Alexander Remington:- I regretted bringing this up because now I can one hundred percent tell that she is doubting me because I gave the reason to doubt. I know I shouldn't have brought it but I have to bring it up at some point eventually. She is asking me to follow my dreams but how can I do that when she has given up on hers? I can't be selfish and follow my dreams happily while she sacrifices hers because of what I did to her in the past. " Before you get mad I had no intentions. I saw you writing something in your diary a couple of times and got curious so I asked Alessandro what you write in that and he told me that you have got several written diaries in your cupboard's safe and in each diary you have written a book and I figured it out that it must be a novel and no, I don't know