One's Eden: Hanayuki Travel

Chapter 38: Truth I don't want to learn

Three days since the death of Princess Noah. I told Eula about her last words. All Princess Noah wanted was the peace of her sisters. It is wrong even from Eula’s perspective, but what's done is done. I killed her and there is no way to return her to life.

Eula was grieving, but instead of letting herself down for days, she stood up straight wiping her tears.

“I can’t drag you into my quest anymore, Hanayuki.”

“Is it because I killed your sister?”

Eula shook her head and responded.

“That’s because I don’t want you to feel this pain anymore. My quest is full of pain and suffering. Because of me, you are in extreme pain. You empathize easily with others. Hanayuki is very kind-hearted. Noah has already killed thousands of people, but you still cried for her. I appreciate your tears and grieving. And that needs to be stopped… I’ll do my quest on my own and Hanayuki needs to go back to her adventure in searching for your memories.”

“I promised to help you.”

“I revoke the promise… It's fine to break it. Same with me, after I venture alone, I find out that peace can’t be reached in this world. All people are different. All people have different objectives. Happiness is different for everyone. I can’t create peace just by making a few people happy. My dream of a peaceful land is nothing but a dream. I feel like giving up on it.”

“Eula, but this is your kingdom.”

“We are surrounded by evil people. My family is evil and there is no way of denying that. But I also loved them… My sisters especially. Big sister Justine just died not long before. Her death was because of me. Because I thought she was evil.”

“But you said you hadn’t met her yet.”

“I lied… I killed her with my own hands after knowing that she wanted to kill the royal family and aristocrats. I thought I was one of the people she wanted to kill. I stabbed her in her chest while she was sleeping. See, I’m acting kind, but I’m also evil inside. Being evil is our nature of us. It's on our bloodline. No matter how I like to be kind, my evil self will continue to appear. I can’t be truly kind. I try to be kind and help others, but an uneasy feeling whirls in my heart every time I help someone. When I asked you to join me, I felt an unbelievable amount of disgrace. I want to ruin you and see you flustered… One night, while you were sleeping, I tried to make a move on your body… I have liked girls and put sleeping powder on the food you eat once. I play your body until I’m satisfied. Cake saw me and I promised to take her to her homeland in exchange for not telling her the lewd things I did to her body. I sexually harassed you. I’m the worst! The worst girl is possible! I’m a hypocrite”

“You're just kidding, right? No way happened. You're just saying that for me to hate you.”

“Nope, it's the truth. I feel ecstasy when I’m rubbing myself on your body. I feel good when my hands play with your breast. I like it when I put my finger on your private part… I’m ashamed of myself… That’s why I can’t go with you anymore. I’m confessing everything… I’m insane… I’m insane… I’m weird… I’m evil.”

“Why tell me everything?”

“I don’t know… Maybe because this is the last time we see each other. I’ll continue pretending kind and doing my best to survive.”

Eula had her eyes downcast, looking down, averting her eyes, continuously shedding tears.

She confessed everything to me. It's wrong and she did those things to me without permission. Looking at her, I could feel how serious she was. Indicating that she is not lying and every word she says is true.

But what is this feeling? This bad feeling in my heart. We’re both suffering in deep pain.

“Eula…”

There is nothing I could do… There is nothing I can say. Wanting to stay with each other will just further enlarge the scar on our hearts.

This world is mad… This world is pure madness.

My conclusion from everything I’ve experienced. If I had a choice, I wouldn’t want to learn about this truth. For that moment, I wished to be a fool.

The following day, Eula and I passed by each other like we were strangers. We severed our bond with each other and we went on a different path.

Before we left each other, Eula held my hands and hugged me.

“The world is full of evil people… I want Hanayuki to be kind and continue helping others who are lost and wandering in this cruel world.”

I nodded in response and turned away. Walking on a different path away from Eula. She might forget me, but I won’t forget her.

With mixed emotions running through my chest. Our story ended at a conclusion I never expected. The adventure between me and the princess.

Two months later.

I find out that princess Eula was found dead after an assassination. The kingdom is still under evil rulers. The only hope might be the surviving princess, Princess Yusael.

I’m sad, but that’s how everything played out.

I must continue and move forward toward a bright tomorrow.