Chasing the Forbidden (SERIE FEROCI 3)

Chapter Eleven

My whole body never felt this painful before. My arms, my legs, my calves, my waist, my swollen ass, my scalp, my neck, even my wrist and lips especially my center are aching like hell. It feels so good last night that I never thought that the aftermath will be torturous.

Xanthos is insatiable. He literally rocked my world last night... until dawn. My eyelids are heavy, I can't even open my eyes right now. I just slept for 3-4 hours because of Xanthos.

“Let me go,” I muttered and tried to remove Xanthos' arm around my waist.

I need to take a shower. Xanthos cleaned me up before we slept but it's not enough. Maarte pa naman ako sa katawan.

Xanthos just groaned and hugged me tighter. I fought the urge to roll my eyes. Sigurado ako na gising na siya at nag-iinarte lang. Dapat siguro sampalin ko siya para talagang magising na siya.

“Xanthos, I'll take a shower. Let me go before I kick your ass,” I warned him.

“Let's sleep more,” he mumbled and nuzzled his face on my neck. I unconsciously bit the insides of my cheeks. His voice sounds inappropriately sexier in the morning.

I just sighed and let him hug me. I stroked Xanthos' curly hair gently and rolled it around my index finger.

Napatingin ako kay Xanthos. Nakapapikit pa rin siya habang nakayakap sa baywang ko. Habang natititigan ko siya nang ganito, bigla akong napaisip na medyo ka-hawig n'ya si Zayn Malik. They both have long and curly eyelashes and sexy lips. I just shook my head and continued stroking his hair.

Bumigat na ang paghinga n'ya at lumuwag ang pagkakayakap n'ya sa baywang ko makalipas ang ilang saglit. Mukhang kulang talaga siya sa tulog at napagod. Sino ba namang hindi?

I removed his arm around my waist gently. I covered him with comforter and let him sleep peacefully like a baby.

Sinubukan kong bumangon. Napangiwi ako at napakagat sa ibabang labi ko nang makaramdam ako ng kirot sa pagitan ng mga hita ko. Pakiramdam ko makakalas ang buong katawan ko dahil sa pananakit.

I glared at Xanthos. This is all his fault. He was too insatiable last night.

Kahit nahihirapan akong tumayo, pinilit ko pa rin saka umupo sa malapit na upuan para tingnan ang hitsura ko sa vanity mirror. I'm wearing Xanthos' t-shirt right now.

“Fuck.” I hissed under my breath when I saw my face in the mirror.

Sabog ang buhok ko, halata rin sa mata ko na kulang ako sa tulog, in short, mukha akong bruha. Napakunot ang noo ko at napatingin kay Xanthos na mahimbing pa ring natutulog.

He still looks like a Greek God even though he seemed tired. Damn, this is so unfair! Bakit ang guwapo n'ya pa rin?!

Kinusot ni Xanthos ang mata n'ya at kinapa ang katabing puwesto n'ya habang nakapikit pa rin. Napangisi ako habang nakatingin sa hitsura n'ya ngayon. He's obviously looking for me.

“Kiara,” he mumbled and opened his eyes.

Agad siyang napatingin sa 'kin. Tinaasan ko na lang siya ng kilay. Bumangon naman siya habang napapakamot sa batok n'ya.

“Come here,” he mumbled and tapped the space beside him.

“No, I don't want to. I'm hungry and I need to take a shower.”

Sinubukan kong muling tumayo pero napaigik na lang ako nang muling kumirot ang pagitan ng mga hita ko. Napatayo naman si Xanthos at agad na lumapit sa 'kin. He held my arm gently and he was about to carry me but I instantly stopped him

“I can manage,” I muttered and pushed him gently.

I know where this s**t leads. Magvo-volunteer siya na siya ang magsh-shower sa akin... tapos sa iba rin 'yon mauuwi.

“I know your body hurts like hell, I won't do what you're thinking right now, Kiara,” he said while staring at me. He looks serious, well, he always looks serious but this he seemed offended. Medyo nakonsensya naman ako ro'n.

Natahimik na lang ako sa sinabi n'ya at napaiwas ng tingin. I want to say sorry but I'm too embarrassed to say it.

