After Sky told me I will be performing live, I went in front of a mirror and begin dancing around to see if I look sexy. I mean, I know I can dance around and do some moves, but never have I danced sexually or tease a man before while dancing to a s****l song. This is definitely a new experience that I will be encountering. I was able to find some new moves while dancing in front of a mirror that I can use tonight to perform.
The fact that Nino told Sky I will be dancing last, really made me feel even more upset, because Nino would rather force me to strip in front of niggas than to have a relationship with him. I wonder if his mother knows where he sent me. Does he even tell his mother everything he does? The fact that he's a cold blooded killer doesn't make his mother ever think where did she go wrong?
"I see you're practicing." Sky voice interrupts my thought. I turn around watching her get up from her bed, adjusting herself to sit down from her sleeping position.
"Yeah, I mean I can't look like a fool now." I told her.
"I feel like you're over thinking. Just go with the flow."
"I never done this before so I really don't know how to act Sky."
"If you really don't want to do this, I can talk to Nino again..."
"No, I mean I would love that, but I don't want you bothering him because of me. I cause to much trouble already with you doing so much for me."
"Don't sweat it girl, I always wanted another roommate."
"Why don't you have one now if I may ask?"
"The last one I had we got into a big fight. I thought she was my girl, but she was stealing money from me." Sky said. She shrugs her shoulder, but I can see she is still hurt by whoever that hurt her. I decided not to ask any more questions.
Sky phone begins to ring, and she quickly excuses herself to take the call away from me. Probably business, I thought to myself. I walk over to my side of the room to begin cleaning and organizing my things Sky brought me from the shopping spree we had.
"Someone wants to talk to you girl." Sky enters back and walks over to me with her phone in her hand. I gave her a confuse look, waiting for her to tell me who it was. Instead, after she hands me the phone, she tells me she's going to take a shower. I place the phone to my ear, and wait for whoever it is to speak.
"Sky, did you give her the phone yet?" My heart drops a little hearing his voice. I shut my eyes not knowing what to say. The last time we saw each other we ended in a big argument. Is he still mad at me?
"Sky?" He calls out. I need to answer. I swallow my emotional feelings that's trying to consume me.
"Hello." I respond on the phone. My heart begins to beat, beat like a drum line, waiting for his response.
"Ashanti, how you doing?" His voice is low and deep. He's calm, asking me how I'm doing. That should mean he's not mad at me anymore right?
"You don't hate me." I tell him, ignoring his question he asks me.
"I can never hate someone that I like ma." He states and my heart leaps a little. What do I say next? What do I say so that we both won't end up arguing with each other? There's so much things I want to say to him, but the fact he placed me here he's probably testing me. Testing me to see if I'm okay with his world, or he could just be punishing me, or he could really be done with me and just leave me here forever until his death.
"That's nice to hear." I told him. I kept it nice and simple. I didn't want to argue with him, if anything I want to resolve this problem with him.
"So that's how it is then?" He asks me.
"What you mean?" I play dumb.
"You acting like we strangers. I'm surprised you not calling me by my real name." Nino chuckles and I stay quiet over the line.
"You must be piss that I have you performing tonight." I can tell what he's doing. Nino is trying to test me; he wants me to get pissed at him. He actually wants a reaction out of me.
"Actually, I'm okay with that. I made a mistake, because I'm only human right? So I got to own up to my shit." I respond to him. I didn't yell at him; I know he must be shocked by my response.
"That money you'll be making is all mine alright?"
"Yup, anything else?" I mention before I hang up on his ass.
"You not allowed to f**k any niggas. They can watch all they want, but no touching at all. I'll be watching so you better perform good so I can see if I should keep you."
"Keep me? What if I'm not good what then?"
"You can either get killed or you can become my bitches punching bag. Either way you're not getting out to see your precious family. The last face you'll see is mine and the last word you hear is mine Ashanti. Don't f**k with me."
Nino is seriously trying to get a reaction out of me. He wants to toy with my emotions, and I can't let him do this to me any longer.
"Alright Nino no problem. I'll give you a good ass performance, if it's not good enough for you I'll be your bitches punching bag. Either way I won't be able to see my precious family, but then again, I will see my family member in heaven after accepting death, I don't mind anymore, because either way you trying to play with my emotions is not going to help us get better. So go ahead and continue to test me. It's not like you want me, you probably got a bit..."
