to sort out his thoughts on the situation as well. I on the other hand need to tell Madison. I avoided telling her before I explained it to Declan because she would have freaked out, but now that I have good news to share I think the conversation will go a lot better. She might still be angry, but not as angry as she would have been if I told her I was telling him ahead of time. The two of us walked back into the lunch hall. He was holding my hand. I knew I must have looked like a mess with tear streaks all over my face. We didn't say anything as we sat down. I could see how curious everyone was, but we didn't owe them any answers. When the bell rang I kissed him goodbye and left to fo back to my own classes. On the way to the classes I changed my tie.

Madison saw something was up since I didn't get time to go wash my face. I just signaled to her that I would tell her later. She nodded looking at me with concern across her face. The rest of the day went by faster than I anticipated and before I knew it I was in my dorm room infront of Madison. She was sitting on her bed while I was pacing. I was nervous to tell her. I took a deep breath an settled om my bed across from hers.

"Declan asked me to register with him."

"What! Tell me you broke it of with him and ran away. I knew this was a bad idea! It's over now right?" She was babbling. It was a wonder I understood everything coming out of her mouth.

"He asked me yesterday." I told her trying to explain to her the whole story.

"Wait...yesterday then why did you cry today? What happened brooke?" She said looking completely confused and defeated.

"I told him everything. He knows what I've been doing and he knows that I'm a pisces. I ran out on him when he asked me...I had to go back and explain everything to him..."

"No you didn't have to do that! Are you insane! I'm raking from your tear streaks that it went bad. Oh no what are we going to do!" She didn't even let me finish. She went straight into full panic mode.

"It was tears of happiness. He chose me above the program. He still wants to be with me." I told her the good news, hoping it would calm her down.

"This is so bad!" It clearly didn't calm her down. It only seemed to aggravate her more.

"What happens when you fight? Or one of you loose intrest? This is a disaster. You are the one who always complained about how they expect us to find forever love in Highschool..." she has never been this cynical this is usually my thing.

"I think that I love him. Hopefully I was wrong about not finding love in highschool. Anyway I didn't mention you. So if things go badly you won't be in trouble. No one ever needs to know that you were involve, but for now can you please just pretend that you are happy for me." She sighed walking over to my bed and sitting sown next to me. She hugged me in her arms.

"I don't have to pretend. Of course I'm happy for you. I just worry about you too. In a perfect world this would have been the best of news, but this isn't a perfect world and I'm afraid you will get hurt...So he was okay with it all?" I'm not telling her the truth since she is already freaking.

"Yeah I was so worried when I told him, but he chose me. We haven't talked about how we will be going forward, but I think we will make it work we just have to." She didn't let me go and I knew that this is how she is supporting me. I know that she doesn't think this will end well, but I believe in us. I haven't been caught yet. I'm just going to stay optimistic there is no point in fearing something that might happen in the future.

"So tell me everything! What did you say ans what did he say?" She asked and I started to tell her everything, tweaking it a bit so that she doesn't freak out again.

"I really hope that for your sake it works out. He sounds great. The fact that he chose you is amazing."

I got ready for my classes and I knew that we needed to talk about everything today. We just need to find a private place to talk. Now that is the problem because we can't be out in the hallway like the previous day and there is no place in the lunch hall. Not after the last two days. I bet everyone is curious and will be keeping an eye on us. Maybe he'll know of a place. I left to get breakfast with Madison still obsessing on a place where we could meet. Time flew by and before I knew it it was lunch time. 

I went to the lunch room but I couldn't see Declan anywhere. I walked over to our usual table. I haven't come up with a plan yet of where we can meet or how we can talk in private but we obviously need to. There is a lot that we need to talk about and sort out amongst ourselves. Hayes was sitting at the table watching me as I came walking up. Just as I sat down he told me that Declan told him to tell me to meet him at the bathroom. I wonder what he wrote in that moment when Declan asked him this and does he really think the bathroom is the best place for us to meet people. Somebody is bound to hear us if we stay there to talk. I nodded at Hayes and got. There is no point in debating the bathroom situation since Declan is already waiting there for me. All I can do now is go and join him. I'd rather we meet in the girl bathroom. Even though it might be busier than the boys bathroom. I'd feel more comfortable in there than in the boys bathroom. I left the lunch hall and walked over to the bathroom. I saw Declan leaning against the wall waiting for me. I increased my pace and walked over to him. It's suspicious with him just standing outside the bathroom. He noticed me coming and pushed off the wall. Grabbing my hand he tried to lead me into the boys bathroom. And not wanting to go in there.

"What are you doing we need to go inside before anyone see us!" he told me but I still put up resistance. 

"I don't wanna go in there

 the girls bathroom." I suggested. I could see he wasn't fond of that idea. Just like I wasn't fond of his idea. We seemed to be at a crossroad.

