the little boy I knew

the bleeding continues..

the bleeding should have stopped haven't it? should I wash it with just water or soap or a vaginal wash , thanks to our society even a thirty year women is clueless about what should be done in this situation , thanks to the technology been threw few articles which said it will stop eventually , after dealing with this I saw a message on my screen reading are you all right and I replied I m still bleeding and deleted because I don't wanted to disturb him since it was my conscious choice so he should not be held responsible for anything but there was a message followed he might have read it before I deleted so I told him and said he need not to worry I would see a geologist .it all got sorted but the bleeding which has started in my memories continued I bleed every day thinking over and over again why he cheated me with my own hands when we were together as friends don't he be the one trusting me with his secrets because we were good friends who can talk everything but are we? he is a complete different person now but I am still looking for the boy I once knew.