Hindi na ako kumontra nang buhatin ako ni Xanthos at dinala sa bathroom.

WE'RE STILL quiet when we finally finished taking a bath. Halos si Xanthos na ang nagpaligo sa akin dahil maski pag-angat ng braso, hirap na hirap ako.

“Come here,” Xanthos signalled me to come closer to him. He's sitting on my bed with only boxer shorts on. I'm so distracted with his exposed body.

Napatikhim na lang ako at paika-ikang lumapit sa kanya. Kinuha ni Xanthos ang underwear ko na nakahanda na sa kama saka inalis ang pagkakabuhol ng robe ko at hinubad 'yon sa akin.

I'm fully naked in front of him now. Xanthos just turned his gaze away from my body and cleared his throat. It seems like he's having a hard time right now.

“X-Xanthos, I can do that,” I murmured and bit my lower lip.

“I'll do it,” sabi na lang n'ya saka pinasuot sa akin ang underwear ko. Wala na akong nagawa kundi iangat ang paa ko saka hinayaan siyang isuot sa akin iyon.

Halos umusok ang magkabilang pisngi ko nang matapos na n'yang isuot sa 'kin ang underwear. Isinunod naman n'ya ang flowy dress ko at isinuot din sa 'kin 'yon. Hindi na lang ako kumontra at hinayaan siya.

“What do you want to eat?” he asked while staring at me.

“Anything as long as it's edible,” I mumbled and turned my gaze away from him.

Xanthos carried me again. Lumabas kami ng kuwarto ko at nagtungo sa kusina saka ahan-dahan n'ya akong iniupo sa upuan.

“Let's just order something to eat,” he said and took his phone.

“Sa mga nababasa kong romance books... after a wonderful s*x, men will wake up early in the morning to cook something for their woman,” I said and raised my eyebrow at him.

“But I don't know how to cook, should I just call my secretary again to cook for--” I immediately cut him off.

“Shut up. Just order something to eat, anything is fine.” I glared at him.

Speaking of that secretary girl. I forgot about her last night. Ang agenda ko talaga kagabi ay ang mahuli n'ya kami ni Xanthos... bakit nawala na 'yon sa isip ko?

“Damn,” I mumbled and bit my lower lip.

Napangiwi ako at inayos ang upo ko. My butt hurts. Ang tigas pa naman ng inuupuan ko ngayon. Masyadong nanggigil si Xanthos do'n kagabi... but it's fine, I liked it anyway.

Natigilan ako nang umupo si Xanthos sa tabi ko. Hinila n'ya ako patayo at pinaupo sa kandungan n'ya. Akmang tatayo na ako nang yakapin n'ya ang baywang ko nang mas mahigpit.

“Does your ass cheeks hurt that much?” he asked with a hint of concern and worry.

“It's bearable,” I mumbled softly.

“How about your neck? Let me see,” he said and touched my neck gently and stroked it with his thumb softly.

“I'm fine. Mawawala rin 'yan,” sabi ko na lang at inalis ang kamay n'ya sa leeg ko.

I can't let him touch me like that again. I can feel a tingling sensation in between my legs again just because of his simple touch.

“Do you really like hard s*x?” he asked and pulled my waist closer to him.

“Yeah. By the way, thank you for letting me experience it. I now have something to show off to Cadence,” I said and smiled sweetly at him.

Xanthos' forehead creased and his eyes darkened. I don't know why but for some reason, his reaction gave me a sense of satisfaction.

“Why? You'll do that with Cadence too?” he asked.

I fought the urge to laugh my ass off when I saw his jaw clenched. The ‘pretty mad Xanthos’ looks ten times hotter than the ‘emotionless jerk Xanthos’

“Of course. I'll let him spank my ass too, I'll let him choke me and f**k me hard as I call him ‘daddy’. I just can't do that with him since I'm still inexperienced. But the situation is different now, I can finally have s*x with him,” I said and smiled sweetly at him, pissing him off.

Xanthos remained silent. I stared at him and tried to know what he's thinking right now.

“You won't be able to do that if he's dead. I mean, he wouldn't be able to spank you, choke you, and f**k you if he's dead, right?” he asked in a serious tone.

