The Lycan Prince and I

Three

I was lying in my room nursing my bruised heart. Your mate was supposed to be your lover, your partner, your destiny. I had heard that when you found your mate even if you were not in love, you found love.

Mama always spoke about how she had felt when she had perceived papa as her mate and he had come to claim her as his. It seemed like a fairy tale. It seemed like something you only read from the a thousand and one nights. But mama said that that was how It was supposed to feel.

But why did I feel heartbroken? Why did it feel like I had been stabbed upfront. Why did it seem like I was a reject? What was I even saying? I was a reject.

Raj had known we were mates and he had confidently walked away from me to my own sister. He had acted like I hadn’t even there. My own mate had rejected me.

No one liked me. My sisters hated me and treated me like dirt. Everyone in school felt the same way about me except Lakshmi and Abhi. It was like I had a disease and no one wanted to associate with me. I knew I was ugly.

I knew that unlike my sisters who were very light skinned, I was a bright shade of brown. I was ugly and unpleasant and no one wanted me. I was going to be the only girl in India and probably the entire wolf clan in the world to be rejected.

I felt my heart break into two as I lay in bed spilling tears over my beautiful French pillows.

I heard loud noises and I heard my door being roughly opened.

“Are you going to school or not i***t?” I heard Gauri say.

Why did she have to be the one to come into my room. Great, just great.

“No I’m not.” I said turning to the other side of my bed.

“So I came all the way here for what? Ugh! You’re such a lowlife and a waste of time!” Gauri snapped at me with all hate. “Do you know what it took me to get here? Why did mother even refuse to send the servants and send me instead. Anyways it’s good you aren’t going to school today. I wouldn’t want Raj knowing I associate with someone as cheap as you!”

Gauri snapped the door shut and even I shook. How could your own sister be so cold to you?

Then I heard Gauri shout. “Mama Urmi is not going to school today!”

Then I heard somethings crash on the floor.

“You fool! Can you not see where you are going?! A low life like you! Get out of my sight!” Gauri snapped.

It was obviously an unfortunate servant who had been misfortunate to come across Gauri.

All the servants in the house knew that avoiding my sisters was the right thing to do. They changed their personal maids every single day. I didn’t have any because I didn’t feel the need to.

I was hugging my pillow when mama came in to ask me what was wrong. I just pushed my face into my pillow to hide my swollen eyes and tear stricken face under my pillow so she wouldn’t see it. Then I told her I just did not feel like going to school.

Mama stood by my door for a while before she left. I never told her anything because I knew it was pointless. She would confront my sisters and my sisters were going to hate me even more and I honestly didn’t want that. Mama suspected the issues between my sisters and I but since I never said anything she didn’t have prove to support her claim.

I loved my sisters I just wanted them to see it, wanted them to love me back but they never did. No one did.

I decided I was not going to school either again. After all how many days before our graduation and declaration of our mates? So what did it even matter?

I stayed in my bed all through until I eventually slept off. Then I heard my door creak open softy. I looked up and saw Mama coming in with some servants. The servants dropped trays of food for me, and mother dismissed them.

“Sit up Urmi.” Mama whispered to me softly. “You haven’t eaten all day.”

I gently sat up in my bed. Fortunately enough, all my tears had dried up.

Mama picked up some samosas and gave them to me. I shook my head.

“Urmi you need to eat.” Mama said unhappily.

She sighed and looked at me. “It pierces my heart that you never tell me anything Urmi.”

I kept mute and looked away.

Mama was extremely beautiful. Probably the most beautiful woman in the entire India. Her skin was flawless and everything about spoke of peace. When I was little I used to just sit and look at her and admire her. It was like she was a goddess sent down to earth.

“Mama what happens if you are rejected by your mate?” I asked quietly.

Mama looked at me. “Were you rejected Urmi?”

“No.” I said, and then I quickly added. “Well it’s just that I am afraid of being rejected. I’m worried about it.”

I didn’t lie but I had just done so easily I felt terribly bad.

“Well no one gets rejected. Your bond would not let you. We have only one mate. A single one and they are going to be our mate for life. It’s the way it has always been.” She said softly.

“But mama there must be someone who has been rejected before.” I insisted afraid of being the only one.

“Well there are a few. I have never heard of someone being rejected though, but wolves without mates leave on the outskirts of the cities. They live in seclusion away from everyone else.” Mama said and I swallowed.

Mama smiled at me and kissed my forehead. “Don’t worry. You’re not going to get rejected. You will find your mate I know it. And when it’s time for your graduation and mating ceremony your father and I will be there.”

God that was even worse. A much more embarrassing disgrace. Everyone was going to be there.

Before I could talk, Mama rose up.

“I need to see to somethings in the place dear. Eat your meal and I will come back.” She smiled at me and her dimples deepened.

Then she put my samosa in my hand and walked out of the room.

I lay down back on my bed and turned my face away.

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