Where my Heart Belongs

2 - Getting Permission

Bowling was fun, just what I needed after the last few weeks. Caleb never fails in taking my mind off the important stuff, even if it is only for a few hours.

After bowling we went to the pizza place a few streets along.  As we sit in the booth opposite each other munching on a classic pepperoni stuff crust. The laughter coming from us was disturbing the other patrons and we were asked to keep it down.  Boring asses.

After pizza we went for a walk along the river. Hand in hand and just chatting like we always do. There never is really an awkward moment with us and it’s nice.

We stopped for a little bit and sat on the bench watching the ducks swim around.

“You got your dress for prom?” he asks as he wraps his arm around my shoulder.

“Yeah got it today. Its stunning" I tell him the colour only so he can buy a tie to match and no more details.

“I was going to book a room at the hotel for us to stay the night of prom.” He says quietly.

“really?” I ask. A little shocked. Staying the night after prom is so cliche but it is what I want.

“Yeah. I mean, nothing has to happen. We’ve never stayed together the whole time we’ve been going out. Not just the two of us anyway. Now thinking about it I don’t think Myles will let you, I was going to ask him for permission, but I thought that would be weird.” He chuckles.

“I would like to. I mean... stay with you and you know.... I’m ready Caleb. I love you and you are amazing in every way.” I mumble and stutter, feeling nervous all of a sudden.

“I love you too. I’m not saying this to pressure you at all, Mia. But if you do end up moving away it will be harder for us to have time together and I want to be with you, make love to you even if it is the only time we get" he says as he holds my hands in his and gazes into my eyes.

I nod my head and tell him I will speak to Myles but not to book a room just yet in case my plan doesn’t work.

We eventually head home as it was getting cold and dark. Not wanting my mum to worry about me, when we got back it was just after 8.30pm so Caleb came in for a little bit.

When we got in mum was watching a movie with a big bag of popcorn, we joined her for a little bit when Myles came in looking like he was in a good mood. I decide to go speak to Myles and see how good a mood he is in.

“hi" I say to him as he makes coffee for him and mum

“Mia" he says. He knows when I act all shy I’m wanting something.

“This is a sensitive topic, and I don’t want you to get mad but please listen" I wait for his reply. He just nods his head for me to continue.

“So, Caleb and I are wanting to stay at the hotel after prom" I blurt out.  He stops what he was doing and doesn’t speak. I wasn’t sure what to expect when I said it, but the silence is scary.

“Right. Well. I will talk to mum about it" I say as he still hadn’t said anything.  I turn to leave the kitchen but stop as Myles speaks

“Will it be your first time?” he whispers.  I turn and nod my head. We may be close, but we don’t talk about our experiences to each other, so he doesn’t know I’m still a virgin.

“If mum is ok with it then I will be too. But I swear if he hurts you I will hurt him" he says louder, obviously to make sure Caleb hears him. I run up to him and hug him, I kiss his cheek and return to the living room to see mum and Caleb laughing at the movie.

A little after ten Caleb leaves to head home. We stand outside the front door holding each other and snogging. My lips are swollen and I’m so horny I don’t want him to go.

“I’ll call you tomorrow. Speak to your mum and hopefully I can book a room.” He winks as he kisses me once more and walks to his car. I wave him off and take a deep breath to calm myself before having this conversation with my mum.

When I get back inside, Myles is nowhere to be seen, thank god. I sit beside mum as she is flicking through then channels.  I get all nervous and try having the conversation in my head before I speak.

“Mum" I say in a whisper.

“Mia?” I look up to her scared.  “What’s wrong?” she turns her body around switching the TV off, giving me her full attention.

“Can I stay with Caleb after prom?” I ask, not looking at her.

“Just the two of you?” I nod my head   “At his house?” I shake my head,

“The hotel where your prom is being held?” I nod my head.  “Will it be your first time, you know, doing it?” she whispers.  I nod my head embarrassed.

“I thought you had already done it with him. That’s sweet he has waited. I have no issue at all, just don't come home pregnant" she chuckles.

I wrap my arms around her and squeeze her tight. “And don’t tell Myles” my mum whispers

”I already asked him" I tell her. “Caleb was going to ask, but he got scared.” I laughed when I saw mums face.

After we sat and chatted a little bit, mum saying she will make sure she buys me condoms and she thanks me for being considerate and asking permission to stay the night with Caleb.  I did tell her that we might not even have s*x, but mum says she will get some just to be on the save side.  Being nearly 18 years old, she knows I’m sensible and wouldn’t be silly enough not to use protection. She did the same for Myles at prom, so she feels she needs to do it for me as well.

The weekend end went crazy quick. I called Caleb first thing on the Sunday to tell him to book a room and that we would split the cost, but he refused to let me pay. He wants it to be special and is willing to spend his money on me.  He really is the sweetest.  He did point out that even if we don't have s*x, which he is not pushing for, just spending the night together with nobody disturbing us will be worth it.

Monday morning came by and I was dreading going to school.  I have all my projects ready to hand in and have things prepared for the special assembly our year are hosting.

Arriving at school I find Jess beside out lockers. We were lucky we are right beside each other, perfect meeting place.

“Hey babes” she squeals when she sees me walking towards her.

“Hey Jess”  I reply, giving her a huge hug. It feels like months since I last saw her.

“You ready for our last official week of school?”  she jumps up and down all excited.

“Yeah, so can’t wait” I say with just as much enthusiasm.

We head away from our lockers and head separate ways.  Jess has a completely different timetable to me, and we are not in any of the same classes.  After the last few years we have just had to get on with it.

Lunch soon came after having some really boring classes, with exams over it was just going over the last small bits for our projects and handing in any other work we needed to. Pretty much a boring day and it will be like this for the rest of the week.

At lunch we chill out in the canteen with our other friends. I chat with Caleb on the phone as he is on his break as well. He tells me that the garage is busier than normal, and he has his final exam for his course next week and all going well he will be a fully trained mechanic.  I am super proud of him, he has always wanted to be a mechanic and with the help my dad and Myles gave him he will be fully qualified a year ahead of his peers.

After lunch, Jess and I have a free period, so we decide to help out with the assembly preparations, anything to pass the time.  I tell Jess that me and Caleb are staying at the hotel after prom.  She is so jealous of my relationship, not the fact that I have a sexy ass boyfriend, that would just be weird as it is her cousin.

“Have you decided about Uni yet?” she asks, changing to subject

“Yeah, I applied to Edinburgh and Glasgow. Closer to home. Not sure I would cope moving away now dad is gone”  I tell her.

After a lengthy conversation with Mum and Myles on Sunday, they supported my decision to study closer to home.  Mum was a little bit upset that I wanted to stay, but I told her I was doing it for me, I had never really wanted to move away and now telling them that made me feel better.

After school was done and all projects handed in and after finding out that we don't need to attend classes unless we had outstanding work, means we have a few extra days off to chill before our leavers assembly and prom.

“If you and Caleb are planning on doing the deed I think we need to go shopping and get some nice underwear for under your dress”  Jess flashes me a cheeky grin as she grabs my hand and pulls me towards her car.

If I didn’t already hate shopping, I hated it even more now. Jess plus shopping equals sore feet and a headache. Wish me luck.