Napakurap ako sa sinabi n'ya. He sounded like he will and he can kill Cadence for real. Alam kong hindi naman siya seryoso sa sinabi n'ya pero kinabahan ako nang kaunti.

“I'm just kidding. Cad is just a friend to me. Well, we made out a lot of times before. He's a good kisser and--”

“Kiara.” He warned me. I just bit my lower lip to restrain myself from smiling.

“What I mean is, I don't see Cadence as my lover. I won't do that with him because I only see him as a friend,” paliwanag ko.

“So, you see me as a lover then?” he asked. I rolled my eyes and punched his chest gently.

“Of course not, baliw ka ba? I don't like commitments, but I might consider it if you will end your relationship with Mom,” I said and playfully ran my fingers on his chest.

The dragon tattoo on his chest looks magnificent. I just can't stop admiring his body covered with tattoos, it looks sexy on him.

“We're still on the scoring system. I'll give your Mom another one point because she never made me jealous,” he said and pulled me closer to him. “But I'll give you another point because I can kiss you,” he mumbled and gave me a gentle kiss on my lips.

I looked at him with confusion in my eyes.

“You mean, you can't kiss my Mom? Why?” I asked as my forehead creased.

“That's... a secret,” he muttered and let out a sexy chuckle.

What does he mean by that? I'm curious as hell but it seems like he's determined not to tell me the reason. I just sighed and scratched my nape.

Whatever, I'll just ask him another question.

“When did you start having tattoos?” I asked and ran my fingers on his tattooed chest again, down to his ripped abs, there are also tattoos there.

“I was eighteen when I had my first tattoo. It's here on my right arm,” he said and showed me his right arm. There's a eagle-like tattoo there. Right, this tattoo kinda looks old.

“Hindi ba masakit?” tanong ko saka marahang hinaplos ang braso n'ya.

“It was painful when I was eighteen. I get used to it as time goes by.” He took my hand and gave it a soft kiss. “Do my tattoos look disturbing to you?” he asked and buried his face on my neck.

Why is he being clingy and touchy? Is he aware that my heart is beating like hell right now?!

“No, it's not disturbing. I honestly find your tattoos sexy. Do you still have plans to have another tattoo?” I asked and gently stroked his curly hair.

“Hindi na siguro. I will stop having tattoos if I finally finished my only goal in life... I can feel it will happen sooner,” he muttered and looked at me.

My forehead furrowed because of the way he looks at me right now, am I related to his goal?

“Ano ba'ng goal mo?” tanong ko kahit walang kasiguraduhan na sasagutin n'ya iyon.

Xanthos gave me a small smile and caressed ny cheeks gently while staring at me.

“To be happy... my only goal is to be happy, Kiara.”

* * *

“Wow, akala ko kinalimutan mo na 'ko kasi ilang araw kang walang paramdam,” tila nagtatampong sabi ni Cadence at nakamapaywang pa.

“I was just busy, okay?” I said and rolled my eyes at him.

Hindi lang naman ako nakakapunta dahil pinapagaling ko pa ang ilang pasa sa katawan ko pati na rin ang paika-ikang paglalakad ko. Sa sobrang tsismoso ni Cad, malamang tatanungin n'ya ako nang maigi kung saan ko nakuha ang mga 'yon. Kahit ganyan si Cad, matalino siya. Mage-gets n'ya agad kung saan galing ang mga 'yon kung sakali.

Xanthos didn't go to work for the past days too. Sa bahay n'ya dinala ang paperworks n'ya dahil kailangan n'ya raw akong bantayan dahil masakit ang katawan ko kahil ilang ulit ko ng sinabi na kaya ko naman ang sarili ko.

“Akala ko kinalimutan mo na 'ko dahil masyado kang busy kay Xanthos, e. Muntik na 'kong magselos,” napapailing na sabi n'ya.

“Saka ka na magselos kapag hindi ka na takot kay Xanthos,” pambabara ko sa kanya.

Natigilan ako nang batuhin ako sa mukha ng unan ni Cad. Tiningnan ko siya nang masama saka binato 'yon pabalik sa kanya. Walang hiya talaga ang lalaking 'to!

“Hindi naman kasi ako takot kay Xanthos--” agad kong pinutol ang sasabihin n'ya.

