ALISON'S POV
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After Jax left , I sat on the couch , staring out of the window , my head resting back against the backrest of my couch . I feel sunken into the cushions , ready to become one with the softness . It felt like I wanted to disappear , like if I just sit here long along enough , that I would disappear and become this couch . Hopefully all of my problems would go away too .
Hopefully this awful feeling of a bulldozer that's squishing my heart would lift up and roll away , that the thoughts of me being nothing would wash away as the rain drizzles down the outside of my window .
The annoying sound of someone knocking on my door makes me want to jump right out of that window .
" Come in ." I groan , still blankly staring out at the trees in the far end of the lands . I list
