If I Love You

My name is Zhou Ying, and I'm a very traditional woman. Although I dated some other men before, I was still a virgin when I got married with my husband, Li Wenlin. I knew my body was so sensitive on my wedding night, and Li Wenlin only pinched my chest a few times, then kissed me for a while, and I got wet. He was naked, and that was the first time I saw a man's genital which was bluish purple, like a teapot, ugly and disgusting. The first s*x in my life which had been expected for long disappointed me a lot because Li Wenlin couldn't get erections eventually. My heart was full of bitterness, but I still comforted him that I didn't mind and he will recover gradually.He cried and told me that he had been like this for a long time. He had been to several hospitals before he married,but it didn’t work. He fell asleep beside me, but I was too hot to sleep.The pain could not be described in words,and could not be said to anyone. After two years, whether traditional Chinese medicine or western medicine had been used, but Li Wulin still didn’t recover .He felt guilty and tried to satisfy me.However,I had no feeling at all when he rubbed against my c******s with his soft penis.But I had to pretend to be very delighted in order not to hurt his feelings. For me, every "affinity" is unbearable and painful. Later, I consulted a psychiatrist, and the doctor said that if my husband was physically well, that could be a psychological problem. I talked with Li Wenlin gently later but he never answered me clearly.If I continued to ask him,the he would be furious. I could only gave up. I never dreamed that I would experience such a pleasure from another man that I never got from my husband.And once the door to the desire was opened, it was unstoppable. On a summer morning, I was in the bus to work as usual.It was the rush hour and the bus was crowded.I pushed my way to the back of the bus with great difficulty. Suddenly a man came up behind me, and his warm, tobacco-scented breath hit my face.I tried to get away from him,but he kept moving with me.And there seemed to be a hard and warm thing in the lower half of his body against my ass. I realized at once what it was and my face flushed. At this moment, the bus screeched to a stop. And he turned in front of me taking this chance, and I bumped into his chest.His hard stuff was sharp and hard as a knife, as if he'd almost punctured my jeans. While my cowboy shorts ware quite thin.In fact, there was only a thin cloth between his hard stuff and my private parts. I could have pushed him away, but at that moment, a sense of shiver I had never felt overwhelmed me and I felt like being burned up by a fire in my belly,even my breath became heavy. I lowered my head and bit my lower lip, lest that I would groan. This man was molesting me. Even if I didn't call for help, I should have pushed him away or stayed away from him.But my body was far more honest than thought, and I loved the feeling of this hard and big stuff. I looked up to the man's leering eyes.He was a scoundrel, but quite handsome, just like a movie star. He looked at me just like that he could see through my soul. And then he put his hand into my jeans and began rubbing my c******s . That finger was very agile. Just a few strokes made my whole body go soft and my face flushed. I forced myself to wake up from the confusion at the thought of how good Li Wen Lin was to me and grabbed his hand to stop him.However, he didn't stop and even shoved aside my panties and reached into the wet passageway, stirring it wantonly . I had never experienced that kind of excitement and comfort. There were more and more people on the bus, and the man was almost entirely sticking on me under the cover of the crowd. My chest was almost squashed by him. He got more and more brazen, and even shoved his p***s into my trouser and whispered in my ear, "Do you Want it?"