Fighting for Love

Chapter 55

Desiree’s POV

I wake up and feel like I haven’t slept. My head hurts and I still feel tired. Since we are marked and mated, not being with the twins takes a negative toll on me and my wolf. I guess crying myself to sleep also did not help. I heard the twins both times they came to my door, but I was not ready to deal with them. I just want them to see what they are doing to us. I won’t blame them for their actions before they met me, or for the actions of these stupid women, but their response and reply to the situations are all on them. I need to run or train to work off this nervous energy I have. Training was canceled today because we are having a pack family event that includes the announcement. We are doing it for lunch instead of dinner. I wanted the kids to be involved. So, we have large inflatables and were able to rent carnival rides and get pack members trained and licensed to operate them. There will be a DJ, and a pack member knows how to make balloon shapes. We added some games too. It’s a big carnival. I am hoping that it goes well, and we can make this an annual event for the pack.

I get dressed in my workout gear and as I exit my room, I trip over something. It’s actually someone, not something. I looked down and saw Anthony and Antoine sleeping in front of my door

“What are you two doing?”

“You wouldn’t talk to us, and we couldn’t sleep so far from you, so we stayed as close as we could”. Antoine says

“Whatever, excuse me”

“Where are you going?” Anthony asks

“To the gym”

“Can we join you?” he asks

“I am not ready to talk to you yet. If you come just to work out, then fine. Please just leave me alone” I say and walk away.

They followed me to the gym. No one else was there, so I put on my hip-hopap workout mix and start on the treadmill. They don’t bother me and allow me to just focus on my workout. Two hours later, I am sitting and drinking water, Anthony is doing stretches to cool down and Antoine is doing a light walk on the treadmill to cool down.

“Why didn’t you believe me yesterday?” I blurt out. They look at each other and hesitate to answer

“We have been thinking about that, and we don’t know. Dad and the guys have a few theories. In the end, the conclusion is that we don’t know how to be in a real relationship, we have only dealt with women who wanted us for our rank and used their bodies to get it. We don’t know how to be with someone who just wants us and is not looking for something from us. We are also very selfish”, Antoine says

“We keep f*****g up. And every time something comes up, we make it worse by trying to compensate for the fact that we f****d up again. We need to see the three of us as a team; all capable, knowledgeable and respected equals of the team. We all have things to bring to the team and should be valued for what they bring” Anthony says

“Do you have problems seeing me as part of your team?” I question

“I think we have problems seeing you as an equal member of the team. But that will change. We value you Desiree, but we have to not just say it but show it. We apologize for yesterday. We will never disrespect you again”, Antoine says

“I don’t come to you to point out your faults or inadequacies. I am coming to you so we can work together on our faults and inadequacies. A relationship is us being there for each other, to fill each other’s gaps. I wasn’t upset at you for what Sadie and the girls said or did. That is their actions. I was upset because you didn’t support me and have my back against her”

“We understand now. It won’t happen again. I think I feel I’m supposed to know it all since I am the alpha and the oldest; then when things, passed me, especially things others see before me. I feel inadequate, and I’m not okay with that” Anthony says

“There is no way for you to be able to do and see everything. You are being trained to take over a pack and a lucrative company. No one can do all of that alone and something not fall through the cracks. That’s why you have a team to help; your managers at the company and your ranked members here. I would just like to fit in with that team. And if something is wrong, I would request that you talk to me and not be dismissive the way you were yesterday”

“Yes ma’am” they say in unison

Antoine walks to me and puts out his hands to get me off the floor. I jump into his arms and wrap my legs around his waist. I lean in and give him a nice long make-up kiss. Anthony then takes me from Antoine, and I wrap myself around him and kiss him also. He puts me down, and we walk to our room to get ready for the day

“I do want to say something. I have been very calm in handling a lot of things that have come our way. At first, I was the guest here and could not stir the pot. Then we were figuring out the mate bond. I have been doing Luna training with your mom and my temper is a bit fierier than your mom’s. I’m letting you guys know; I’m done cowering to people; I will be exerting myself a bit more around here, and I hope you are okay with that.”

“We are, but if we need to reign things in, we will talk about it together” Antoine says

“Agreed” both Anthony and I say together

We all go take a shower together. Making up for being apart yesterday. I hope the drama from yesterday is over and Sadie, Terrie and Elizabeth got the hint and left