When The Moon Howls

Chapter Seven

7. Trust

The blood pounded through my chest. My hands shook, my feet tingled. My vision disfigured, as if I was looking through a fish-eye lens. I had to get a way.  I couldn't get that memory out my head. The way they shifted like that. I could still hear the crack of their bones breaking. 

I never thought this would be real. Heck I still don't believe that this could be real. This is something I would of seen at the movies not in real life. Tears filled my eyes as anxiety and adrenaline coursed through my veins as I speed all the way home.

I wasn't worried about a police officer pulling me over for speeding. Nor was I worried about my mother mad at me for taking her car with out her permission. I was more concerned of what I saw. Trying to still make sense of it all. I could barely focus on the road because all I could still hear was their bones cracking.

How come no one told me. Why hide this secrete, especially Julius. How did I not know after all these years that my own brother is a werewolf. Was I a werewolf too? Was my parents a werewolf too? I questioned myself. Completely overwhelming myself. I felt a mess. My hair that once was in a bun has come loose. My jersey that was once dried is soaked and my shoes all muddy from Marcus's muddy drive way.

I wasn't ready to talk to anyone as I pulled up to our driveway. Thankfully my parents weren't home and neither was Julius. I remembered he said I had our house to myself and thankfully it's what I needed. I just wanted to take a nice warm bath and relax. 

As I headed upstairs to get my clothes ready for a bath. My phone went off. It was Julius ringing. I froze in horror as I watched his name appear on my phone. I didn't want to answer. So I switched my phone to silent and made my way to my room to have a bath.

I grabbed a pair of matching underwear and bra with my pyjama shorts and t-shirt before jumping in the bath. Feeling the warm water surrounding my body and the steam rising felt so good. It calmed me down a bit which I needed because my eyes couldn't handle anymore tears.

Water was so warm I decided to close my eyes to dunk my whole body under the water. Swishing my head back and forth while blocking my nose. I sat up to take a deep breath before leaning back in the bath tub, throwing a wet hand towel over my head. A few minutes later my eyes that was once sore was no longer sore but my mind was still taking it's time to process everything.

I never thought I couldn't trust my family, especially my brother. We were close. Our family bond was pretty strong. Well that's what I thought, now I just don't know. I wanted to know everything. I want to be able to trust everyone again. Something I'll have to leave for another day.

I was in the bath for about two hours long before hopping out. I was exhausted and all this thinking didn't help either. I quickly got changed, jump under the covers and went straight to sleep.

*NEXT MORNING*

I could feel the sun rays burn the top of my eyelids before actually opening my eyes. My eyes were sore as f**k. They were stinging like hell and weeping. Under my eyelids were more sore as I tried to wipe away my weeping tears. I couldn't be bothered moving as I laid still looking at my ceiling. I didn't want to do anything today. 

As I reached over to grab my phone from the charger I noticed my blinds were wide open. I was wondering why I could feel the sun on my eyes. I'm pretty sure I had them closed before I went to bed. I rolled my eyes before I sat up to view the time. Damn it I had been a sleep for most the day. I last recalled going to bed at two this morning but now it's three thirty. How the hell did I even sleep this long. I must of been so exhausted about last night, that it almost knocked me out all day.

I was a bit hesitant to view all the notifications on my phone but i knew I had too. Wow! My phone was no longer dry. I had thirty missed calls and texts from Julius, Two missed messages from Fran and Kayla and twenty six missed calls and texts from Marcus.

As I went through each message only one bought me to tears. A text message I received from Marcus this morning. "Hey Sam, I tried to call but there was no answer so I thought i'll text you instead. I'm so sorry about yesterday. I didn't mean for you to be out in the library for so long. My parents and I had a lot to discuss but I am really sorry especially what i'm going to say next. I found your letter this morning that you had addressed to me and I thought i'll let you know that whatever is going on between us. It has to end. I'm really sorry Sam but we barely no each other and I think it is for the best. I wish you the best but this will be my last text. After today I will be removing you on my phone. I hope you have a great life Sam. Goodbye!"

I read his text about seven times before balling my eyes out. I didn't know exactly what was going on. First we were great and now it's over. Likes it's over before it even began. I was confused to why. Was his parents forcing him not to be with me? did he do it for a joke? I questioned myself. Maybe he knows that I know hes's a werewolf maybe that's why it's over. 

I never needed him more but why am I crying over a boy who wasn't even mine. I read his text one last time before throwing it hard against the wall.  Watching it shatter in to pieces. I wiped my tears away on my blanket and snuggled underneath the covers. I was so depressed that all I wanted to do was sleep and so I did. I took a deep breath while closing my eyes. Wishing that tomorrow would be a better day. I exhaled slowly and dozed off to sleep.