Intro
Never in my life had I ever felt like this, damaged, helpless, scared, and more than anything else the anger and white hot pain in my chest.
Seriously ?, why do I have to feel this much about some person I barely know!?.
But no matter how much I try to change my mind away from him, this intense pain is like a freshly created tattoo, etched into my heart, it just won't leave me!!.
Damn, this s**t hurts like a b***h, ......
No matter how much I try to distract myself from him, I end up thinking about him again and again like I'm running in some kind of loop or something.
It's like he has my soul in his grip, pushing and pulling as he wishes, I hate it, I hate how I have no control over my mind, how I feel like I'm on the back seat of my own life.
I sighed, as I remembered how it all started.
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Hi, my name is Maya Spencer.
I'm a high school girl who is about to graduate within 8 months with absolutely no idea of what to do next or what to be in my life.
But I'm very much looking forward to my graduation day.
Cause all I want, is to get the hell out of this shitty blood-sucking money-minded school and out of my house.
Don't get me wrong I love my parents and my big brother more than my own life, but they spoil me so much.
Being the dad's little princess got me little to no freedom at all.
He is the type of dad who wants to protect his little girl from the eyes of the cruel world and, at the same time expect his daughter to be empowered and daring to do whatever she wants.
I sighed, as much as I could understand where he was coming from and his heart was in the right place.
He is controlling as hell, like making ridiculous curfew, how I should behave, how I should dress and even if I can see my friends or not! , to which the answer is always no.
He controlled pretty much everything in my life like my life is a video game and he has the controller on his hands.
At first, I tried to follow everything he said to please him but as time passed everything he said started annoying me. But I love him, and he is the best dad ever so I can never hurt him.
So I decided to do the only thing I could do
' Fake it till I make it '. I hid all of my sadness and did everything to make him happy.
But apart from my facade, all his control in my life raised this intense need to be free someday, I promised myself I would never be controlled by anyone again.
Even if I ever love someone in my life I will surely choose someone that would love me and cherish me and let me be free instead of trying to cut my feathers.
And I hate my school because it's the shittiest school you can see in this world, my school is filled with girls like plastics from mean girls and the hottest heartthrob boys, who will change girls every day like they are changing their clothes.
My school has this weird rule created by the popular kids which even the faculty follows, any girl who is over the size of zero is cast out as a weirdo and freak.
And..... lucky me, I'm one of them. I'm an XL XL-sized student Being non-interested in sports or any physical activity made me overweight and my stress eating habit didn't help it at all.
I was bullied in my school every day for being overweight, they called me names, flipped my food on my head, and even the faculty would look down on me, they would always favour the popular kids over me.
The worst of all is this girl named Sarah, she is my No. one bully, every bit of my body hates her.
At first, I was scared of her and her bullying, but later I started standing up for myself, and of course, each time I tried to defend myself I was the only one who got in trouble in the end.
The waste of principal would blankly give me detention without even asking a single question from his favourite student.
Sigh,
I hate the idea of spending another 8 months in this s**t hole.
