They went to England on their honeymoon and on the morning they left she couldn’t remember leaving the taxi or getting undressed or getting into bed and because she’d been drifting in and out of sleep and had felt his hands on her and his breath on her neck during the night but didn’t know it was when he was carrying her into the house and upstairs to bed, and because she knew he’d wanted to have s*x with her for the past two days, she was worried. She was worried even though the inside of her didn’t feel like they’d had s*x, which was sometimes like a bee sting when she peed right after and made her moan. She was worried because she needed him to be careful because she had a secret and her secret was more important than s*x and she was lost in thought and sitting on the toilet and he came