“Takot na takot?”

“Hindi, tanga. Nagjo-joke time lang kasi ako no'n. Pangit mo ka-bonding ha, 'di ka maka-gets ng sarcasm,” nakasimangot na sabi n'ya at umupo sa couch, sa tabi ko, saka humiga at umunan sa kandungan ko. Hinayaan ko na lang siya.

“It didn't seem sarcasm to me,” I said and raised my eyebrow. Cadence glared at me and gripped my chin tightly.

“Aw!” I grimaced and slapped his hand.

“Nga pala, pinayagan ka ba ni Xanthos dito?” tanong n'ya.

Napangisi ako.

“Akala ko ba hindi ka takot kay Xanthos?” natatawang tanong ko.

“Tanginanto, nagtatanong lang, e.” Pumikit na lang siya at umayos ng higa sa kandungan ko.

“I don't need his permission, Cad. Hindi ko naman siya tatay,” sabi ko na lang saka sumandal sa backrest ng couch.

I called him ‘daddy’ when we had s*x but it doesn't mean that... wait, what the hell am I thinking?

“Kumusta naman ang pang-aakit mo kuno sa kanya?” tanong ni Cad at idinilat ang mga mata n'ya saka tumingin sa 'kin.

Nag-init ang magkabilang pisngi ko sa tanong n'ya. Hindi ko na rin talaga alam kung ano na ang nangyari.

“Ewan,” sagot ko na lang saka napakagat sa ibabang labi ko.

Napabuntonghininga si Cad saka bumangon. Seryosong tumingin siya sa 'kin. Minsan kinakabahan ako kapag ganyan siya tumingin dahil minsan lang siya maging seryoso.

“This is getting out of hand, Kiara,” he said and held my hand.

“What do you mean?” I asked, confusion is evident in my voice.

“Hindi mo ba naiisip ang mararamdaman ni Tita Akira kapag nalaman n'ya ang tungkol sa inyo ni Xanthos? I know what you're trying to do, gusto mo lang naman na mabuo ulit ang pamilya n'yo pero mabubuo ba talaga ang pamilya n'yo kapag maghiwalay si Xanthos at Tita Akira? And come to think of it, 'di ba parang inaagawan mo ang sarili mong nanay?”

Natigilan ako sa tanong n'ya. I felt a sudden throb in my heart.

“Sino ba ang mas masama sa 'ming dalawa, Cad? I love my Mom but I also hate her for having an affair with someone way younger than her even though she's still married to my Dad. Alam n'ya kasi na hindi ugali ni Dad ang magalit, alam n'ya na mabait si Dad kaya ginaganito na lang n'ya! Hindi na n'ya nirespeto ang kasal nila ni Dad at si Dad mismo. Sa tingin mo sino ang mas masama sa 'ming dalawa?! Tell me, Cad.”

Natahimik si Cad sa sinabi ko. He held my cheek and gently stroked it with his thumb.

“Okay, I'm sorry. Hmm? I understand what you're feeling... but I want to ask you one thing, Kiara.”

I nervously looked at him. Bakit pakiramdam ko hindi ko magugustuhan ang itatanong n'ya.

“Ginagawa mo ba talaga 'to dahil gusto mong paghiwalayin si Xanthos at Tita Akira para magkabalikan ang parents mo... o baka naman ginagawa mo 'to dahil may gusto ka na kay Xanthos?”

I saw an emotion in Cad's eyes that I couldn't explain. Cad never looked at me this way before. There's something in the way he looks at me right now.

“W-what the hell are you talking about?” I asked, stuttering.

“You like him already, aren't you?” Cad asked once again.

His question is just easy to answer... I can easily ‘no’ but I don't know why I couldn't open my mouth to say it.

Napabuntonghininga na lang si Cad at marahang hinawi ang buhok ko habang nakatitig sa akin.

“Ayaw mo bang masaktan, Kiara?” seryosong tanong n'ya. Napakunot naman ang noo ko.

“Sino ba namang gustong masaktan?” nasabi ko na lang.

“Kung ayaw mong masaktan, h'wag mong mahalin si Xanthos. Kahit sino, pwede... pero h'wag si Xanthos.”