A Sinful Affair

4th Affair

(MILA YSHNA ORDOÑEZ’s POINT OF VIEW)

WE decided to get married today. My parents knew nothing about it, and his parents disapproved it but he loves so much, and I love him too. We will do everything even though it means that we need to run-away and forget our present lives. It will be beneficial for me but what about him?

He needs to forget about the comfort that he had, break the rules and live beyond his borders.

Siguro ‘di ko talaga alam ang gagawin ko kung wala si Stephen ngayon sa tabi ko. He makes things easier for me, even though God knows how hard it is that’s going on. “Ma’am Mila, sigurado po ba kayo na ‘di niyo sasabihin sa Mama at Papa niyo ito?” tanong ni Yaya Martha sa akin. She found out that I’m pregnant dahil sa araw araw na pagsusuka ko every morning, and she was bothered about it.

Sinabi ko rin sa kaniya yung totoong nangyari na may ginawang hindi maganda si Seth sa akin at ngayon si Stephen gusto niya akong ilayo para panagutan. Kaya ayan tuloy nag-alala si Yaya Martha hindi daw kasi alam ng mga magulang at baka daw anong isipin ng mga tao lalo na kung malaman nila na hindi si Stephen ang ama. So I told her that I decided to keep it as a secret at hayaan na lang na si Stephen ang maging ama ng baby ko.

He was willing to do it and I think I only way for me to be able to raise this baby. “They doesn’t care anyway,” sagot ko kay Yaya Martha.

“Pero magulang mo pa rin sila, ngayon napagdesisyunan niyong ikasal at tatakas pa kayo ni Sr. Stephen. Ma’am ‘di ata magandang ideya iyan,” sabi sa akin ni Yaya Martha habang sinusuklay ang buhok ko.

“What can we do? Ayaw ng parents niya and my parents sigurado ako na gagamitin lang nila yung katotohanan na na-rape ako ni Seth,” sagot ko sa kaniya and smiled. It was hard to accept the fact that I was violated but I need to move on. Atleast umaayon ang mga pangyayari ngayon sa akin.

“Just don’t tell Mom that I’m getting married today and I will runaway with him,” habilin ko kay Yaya Martha. Wala siyang nagawa kundi ang pumayag sa gusto ko, I left at around 9AM. Ikakasal kasi kami sa Civil at napeke na namin ang parents conscent. It was amazing how Stephen was able to do these things. Di kasi kami makakakuha ng marriage contract because we are underage Dahil kapag 21 ka lang kasi pwedeng ikasal without consent. My phone beeped and I saw a message from Stephen.

“Are you ready?” My heart thumped fast when I saw his message.

“Yes,” I typed a quick reply at lumabas na ako ng bahay, there I saw him wearing white polo shirt while looking at me. Bigla ko tuloy naalala yung gabi na tumawag siya to ask for my hand and marry me. I can’t believe na in just a week nagawan niya ng paraan and now we are getting married. Lumapit ako sa kaniya and he made me enter his car, we were both quiet as he was driving.

“We’re getting married,” he said to break the silence.

“Yes…” I whispered back. And he held my hand. “I’m really excited to the point that I wasn’t able to sleep last night,” sabi niya sa akin. Hinawakan ko ang tummy ako and looked at him. “Are you really sure?” I asked him. He kept his eyes on the road but a smile flashed on his face.

“Oo naman, is that even a question? Are you hesitating?” He asked me.

“Oo, kasi ano—”

“Dahil ‘di ako ang Papa ng baby mo, and because my parents had a lot of dreams for me pero mababalewala lang dahil sayo. Been there,done that and through that. All I want is to marry you, be with you, make you happy and heal you,” sagot niya sa akin.

“Madaling sabihin yan para sayo, pero parang ang kapal naman ng mukha ko Stephen. Pakiramdam ko pinapaako ko ang baby ko sa’yo,” sagot ko sa kaniya. Kasi pagbalik-baliktarin man ang mundo iyan ang tingin ng lahat.

“So, I don’t care,” he simply answered as we reached the City Hall. Bumaba kami doon and we are welcomed by Henry, his friend na magiging witness for our wedding. We only invited him to keep everything a secret.”I arranged the trip already, andoon na rin yung gamit niyo. Sigurado na ba kayo sa gagawin n’yo?” He asked us.

