Chapter Six
OutrageousActs
I havent seen Dr. Astin for nearly a month. Hes called nearly once a week, to check in, and let me know that we wont be meeting. On the surface, Im relieved, while my poor obsession feels as if its wasting away for lack of attention. What was so omnipresent weeks ago, drifts away with so little real stimulation. Even the nasty instructions about my peeing have lost their magic, since I havent really been under his command in so long. Has he lost interest? I wonder every day that slips away with no sign of change.
Ive been getting desperate in the last week, thinking of the ropes again, planning a way I can re-enact those earlier scenes. I almost did a week ago, but Ben came home early and I had to stop before I got very far. I jumped him instead and t
