If I Love You

Chapter 17 Dirty!

Du Meimei was a regular customer of the Nightclub and she had a really good time there. When I went back ,she took me to the ball and danced with strange men cheek to cheek. The interaction was really too close for me and made me embarressed.

I urged Du Mei to go home a few times before she reluctantly agreed.

I had been absent-minded on our way back and only spoke when she asked me.she kept complaining that I was so boring,and I didn’t say anything,just smiled wryly.

When I got home, I rushed into the bathroom and didn’t find that I had forgot to adjust the temperature until the cold water hit my body.

I scrubbed my body hard until my skin was slightly red.Then I took the showerhead off and opened it up to the max and washed my c******s, as if that was the only way I could get my own clean.

A voice inside me said, "Don't waste your time. You're already dirty!"

I threw the nozzle on the floor in exasperation. My nose was sore and I cried out.

Boundless shame overwhelmed me. I hated myself more and more.I didnn't hate myself for making love with Zhao Kun,but for I actually enjoyed it so much when it happened. And I still felt reluctant to part with him when it was over!

I washed for a long time. Until my skin started to wrinkle, I started to wipe my body.

The door “banged”,and it must be that Li Wenlin came back.

He stopped at the bathroom and called me. I answered him,and went out after a long time.

Seeing him sitting on the sofa, leaning his back against it tiredly,I walked quickly behind him and put my hand on his shoulder, rubbing it gently.

He patted my hand and said hoarsely, "Went out for a walk?"

I paused, and whispered, "No!"

Li Wenlin heaved a sigh and turned around to look at me. "Darling, I'm sorry. I’ve been so busy recently that I can't stay with you!"

His eyes were still so deep and peaceful as if he could see through people's souls.

I felt guilty, coughed and looked away, forcing a smile, and shook my head.

He took a bath and we lay down on the bed side by side.

" Ying, I heard the female colleagues in the company discussing today that women would look better if they have a good s*x life! Therefore …I really do feel that I'm sorry! "

Having heard too many these kind of words,I was a little numb and turned my back on him, not knowing how to answer.

He put his arm around my waist and put a hand inside my shirt, rubbing my breasts, the warm breath hit on my neck.

I got goose bumps suddenly.

He had rarely done this to me before,maybe he worried that it would make me feel bad if he couldn’t have s*x with me after flirting with me.Now, it’s probably because of the effect of the alcohol,his movements grew more and more audacious, and his hand glided over my skin like a snake, moving slowly towards my c******s.

I used to enjoy it very much, but now I couldn't help feeling disgusting!

He couldn't do anything at all! After making me feel on fire,he wouldn’t be able to do anything!

I was a little tired and only wanted to sleep, so I held his hand and whispered, "Let’s sleep, will you?"

He stopped immediately, and put his hands back in embarrassment.

I knew he didn’t fell asleep after a long time, but I didn't dare to look at him.He must be very upset and dispirited, but I didn't want to say anything.

After some time, he suddenly asked, "Did you dream of having s*x last night?You seemed to have enjoyed yourself a lot!You really want to do that? "