“Lahat na lang ba itatanong iyan? Of course we are,” He responded at agad na kaming pumasok sa loob. Kinakabahan ako until the time comes na kailangan na naming ikasal. The moment passed by quickly pero alaala ko kung paano niya banggitin ang mga salitang I do sa harap ni Mayor. Alaala ko ang mga tingin niya sa akin that time. I will never forget it, kasi his stares made me think that everything that happened was not a nightmare but a blessing because I have proven that I really have him beside me.

“I love you,” He whispered before he gave me a sweet kiss on my cheeks. I smiled and blush “you can do it on the lips now, were finally married,” I told him.

“Mas importante sa akin ang kasama ka ngayon kesa ang mahalikan ang labi mo,” he told me and I blushed because of that.

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(SETH VON ARCILLA’S POINT OF VIEW))

“MAN, your f*****g drunk!” Anthony told me as I take my last shot of the rhum that I was drinking. It kept on repeating on my mind, the part where she was bleeding. She's pregnant but I know that I am not the father of the baby. She's a w***e to begin with kahit naman na virgin siya nung nakuha ko siya, sigurado ako that she was sleeping with other man around after what happened.

She’s the type to do everything for money, sinira nga niya ang pamilya ko diba? Kung hindi naming siya nakita ni Mom na kasama ni Daddy palabas sa hotel room hindi sana ako magagalit ng ganito. Halos mabaliw ang mom ko ngayon ng dahil kay Mila.

“I know,” I told him

“Still thinking about Ordonez, diba buntis daw yun at si Yui yung ama?” He asked me.

“The hell do I care?” I asked him back with a death glare. “Parang impossible kasi tol, matapos mong rape - in eh biglang buntis tapos si Yui ang ama?  Hindi ba nabigla ka kasi virgin pa pala siya,” He asked me.

“She's a w***e,” I told with a quick response. "She might like what we did ask Yui to do it to her too."

“Pero paano nga kung ikaw ang ama?” He asked me. “You had her first, nagpakasawa ka pa.”

“I really don't care about her. I'm pretty sure that I'm not the father.” I told him at binaba ko na ang baso. I grabbed my keys and decided to leave the place humabol pa siya to ask where am I going pero di na ako sumagot, sumasakit lang ulo ko sa pagiging chismoso ni Anthony. On my way home, I stopped my car ng makita ko sa daan si Stephen and Mila na pababa ng sasakyan, may bag silang dala and both are wearing white, with Mila's dress her tummy was visible and I can see it clearly, she is still pregnant and unknowingly, I felt something good about it. I saw the both of them about to enter the bus going to Tarlac. I immediately went out of my car and approached them.

“Hey, what a small world!” I said as I come near them. “Anong ginagawa mo dito?” baka sa ulo ni Stephen at sa tono niya ang biglaang pagkabanas sa paglapit ko.

“Stephen, umalis na tayo paalis na ‘yung bus…” sabi ni Mila.

“Oo, aalis na tayo pero gusto ko lang tanungin sa gagong ‘to kung ano ang kailangan niya. “

“Chill, kakamustahin ko lang naman si Mila, kamusta yung tummy mo?” I asked her. “The hell do you care?” sagot niya sa akin sa matapang na tono.

 “Maybe I care because that child is mine,” I told her with a smirk written on my face. Agad na nanlaki ang mga mata niya dahil sa mga sinabi ko.

 “So, ano pa ring pakialam mo?” She asked me back.

“Are you planning to run-away with my baby?” I asked her but It was meant as a joke to piss her off. Alam ko naman kasi na di ko anak ang batang iyan. God, she's a w***e who loves to sleep around. Di ko nga alam kung bakit napaniwala pa niya si Stephen na siya ang ama ng batang ’yan.

“Walang sayo”, matigas niyang pagtanggi sa akin.

“At kahit na kailan ‘di ko hahayaan na makilala ka ng batang to! Hindi ko sasabihin sa kanya na hayok ang ama niya!”

“What?” I asked her. I was partly hurt and I don't why, it was like I felt like a privilege is being stolen from me with no reason why. Napahawak siya sa tiyan niya and I saw the bump,I felt different when I saw the bump. My heart was pounding aloud, telling that I shouldn’t let her go.

That child is mine. I am the father of it. 

