I sobbed silently habang nakatingin sa pader. Tulog na si Jandro and I am having a depression tonight. Having leukemia feels like torture, nalulungkot ako dahil takot ako na mawala sa mundo at higit sa lahat, takot ako na hindi makasama si Jandro ang ang anak namin. The thought of not seeing them is killing me.
I know na sinabi ko na magiging matatag ako pero tao lang din naman ako. I glanced at my husband who is sleeping peacefully at lumapit ako sa kanya and I hugged him.
“Jandro, sana balang araw, matutunan mo rin akong mahalin.” I whispered and sobbed silently. He stirred in his sleep at humarap siya sa akin. I was frozen at tinignan kung nagising ba siya but thankfully, he was still sleeping at niyakap niya ako ng mahigpit.
My body softened in his hug at nakasubsob ako ngayon sa