"Daddy, why haven't you come back to bed?" A woman's voice comes up in the background. I hear Nino yell to the woman to get back in the room.
"Wow, bye Nino."
"I'm not f*****g done talking to you Ashanti."
"What is there to talk about Nino? You clearly move on. s**t if I knew you move on so quick I would of never fall this hard for you."
"You tripping right now man."
"Just answer this question for me Nino. Please all honesty, because you got nothing to hide anymore now that I'm trapped under you. Did you f**k any girls while I was staying at the private clinic? No scratch that let me be more specific since ya'll niggas like to go around the bushes. Have you done any s****l things with another woman while I was staying at the private clinic you put me in?"
I waited. I waited for his response, knowing God damn well I may already know the answer. I just wish my crazy intuition can be wrong for once, but after hearing another woman voice with Nino my heart aches so hard.
"Ashanti..."
"You did, huh?" I cut him off. I curse under my breath.
"Ashanti, listen we not even together."
"But you told me I can't touch any niggas Nino! We're not together, but why do I have to stay loyal to you by force, and threatened by you if I even think about touching another man?"
"Because I f*****g said so." He said in a calm warning sound.
"f**k you." I told him as I hung up. I couldn't believe this! This is downright hurtful to be caught in this position with Nino. I couldn't hold on to my feelings that was bottled up. I tried so hard to stay calm and collect, but no he had to say those killer words. There's a f*****g woman with him, that's probably a hoe that's f*****g him like she needs him, but really wants him cause of the status he holds.
I curse under my breathe once again, as I throw a pillow that's on my bed to the floor with force to release my frustration.
"You okay girl?" Sky came up to me placing her hand on my shoulder giving it a little squeeze. I totally forgot Sky was in the room with me. She probably heard everything I said. Tears were threatening to come out and I couldn't cry in front of her, I just couldn't. I nod my head.
"Yeah, Nino gets on my nerve you know." I smile a little at her. I don't think my smile went through to her as she didn't smile back.
"I'm sorry for what he caused you. I heard the story about ya'll before you came here. I'm surprised he's coming to the strip club, he never comes down unless it's money related. He must have it bad for you." Sky said as she walks over to her side of the room to open up her closet.
"He doesn't. He keeps playing these emotional games and he's testing me all the time now." I sigh.
"That's how he is girl. He plays with people's emotions to see if you really down for him. He went through a lot, so don't blame him for his issues, that's how he was raised up you know?" Sky said as she begins to get dressed in front of me. The towel she had on drops and I quickly shut my eyes not wanting to see her goodies.
"So you think he's playing with me?" I question her.
"Yeah, he's definitely is. Don't get me wrong, he wants you for what he's done for you, I have never seen him like this. The last girl he barely did anything for her, but you are very special to him I see."
"I don't see it..." I mutter to myself.
"Well don't worry, I like you and I want you to kill it tonight, so let's get you ready and I'll teach you some moves to use so you can get Nino mad as hell for making you all sad and s**t, okay?" Sky said and I nod my head in approval even though she's not looking over at me.
After Sky did her own make up, hair and got dressed, she turns to me telling me she was ready to help me. With my new look I was feeling more confident and sexy, but can I actually go out there and perform in front of Nino and make him see I am way better than this?
Sky curled my hair, making sure she pins my hair up so the curls can stay in until my performance. She gave me a light natural makeup, because I told her I wasn't into makeup like that. The outfit she gave me, didn't even feel like an outfit at all. I felt like a naked mole rat. She made me put on a skimpy thong and a bra that barely covered my entire chest, because my boob size was a C cup about to be a D cup.
I caught Sky eyes lingering on me from the corner of my eyes. I felt so uncomfortable with her staring at me like that. Do I look like a slut or something?
"Sky, do I look like a slut?" I ask her. Her eyes weren't staring at me, but at my body. I call her name once more, and she finally gives me her attention.
"Girl you look so sexy." She licks her lips and my eyes go wild.
"Sky?"
"Hmm?"
"Do you like girls?" I didn't want to ask her, since we weren't that close, but I had to she was making me so uncomfortable.
"Maybe, maybe not." She winks over at me. That's a yes. I sigh knowing now I have to start being careful around her. Of course she would be Bi or a lesbian, look how long she's been here. All you see is females walking around half naked all the time. There's barely niggas here that come around here.
"Alright, are you ready? I'm going to take you to the strip club since we're late. I'll show you some moves before you go up next." Sky walks over to the door waiting for me to follow her.