 “Umalis na tayo Stephen!” aya ni Mila at hinila na si Stephen.

“Sandali lang,” Mila stopped at muling humarap sa akin. “That baby, bunga ba talaga yan ng ginawa ko?” I asked her.

“Hindi mo anak to,” saad niya sa akin at pumasok na sila sa loob ng bus.

Natulala ako for a while and big hit of bullshit came towards me.

Umuwi ako sa bahay after my conversation with Mila, ‘di mawala sa isip ko ang baby bump niya. I'm going to be a father because of my bullshit. “Panibagong babae na naman ba?!” Narinig ko na tanong ni mama kay Dad. Im pretty sure na sila iyon “Wala nga akong babae Ursula, punyeta naman!” sigaw ni Dad.

“Hindi may babae ka! Nagawa mo na minsan to! May babae ka!” pagpupumilit muli ni Mama sa kaniya.

“Wala nga akong babae, wala lang yung nangyari na iyon. Mismong mga magulang niya ang nagbenta ng anak nila sa akin pero naawa ako kaya ‘di ko tinuloy. Kasing edad lang siya ni Seth!” sigaw ni Dad kay Mama.

“Anong wala, binigyan mo ng malaking pera yung mga Ordoñez matapos no’n, babae mo siya!” sigaw ulit ni Mama. Lumabas na ako ng kwarto dahil doon at agad na inawat si Mama. “Mom, stop!” pagpigil ko sa kaniya.

 “Hindi, may babae ang papa mo!” sigaw muli ni Mama.

Masama kong tiningnan ang Dad ko dahil sa inaatake na naman ng depresyon si Mama. Lagi siyang ganito, laging paranoid kapag naalala niya ang nagawa ni Dad dati.

 “Wala nga akong babae Ursula, Maniwala ka naman! Naawa ako don sa bata, katorse anyos pa lang siya no’n at kasing edad ng anak natin. Kahit na kailan hindi ako nambabae sa relasyon natin!” sagot ni Dad sa kaniya. My family is messed up, nagsasama na lang si Mom at Dad because of me and my younger sister and because of the fact that mom was always trying to kill herself whenever dad opens the topic of annulment and its all because Dad slept with Mila years ago. Since then my family started to fall apart. Sabi ni Dad, tawag lang daw yun ng laman, pumayag naman daw ang parents ni Mila kapalit ng ilang daaang piso na pamayad ng utang. Sinasabi din niya na hindi niya tinuloy dahil sa naawa siya kay Mila dahil sobrang bata pa nito nun pero hindi ako naniniwala kasi sinira lang no’n ang buhay ng pamilya ko. Biglang bumalik sa isip ko na tama lang pala ang ginawa ko, I want Mila to suffer the way that my mom was suffering right now pero parang ngayon magiging masaya na siya kasama ang Stephen na iyon.

“Seth, pakidala ang Mom mo sa kwarto niya,” utos ng Dad ko sa akin. Quietly dinala ko si Mom sa kwarto niya, she was crying when I brought her in.

“May babae ang Dad mo,” sumbong ni Mom sa akin and I smiled. “Makakaganti na tayo mom sa sumira sa pamilya natin,” I told her and gave her a kiss on the head. Pagbaba ko Dad was still there, he was drinking a cup of tea while making himself calm.

 “Dad, I need to tell you something.” tumingin sa akin ang Dad ko at saka binaba ang iniinom niyang tsaa.

“What is it son? Do you need money again?” He asked me.

“No, it's not about money. It's about what Mila did to me,” I told him.

“Anak, hindi kasalanan ni Mila kung ano man ang nangyayari sa pamilya natin, kasalanan ko yun hindi ko alam na bata pa ang anak ng mga Ordoñez, Alam kong nagkamali ako nung naisip kong magparaos gamit ang anak nila pero hindi ko tinuloy kasi nakikita kita doon sa bata. Kasing edad mo lang si Mila noon at hindi ko kayang sirain ang buhay niya ng tul--”

“We have a relationship and she's pregnant,” I told Dad with a hidden smile on my face. Hindi ako papayag na basta matakasan ni Mila ang kasalanan niya sa pamilya namin, and Dad too. I will give them the hardest struggle of their lives.

“What? Sa daming babae bakit si Mila pa?” He told me.

“I fell in love with her and I want her back with our baby,” I told him.