Robin's Curse

Kabanata 9

Six months and three days. It' been six months and three days since I came here. My home town.

I stared at myself on the mirror in front of me. I don't know what's happening to me. I feel weak and tired and stress and I don't know what to do anymore. These past few days, I keep on throwing up, feel impulsive and my emotions are very easy to trigger. Sometimes it is causing arguments between me and whoever triggered my emotions. I am easy to get mad these days and I don't know why. I feel like if I didn't vent out nor get mad, I will lose my head. As if every damn time I am trying to control my emotion I will gone crazy. Every morninng I am starting an argument with my Mom or Oscar or even Sleav in a very simple reason.

"Honey, still there?" I heard Mom' voice on my room while I am standing here in front of the Mirror on my bathroom.

"Don't you really want to come to the Hospital?" I hissed when I heard it.

"Why do you always insist to go to that place when I already gave you my answer and that is no!" I shouted. My eyes are starting to water and my emotions are controlling me again.

Ano ba talagang nangyayari sa akin?

"Honey," I heard her voice behind me as her reflection on the mirror follows. Tinaliman ko ng tingin ang repleksyonniya.

"There must be something wrong. Nakamamatay din ang pagsusuka lalo na at hindi mo naman naibabalik ang sinsuka mo dahil ayaw mo kumain." Malambing at kalmado ang boses niya pero iba ang dating sa akin noon. Parang nanunuya.

"I don't need anyone. I want to be alone but you keep on insisting that horrible idea. Really? You want me to get back on that hell?" My voice is poisonous. Umiling siya at nakita ko ang pagkunot ng noo niya.

"Honey, no. I just want you to feel better sinec ilang araw ka ng ganiyan. Baka naman lumala pa-" I cut her off.

"I don't want to and like I said may nakain lang ako kaya ganoon. Besides ilang araw pa lang naman 'to," I reasoned out trying to make understand my point kahit pa alam ko na kung nasa tamang pagiisip ako ay hindi rin tama ang rason ko.

Who can blame me? I will surely keep insisting that I am fine huwag lang ako madala sa lugar na iyon. Pakiramdam ko, sa oras na makapasok uli ako doon ay hinding hindi na ako makalalabas pa.

"I am just afraid that if we neglect this, baka lumala pa, anak." Nagsusumamo ang mata niya pero hindi ko iyon pinakinggan.

"Hindi ako babalik sa Hospital na iyon. At saka hindi ba't Doctor naman si Oscar? Bakit hindi niya na lang ako tignan at magpadala siya ng mga gamot dito. Ganoon dapat ang gawin niya," Mariin kong sambit.

I heard my Mom's defeat sighed.

"I already tried, Robin but like what you know, your body isn't normal. Kung nasa Hospital ka ay mas matitignan ka ng ayos," Paliwanag ng boses mula sa labas.

Oscar Lee is on my room. That devil of a man is on my room! Mabilis kumilos ang aking katawan at kinabig ang pinto para makalabas. Hindi ko na inintindi si Mommy dahil ang tanging umiikot sa utak ko ay may ari ng boses na iyon.

Paglabas ko siyang nakaupo sa mismong kama ko na naging dahilan ng tuluyang pagkaputol ng pisi ng aking pasensya.

"How dare you enter my room without my permission?" I shouted.

I saw mommy rushing towards us.

"Honey, it's okay. i let him in para matignan ka niya," plaiwanag niya.

"This is my room and I don't want his presence here!" I reasoned out. I didn't see any expression on Oscar's face aside from boredom as if he is watching a boring TV shows. That made me more mad.

"Get out!" I demanded. Mommy tried to stop me but I hissed on her and stop her from interrupting me.

"Kung wala ka naman palang magagawa, lumabas ka na. Your presence makes me more stress." I said. straightforward. My voice is like an ice.

"The only thing I cando is to bring you to the Hospital to ensure you are okay. Nawawalan ka ng kontrol sa emosyon mo and you know that it's bad, Robin. Once na hindi mo nagawang kontrolin ang sarili mo, maaring magamit mo uli ang abilidad mo at maari kang makapanakit ng iba. I just want the best for you because Theodore will visit again tomorrow. I hope you can face them without lashing out or acting like that because I am sure, they will bring you back to the Hospital." He said those words sounding like a concern father to his child and my Mom's fae soften and her eyes are almost telling him how thankful she is but I know better.

It is an act.

"Liar!" I shouted. Mom's eyes widened.

"Robin! Stop being a brat. Oscar is just concern about you," she said. I huffed.

"Concern my a*s. If I know he has something to do with what's happening to me right now." I said. Hindi ko na mapigilan ang sarili ko kahit pa ang mga salitang lumalabas sa bibig ko. Ganito ang epekto ng galit sa akin.

"Robin! How dare you accused someone like that?" Mom's exclaimed. Oscar went o her side and brush her shoulder, calming her.

"It's okay. Maybe she doesn't mean it." he looked at me and smile sweetly but I saw something flickered on his eyes. Something bad. Something evil.

"Robin will surely regret what she said when she calm down."

I continue staring at him.

"Let's go downstairs. Robin can handle herself, right Robin?" he asked me and I saw my Mom look at me with a pleading eyes.

"Of course. i don't need your fake worries and concerns here," I turned my back from them but before that, I saw the disappointing look on my Mother's face.