As we walk over to the elevator to go down to the strip club, I couldn't help how Sky was popular here. Everywhere we turn a female was calling Sky name like she was a damn celebrity. I was a little envious of her. I mean she had it all confident, the beauty, the body etc. when I first saw here enter the room, I didn't think she would help me with everything. Some females would just ignore you or threaten you about not touching her things or be very jealous of you cause of your beauty. Since the fact, Nino knows me, I hope these females won't have to give me a problem.
Sky had that boss aura about her. She made me feel like s**t the way she was walking all cool and bossy. The booty shorts she was wearing were literally booty shorts that had her cheeks out and about. I'm surprised she didn't go all out on her wardrobe, I can tell Sky loves fashion, but tonight she settles for a regular shirt that said Sky the badass and the booty shorts with high heels.
"We're going to have to go through the back, because if a nigga sees you, they're going to attack you."
I was quiet, my hands were beginning to sweat, and I think I was in need of the bathroom to s**t.
Once we got to the strip club, my eyes went wild seeing the lights flicker crazy through the floor. Weed and alcohol slap my nose as they enter my nose making me cringe. Sky seen this.
"Don't worry you'll get used to the smell after a while." She grabs my hand interlocking with mine and pulls me somewhere. I don't say anything to her about my hand in her since I was going to need her throughout the night, and I don't want her getting upset.
I can tell we were in the back, all the males that were out here had their back facing us. They were so hooked on the show a woman was performing on a pole that Sky and I were able to get inside a room without no problems. The strip club was nothing serious. It looks like an ordinary strip club, nothing was special, beside multiple pole all around for females to do their work.
"Alright listen up! We got a new girl, I expect ya'll to respect her and she will respect ya'll back." Sky announces once we enter the room and shut the door. I didn't expect her to announce me like that. Now I'm the center of attention. I'm guessing this was the girl's locker room, seeing the lockers on the wall and all. There was a giant television on the wall that showed out this room and to the stages. The girls were just staring at me, some with shocked eyes, some with a dissatisfied expression and some with a smile.
"I thought we wasn't taking in anymore poor hoes?" One of the girls in the back yells out. Some girls laugh and I just want to whack whoever said it.
"We aren't but we let your ass in any way, right?" Sky stands up for me and I smile. More girls laugh out loud and whoever said that comment got silent.
"Anyway, I don't want you bothering her at all. If I hear, see and feel like someone is harassing her, ya'll going to deal with me and I'm going to up your rent if you make me mad. Ya'll got it?" A chorus of yes where said.
"Let me show you around girl." Sky still didn't take her hands away from mine and I'm starting to think I might be her b***h or something, because the way the group of girls out there was mostly staring at our hands.
After giving me a tour around the large room, she takes me in her office, which the color is blue everywhere. She finally let's go of my hand, which I am happy and she goes ahead and call on two of these girls to show me some moves which she promises me earlier she would do.
So through the night Sky and the two girls were showing me how to dance sexually and sexy. Sky would leave most of the time, because business call and the girls would be patient with me. At times it was awkward, because they wanted me to try in on them, which I politely decline.
"Alright it's time to perform!" Sky busts through the door, smiling real hard. The two girls told me good luck as they disappear behind the door.
"Nino is here and he's waiting on you to come out. When I tell you, everyone is shocked he's here not collecting money, but to actually sit and watch, some of the girls were beginning to seduce him and let me tell you he cursed their asses out." Sky smile got wider, and that didn't make me feel better at all.
Sky went over to her drawer and pulled out some baby oil.
"Let me add some so your skin will be shining." I let her put the oil on me. All I think is Nino is here and he'll be watching like he told me.
"Oh my god, what's your nickname? You haven't told me what you going to name yourself."
"Sunset." I respond without thinking.
"For some reason it fits you. I would have thought you would name yourself china or booty luscious or some hood rat name. A stripper name Sunset, hmm I like." I don't know why I decided to call myself Sunset, probably because my whole world was left over at Sunset when I perform my last performance and Nino took me to a new world; his world.
We walk out and onto the stage behind the curtains. I watch as the girl before me was giving life to her body as she performs like a pro. The way her body was moving with the music was good, she had some upper body strength the way she was climbing that pole like her life was in danger.
"You know she started here last month." Sky tells me and I'm beyond shock.
"The trick is to have fun and let go of yourself and become someone you always wanted to be."