"The girl bathroom will be to busy. You girls always seem to go there in groups and you always stay for so long." He complained. We weren't getting anywhere and we are wasting precious time. I looked around to make sure no teacher were in the hallway when my eyes saw it. I grabbed Declan's hand pulling him along with me. Each bathroom has a supply closet. It is never lock since the school believe in us. It's open just incase we need toilet paper or hand soap and it hasn't been refilled. It has never happened to me, but it's nice to know if you need something it's there. I know there are schools that don't even have toilet paper in the stalls. You need to take some from the main area before going into the stall. This isn't your average school. They have so many lunchrooms and bathrooms since each grouping needs their own set and there has to be bathroom near our classroom. Basically this school is six schools in one. They do not have enough staff. So they kind of rely in u to cover the grey areas. I pulled him unto the supply closet. 

"This is a better place don't you think?" I said all cocky smiling at him. 

"Yeah whatever. What do we do when someone walks in here? They wouldn't have randomly have walked into a bathroom staal." He just has to make the last point. 

"We'll start making out. They'll think they walked in on that and it will be fun." I winked at him trying to make the mood lighter. 

"I stayed up last night thinking about all this." I'm past the stage where I had stayed awake overthinking this. As soon as I made my mind up I slept peacefully again. I have made peace with this and the consequences. He only found out now so he still has a couple of sleepless nights in his future. Depending on how worried he is, is how many nights it will take for his mind to settle. 

"I think we should still register." I didn't expect him to say that though. I mean he stayed up all night just to come up with something that is impossible. 

"We can't. I'm a Pisces and you are an Aries. That goes against all the rules. We'll never make it out of that office together." I explained to him something that should be obvious.

"Everyone knows I asked you to register with me, they will wonder why we aren't registering and what will we tell them when they ask? I don't think we should tell our friends. I don't know how they will react to this and I don't want them to be in trouble when we get caught." He said when and not if. I don't like that he thinks this will fail. Why isn't he more optimistic. 

"Or maybe we won't get caught?" I suggested. 

"And what do we do then, what is the plan Brooke? If we aren't a registered paired we can't go to the next stage of our life. If you don't want to register what do you want?" I knew exactly what I wanted.

"I don't want to spend the rest of my life pretending to be a Gemini. I did this to prove them wrong. I want to bring an end to this program." I knew what I wanted. I've always known. 

"Okay and how do you plan on doing that? All they'll say is anyone can fall in love, they'll say that the program is about making bonds that last. You have no idea if this will last." 

"You said fall in love, is this that? Have you fallen in love with me?" Out of everything he said that was all that stuck. 

"Of course I have or I wouldn't be hiding away in this closet. Talking about going against the program. If I didn't love you I would have ran the opposite direction." I jumped him again kissing him like it was the only thing that mattered. He was the only thing that mattered to me at this moment. When we broke apart I was out of breath. We took a moment to catch our breath. 

"I know you don't have a plan. You only thought as far as meeting someone out of your grouping and falling in love. You don't know what your next step is. If we register and go on like this is normal then you will have time to think of a plan." He was right I didn't think this through past this point. 

"Okay what is the plan?" I asked wanting to hear what he has to say. 

"We get you a fake ID with the name and birth date of one of the Gemini." He makes it sound so easy. 

"You want me to impersonate someone?" I asked thinking that he couldn't be serious.

"Yes. We pick someone who doesn't have anyone and isn't trying to find someone."

"Your whole plan revolves on someone else being alone. What if the person we choose finds someone?" I asked him because I don't think he thought this through.

"We'll choose a senior. Someone that doesn't have a lot of time left. If they are in their last year and hasn't found someone it's most likely they won't. That means we can at least use the name for the rest of the year." He has a point. If you don't find love in highschool you can take a gap year and go to these speed date single mingles. Yes it is as desperate as it sounds. It's a bunch of eighteen year old pushed together in a room everyone desperate to make a connection so that they can go to university. If you take an oath that you really still believe in the program you just didn't find your true love in high school, then you are placed in these very tiny subsidized apartments for a year giving you time to find your true love. You are separated from your family so that you know this is your last chance and after this you are out on the street, disconnected from the world, since almost everything is run by the damn program. It makes you desprate. Desperate enough that you choose the first person you think you might like. It all just plays on peoples fear of being rejected and cast out. 

"Fine and how do we get a fake ID?" I asked because his plan was starting to make sense, but that seemed like one more hurdles to get over, a big one.

"I know a guy. Next time I go home I'll get it for you, but before then we need to pick someone." 

Book entry

And that is how we set out to find someone that was alone and has given up on trying so that I could steal their identity momentarily. We found someone and our plan was in motion. I felt bad. It felt like we were scavenging on someone's dead romantic life. All that was left for me to do was to come up with a master plan to bring down the program. It was not an easy task