Born to be alone

I'm running at full speed. I can feel the adrenaline flowing through my veins. And nothing is more pleasant than this feeling. Speed completely captured all my thoughts as well as my entire body. The wind blowing at me only adds to the sense of speed. I increase the speed. I feel that my enemy is very close. I am only a few moments away from him. The body even trembles with excitement. I can already see it's dark outline in white snow. A few more jumps. All that is left 20, 10 metres... The last jump... And again the same strange dream. It has not given me peace all week. I dream of being a wolf and hunting for something. How stupid. And the strangest thing is that I wake up shaking with excitement. I look at the clock. It's 6.30am. I know I won't fall asleep anyway so I'm getting out of bed. I should sleep longer during the holidays but  I wake up from that stupid dream every lovely morning from the start of the holiday. And if I stay in bed, it overcomes all my thoughts. So I get up. I'd rather spend the morning taking a shower. Once done, I go to the kitchen to hunt for something for breakfast. While I was showering, combing my hair and getting ready, my parents went to work and now I was home alone. I'm not sad about that. I love being alone. I can do whatever I want without interruption and without having to listen to their never ending complains about everything. I noticed that I have been particularly fond of meat lately. In the past, I only ate it because of the necessity. Apparently I am currently missing some of the beneficial substances in meat. After all, humans are still predators. After breakfast, I look out the window. Beautiful. Everything is white. The snow covered the roofs of the houses, and the frost covered the trees. Many people are rushing to their jobs just now. I lift my eyes to the clock. Nothing special - it's only 7:15. It is snowing again. I don't even notice how 5 minutes pass by watching people and snowflakes As always, when you wake up this early there is nothing to do. I turn on the computer, but after half an hour I am fed up. I look out the window again. It's a little brighter already. I decide to go outside for a stroll, because at home I will soon get crazy about having nothing to do. I live on the outskirts of town so there are some nice routes for walking near by. The white color of everything just fascinates me. If it is still snowing on the way back, the snowflakes will fall right into my face but that doesn't bother me. I like snow and I like winter. Or more precisely this year, for some reason I started to like it. Even though I hated the idea of walking through the snow before.  Especially when it's snowing. Now I do it willingly. Suddenly something grayish moves near me in the bushes. The dream clearly affected my psyche. Now I see wolves running everywhere. Maybe I should return home? But I decide to walk a little bit more. About ten minutes after I thought I'd seen a wolf, a sixteen-year-old boy came up to me. "Hi," he says. I look around. There is no one else here without me and him, which means he is really talking to me. Hmm .. Weird. "Hi," I reply surprised. He smiles at me. "We'll meet Again. Only later,”he says, winks at me and runs away. Really weird guy. I stay for a while. Only after a good minute do I realize I am still standing and finally move home. Walking clearly will do nothing to help implement my plan to stay sane. When I come back home, I make warm soothing tea - it will help both because I am frozen and because I am getting crazy. I do nothing more all day. I just move around the house and try to stay sane. I admit it is difficult. That recurring dream had frightened me before but when today, all those strange things also happened... A wolf came up, and then from somewhere a very strange guy came out, who I "will meet, only later". What is this all about? Even though unwelcome comes the night. Unwelcome because I am sure that I will dream the same nonsense again. Because of that dream, I go to bed late every night now. Here I am watching some stupid movie tonight until 23:55. although it is not even interesting to me. But now I have to go brush my teeth and then go to bed. And to face the Dream again. *** Sorry for my english. I translated everything from my native language to english and that wasn's easy. I hope you will understand what I'm trying to write. And I hope you enjoy :)