18. Emery Elder Jones and I have been in the observation booth for about an hour now. Looking out at Terry sitting in the chair is making me on edge. Serena keeps throwing different things at his neck trying to get that damn collar off. I just keep hoping that nothing goes airy and hurts Terry. I have distanced myself, trying not to feel so attached to him, but it doesn’t seem to be working for me. I can’t help but to watch him when he is training with Chris. I hide in the corner and watch where no one can see me. I have noticed that he is becoming stronger. He is actually building muscle on his arms and legs that make me drool. He is also starting to have confidence in himself. He keeps his head up now and always makes eye contact. All of this just makes him more attractive. I come back