My Fated Ideal (MxM)

Truth (1)

Chapter 2: Truth (1)

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The next morning the students woke up as usual and prepared for class. Except for the fact that Lynn hadn’t managed to get a single wink of sleep the entire night.

‘Ah… This reminds me of the days when I was forced to guard someone for two days without sleeping. I haven’t felt like this in years.’ Lynn thought to himself as he got ready for school.

“Did you sleep well last night?” Ken asked with a cheery voice, he seemed to be in a good mood.

“Yes, I had a good night of rest.” Lynn outright lied to the other… There was no way he could admit to not sleeping because he was next to the person he loved.

“Is that so? The bags under your eyes would suggest otherwise.” Ken observed and touched the other student’s face with his fingertips.

‘So close!’ Lynn freaked out eternally but did not push the other man away, it would be unprofessional. “I’m fine.” He said with a straight face.

“Well if that’s what you say then I’ll believe you. Would you sleep with me again today?” Ken asked as he backed away from the other.

“If that’s what you wish Young Master.” Lynn said with an even tone, trying his best not to show his excitement. ‘Even though it’s just sleeping why do I still feel so happy that he’s okay with me?’

“Great, then let’s go to Uni now. We’re going to be late if we waste more time.” Ken said as he picked up his backpack.

“Yes.” Lynn nodded his head and took his own backpack as they headed out of their apartment.

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 They got to University and sat through a long and boring lecture. All the while Lynn was eternally losing his mind over last night’s events.

‘What am I going to do?! Young Master wants me to sleep next to him again, it’s not a problem if we are just going to sleep but what if he hugs me again? I don’t think I will be able to take it… What I get hard while sleeping next to him? I don’t care if I don’t get a wink of sleep, just please… my body shouldn’t react to Young Master!’ Lynn’s mind was rushing with all kinds of worries. All the while his expression remained completely calm and unfazed.

After the lecture was over Ken turned to him and asked. “Do you want to go straight home today?”

“Yes, but you haven’t eaten yet Young Master…” Lynn said as he took his backpack and placed it over his shoulders.

“How about we get groceries and I cook something? It’s been a while.” Ken said as he also took his backpack headed for the door.

“I’ll cook, there is no need for you to do it Young Master.” Lynn argued as he caught up to him.

“Then let’s cook something together. What do you want to eat?” Ken asked while turning his head to the other student.

‘If I had to choose, I’d definitely want to eat some musaka, just like the old times…’ Lynn thought to himself but did not voice that and simply stated. “Whatever you wish to eat Young Master.”

After giving it a split second of thought Ken replied. “Then how about we make musaka? It’s been so long since we made it.”

‘It’s like he read my mind just now…’ Lynn thought as he nodded his head in agreement with the other student.

They went back to their apartment after grocery shopping…

“Hey, do you remember when we first made musaka with mom and dad?” Ken suddenly asked out of nowhere as he began pealing the potatoes.

“I do… It’s been four years since the first time. I was so surprised then.” Lynn confessed as he was cutting up the unions.

“Why were you surprised?” Ken asked in wonder as he fastly pealed the potatoes.

“I just wasn’t expecting a rich family to act like that. It was so normal.” Lynn said as he finished chopping the unions and began washing the peeled potatoes.

“I’ve never asked you this before but… How about your family, don’t they cook with you?” Ken asked as he turned on the stove and took out the store bought minced meat to heat it up.

“My family is very different from yours… They don’t like things like ‘spending time with your family’ it’s just work for them. I was brought into the organization as soon as I could walk and trained to fight. Since I turned 12, I became the official bodyguard of a lot of rich people and my family got rewarded accordingly…” Lynn was feeling in a very talkative mood all of a sudden. Maybe it was because they were remembering their past and he felt slightly nostalgic.

“I see… What caused them to disown you?” Ken asked as he cooked the meat and unions together on the stove.

“What? You knew about that?” Lynn was genuinely surprised, his hands stopped moving.

“Of course I do. I asked mom about it a long time ago but she said. ‘If you really want to know, go and ask Lynn yourself.’ I didn’t want to bother you before, but it’s been on my mind for a while.” Ken said as he turned off the stove.

‘Young Mater knew that I was disowned and didn’t mention anything until now… He’s always been very accepting but I still wonder where does all that kindness come from?’ Lynn thought to himself as he stood there in shock. After a short pause he spoke. “Young Master, I’m afraid that if I were to share that with you then…” He hesitated to continue.

“You don’t need to tell me if you don’t want to. I asked out of curiosity.” Ken said as he went up to the other student and took the potato Lynn was holding into his own hands. Their fingers brushed in each other accidentally. “I’ll finish chopping them up, can you go heat up the oven and prepare the sause?”

“Yes.” Lynn replied and went to do those tasks. All the while in his mind thousands of questions came one after the other. ‘So he doesn’t know yet? He doesn’t know I’m gay… What if he finds out and no longer wants to be around me? I have to talk with auntie about this…’

“Lynn, because I know you’ll definitely be over thinking this… Don’t worry, I don’t care what that secret is. You’ll always be my most important person. Even if I don’t know everything about you.” Ken said as to reassure the other student, but his words had a different effect than expected.

“Young Master… I’m afraid I can’t tell you the reason…” Lynn said as he clenched his fist. ‘Please don’t ask me anymore… I feel like if you ask one more time I’ll tell you and then it will be all over. Once you find out I’m gay, that I have been in love with you since the first time you held my hand… You’ll distance yourself from me… I won’t be able to protect you anymore…’ Lynn felt like his heart was about to burst open, he wanted to reveal everything about himself to the other, but he was deathly afraid of being pushed away because of it.

Ken simply walked up to the student and took his clenched fist into his own hands. “Lynn… It’s okay if you don’t tell me. I just wanted to know you a bit better… I’m sorry I asked, I won’t mention it again.” He said as he held the other male’s hand in his.

‘Young Master… he’s doing it again… holding my hand just like before to reassure me…’ Lynn’s heart raced with abnormal speed, he felt that his face had heated up as well. ‘Ken wants to get to know me but I’ve never opened up to him… I’m his most important person… What should I do? It hurts just to hear it…’

“You don’t owe me an explanation or anything. You’re free to do as you like, remember? Ken said as he held the other boy’s hand with both of his and up to his chest.

‘Ah… Auntie does that a lot with Uncle…’ Lynn thought as he watched the boy in front of him, his fist was already relaxed. ‘Even though they aren’t related they seem so much alike… I can feel Ken’s heartbeat… it’s so steady, nothing like mine at the moment. If I tell him now, I wonder if he’ll just accept it as he’s always accepted everything about me…’ As his heart rate quickened he began wanting to tell the truth more and more. It was at the tip of his lips already, just one more word from the other boy and he’d spill everything out like a river.

“I don’t want to pressure you into telling me anything. But if you were to tell me, I’d accept anything as long as it’s you. Just remember this, we are equals.” Ken said as he flashed a smile to the other person.

That was it… That was all that Lynn needed, his mind went blank and he opened his mouth to speak. “The truth is…”