I heard the door creaked and thought they are already gone but when I looked at it, Oscar is still standing as if waiting for me to look at him.

He said the words that brought shivered on my spine.

"Be prepared." with that and he is gone.

Be prepared from what?

Should I expect something? Does that mean I should not let my guard down? What should I be prepared for?

The cold and strong wind feels like a warning that there might be a storm coming. Rain might drop later at night. It's dusk and my entire day actually feels gloomy.

I feel alone. I wish Sleav was here. He's gone for work and will come home surely by ten in the evening. More hours of feeling alone and pathetic.

Nagpakawala ako ng buntong hininga at saka pinilit balikan ang maaring posibleng dahilan kung bakit ako nagkaganito.

The day after Theodore's visit I am actually fine. I am calmed. rational and absolutely energetic but the next day, I woke up with morning sickness. I started throwing up and feels dizzy and weak. If I didn't know myself, I will think that I am pregnant but I know I am not because I just finished my monthly period.

Naisip ko rin na baka late lang ang epekto ng buwanang dalaw pero naalala ko ring kahit kailan, simula ng magkaroon ako ay hindi naman ko nagkaganito.

I argued with my Mom just because she keeps on asking me if I will go to work and that irritates me but why?

I also feel like I am not motivated to go to work or even take a walk. I just want to shut myself from them.

Sleav tried to give me comfort and I just shout at him. Maybe that's why I should not asked more of his presence because I might lash out again on him. Hindi sapat na dahilan ang nangyayari sa akin upang gawin ko sa kaniya iyon. Siya na lang ang kakampi ko dito. Oscar gained my Mom's sympathy because of my actions.

How did I become like this? And why do I feel like Oscar has something to do with this?

I remember what Theodore told him when he visited us.

"I am counting on you, Oscar."

What does that mean? Did hee do this to me? Isa pa, alam kong nagkausap pa sila bago tuluyang umalis ang mga iyon. Maybe this is their plan? They drugged me or something kaya sinabi niya na maaring ang susunod nilang pagbalik dito ay huli na? Because they will make me do something stupid that will be enough reason to imprison me in the Hospital?

"Oh my God..." I murmured.

Already had that theory on my mind. They will do everything to bring me back. I didn't know that I am crying already. My mind is filled with thoughts and different possibilities.

"Robin will surely regret what she said."

What does that mean? That I will receive something more like a punishment? That I will be treated the way I treated him?

"Be prepared."

I should be prepared Tomorrow?

I should warn Sleav, should I? Maybe he can help me? I should tell Mommy about this.

I stood up an ready to run downstairs but I realized something.

Mommy might not believe me. She will surely think I aam still not thinking rational now.

I walked towards the sofa on my room. I pick up the pen and the book that Sleav always read when he is here in my room. I look at the first page where the title of the book lies. I wrote my assumptions towards my situation.

Sleav,

I might be gone when you read this. Oscar might drugged me and that is the reason of the sudden changes of my mood and body's strange reaction. I am not certain but I have the instinct. I have a feeling that Oscar and Theodore planned this so they can brought me back to the Hospital. I am not just accusing him. I am thinking right the moment I wrote this. I am not mad.

Remember when Theodore said that their next visit will be the last? I am sure it has something to do with their plan. You said you don't trust Oscar and maybe you will think of this possibilities. I will tell Mommy about this and if she didn't believe me, I will run. away. That's the only option I got.

I am sorry If I dragged you at my problem. thank you for being a great friend. take care of my mom.

- Robin.

I fold the book and return it on the same place where Sleav put it.

I change my clothes to something comfortable. I took my Money that I save. Thank God, Mom never asked for it and let me have my salary for my own. Gagamitin ko sana 'to para sa paglipat ko pero ngayon, I just need to get away with Oscar before they can catch me.

I put everything on my pack bag before I throw it outside my window. As I planned where I should go, what I should do I ended up knocking on my Mother's room.

I heard her say 'come in' so I entered the room. I saw her tired eyes but still she manage to smile at me.

"Do you need anything, honey?" her voice is hoarse and her eyes are puffy. She cried. I knew it. i am stressing her out but I can't do anything about it. I might add to it now that I am going to tell her about the thing with her boyfriend and when I finally run, I don't know what will happen to her.

She noticed how uneasy I am.

"What is it, honey? Tell me." she pursue me. I sighed and began telling her about it.

It didn't came out good like what I expected. Our supposed to be gentle and calm conversation became a chaos. We started shouting she cried and keep on begging me to stop being a brat. I almost cried and beg for her to believe me but my pride didn't want me to. i insisted. With much more determined voice.

"He is planning something evil about me and you don't want to believe it? You are supposed to be on my side. You are my mother after all."

I exclaimed.

"I will believe you if you are not making up excuses and lame assumptions. This is too much, Robin." she said, still crying.

Halos ligpas sampung minuto na rin kaming nagtatalo at nakakapagtaka na hindi sumusulpot ang lalaking iyon para magpanggap na anghel. I assumed he is not here. I ended up my coversation with my Mom by stomping on my feet and closing the door recklessly causing it to make a loud sound.

I walk towards my room and gather my phone and put on my hoodie. I was about to go and stormed out of the house but when I open the door of my room, I saw Oscar standing there with a syringe on his hand. He grabbed me and injected it on my nape and suddenly everything went black.