I glance over at the crowd to see Nino right in front of the stage. I gasp.
"What's up?"
"Nino is sitting right in the front." I told her and she glance into the crowd to see.
"Well damn, why don't you give him a show and go down the stairs and play with other niggas." Sky suggests.
"He told me he will f**k me up if I did that, and not in the good way you might be thinking." I quickly tell her.
"Okay, tease him. Go down the stairs look dead in his eyes and show him you didn't hurt me and that you the shit."
"Okay, I think I can do that."
"No! I know you can." Sky motivates me and even though this is a damn strip club, Sky and I talk as if I'm about to go into war.
"That's what I'm talking about let's give her a round of applause ya'll boys!" The Dj says into the microphone. There's a group of men's who beginning to collect money off the stage. I'm guessing it's for the girl who just perform. She made so much money, the men's had a bag in each hand and from what I counted there were about five guys.
"We got a new girl that is just entering our club, let's give her some love too Sunset!" I look over to Sky who smiled.
"I told him your nickname. I also gave you a nice song to dance to, I hope you can dance to it! Now go!" She gives a little push on the shoulder and I stumble out. The crowd of niggas goes full out crazy and I guess it's time to have fun. I know I'm sexy I chant to myself as I begin to walk slow and sexy out to the crowd. Nino eyes are now glued on me and his mouth is open slightly at my new look and don't forget my tattoo I've got. He looks so shock the way he looks at me with so much confusion on him.
I know my body isn't the best, but I know one thing my body is real and natural and not fake like these fake hoes. There so much niggas eyeing me down, licking their lips going wild. A chorus of damn in the crowd had me smiling, they like, no scratch that they love what they see. I made sure to walk over to the pole that was in the middle and do a little pose. I know for a fact I don't know how to work the pole so I'm not going to bust my crazy ass. Instead, as the music was playing I was just doing little moves and poses here and there.
I swear Nino eyes never blink as he watches me.
"Sunset, Make that ass shake!" Someone screams out and I obey his order. I turn around and I thank the girls back there for teaching me how to shake that ass. I went with the beat and begin shaking my ass like there's no tomorrow. I turn around as the crowd goes wild, throwing so much cash everywhere.
'Tease him.' My mind says to me. I look over to the stairs and walk down heading towards Nino. Nino watches me so cautious, not taking his attention away from me. When I got in front of him, I quickly turn as the beat was about to drop and I crunch down to let my ass rattle right in front of him. The crowd must of like it as they threw more money down at me, making it rain. Nino hand was glued to his side, but his eyes were so dark filled with lust I tell you. I took a risk when I turn around and swing my legs over his leg, placing myself on him as I straddle him tight.
I begin to grind on him on the beat and his eyes shut hard as his lips were pressed in a tight line. He's probably trying to control himself.
I lean into him going to his cheek pressing my lips to give him a nice wet kiss.
"I miss you." I whisper in his ear. That comment was actually true. I wasn't trying to get him wild up with that, I wanted him to hear from me and not my body that I did indeed miss him. He groans slightly, and right when he presses his hands on my ass, I quickly jump off heading my way back to the stage as the music was about to finish.
I begin to move to the beat, letting my body take over how I feel. I was happy, I was actually having fun. Nino looked so pissed, and that made my energy go crazy as I love the feeling he was giving me. I barely didn't pay attention to the other niggas that were going crazy, I only wanted Nino to have my attention. I wanted him to know that he doesn't phases me, and whoever that hoe was that was with him, he's going to pay for that too.
When the music ends I twirl around and jump into a split. Yes, I am very flexible.
"There you go ya'll boys, this stripper name Sunset has come and conquer this stage. I see Nino still hook on her so you already she is getting a bonus!" The Dj yells into the microphone and the crowd of niggas goes crazy.
The same niggas that was picking up the money from the previous girl was now here and collecting my money. I walk behind the curtains and Sky was there squealing like a child.
"Damn girl, I didn't think you would dance like that and actually use our moves. I honestly thought you were going to s**t on yourself and run off the stage or something." Sky gives me a hug and I chuckle.
"I listen to what you said before I got on. To have fun and tease Nino."
"Yes, you did girl! Sunset, the name fits you like a charm. You should have seen..." Sky kept rambling on and I couldn't help but look for Nino out onto the crowd. I didn't see him anymore, which made me upset as always.
Maybe I can get used to this, just maybe.