Broken

Chapter 6: Trevor's Confession

Once the dishes from dinner were done, we headed back upstairs, I took a shower and Trevor took one downstairs. After my shower, I pulled on my PJ’s, put my hair up in a wet messy bun, then headed back to my room. Trevor was already in my room waiting, he smiled when I walked in, he took my hand and pulled me towards my bed, making me sit. I faced him sitting crisscross, he took my hands in his and took a deep breath in and out before he poured out his soul to me.

“Lucy, I truly love you, it’s not just an act, it’s not fake, it’s real and scary. You make my mind go crazy when we kiss, I just want more of you, you’re the sweetest girl I’ve ever met. You’re heart is so pure, despite all the bullying, all the self harm, you’ve always been in my head, and my heart. You’re the best thing to happen to me, you make me happy, I can tell I make you happy, you’re like a d**g that I can’t get enough of. You deserve the world Luce, you deserve a good guy, you deserve everything good life has to offer, I want you to be mine, I want to fix the bullying from Tanner, but I’m not sure how yet. I f*****g love you Luce.”

I looked at him, my mouth just open, I was shocked, he just confessed his love to me....what am I supposed to say? What do I do, I’m so speechless. He took my face in his hands, smiling at me,

“I left you speechless huh?” he asked.

I just nodded at him, unable to form words, unable to think straight. It’s like he knocked all the words out of me, he loved me, despite it all he really loves me. It’s such a new feeling, a new part of my life, a fresh start. He wanted to help me with Tanner, but I still didn’t know his deal, he was broken beyond repair, his bullying was worse than ever, would he ever stop? He usually got me alone, after a class, that’s always how they did it. I still didn’t know what made Landon and Greyson back off. I wasn’t going to ask them either, I wasn’t sure if I wanted to know or not. I just had to deal with Tanner now, but I wasn’t sure how to either. Trevor was looking at me so sweetly, with so much love, it brought tears to my eyes. He wiped them away, then hugged me tightly,

“Don’t cry, you’re too gorgeous to cry Lucy.” he says softly.

“I’m just so filled with emotions, I’m sorry.” I reply, hugging him back.

“You have nothing to be sorry for babe, you deserve this love, this kindness, I want you to trust life again Lucy, I never want you to give up, I never want you to hurt yourself again either. You have me, therapy and your brothers, we’re all willing to listen to you baby. You have people in your corner, we’re here to help if you need us, don’t fight it all alone okay?”

He takes my face in his hands, his eyes so filled with love, passion and understanding. He was making my heart skip beats, it was driving me crazy, I just wanted to kiss him, hug him and confess. But I’m not ready to confess my feelings yet, this is still so new to me, I’m still getting used to the niceness from a guy. He understands everything somehow, he was like an angel sent to save my life, a dream you never want to wake up from, a fresh breath of air. He was so much in one, I truly loved this guy and I wasn’t ready to expose it all yet. I wanted to find out Tanners problem first, I needed to, he would probably break me but I needed to know his deal.

I finally nod at Trevor, “Okay, I promise I won’t fight it alone.”

That makes him smile big, he pulls me into a big hug, then he takes my face back in his hands and kisses me with some passion, causing my heart to nearly beat out of my chest. He affected me in ways no one else had ever, he made it all worth it. He was my reasoning to wake up in the morning, always seeing him next to me now, made me feel better, I felt so loved for the first time in a long time. He was my heaven on earth, even if we weren’t official yet, I could tell once we were nothing would break us. We’d be a power couple at school, we are a fake couple right now, I wanted to tell him I wanted it real, but I’m still not ready yet. I’m so scared, then he kisses me again, this one with a little more passion, my heart melted I think, I kissed back.

All this love is so intoxicating, real and scary. I’m finally loved by a guy, I finally love a guy but still can’t tell him. I really need to trust a bit more, but it was hard considering the years of bullying I went through. The intense bullying, had me fighting tears, I never ever cried in front of them, that would have made things worse. I finally look at him, with a smile and say,

“Trevor you are amazing, in time I will spill my heart and soul out. I promise.”

He kissed me again then nodded, “Take all the time you need babe.”

I smile, then hug him tightly. He hugs back tightly, yawning a bit. I look at him,

“Tired Trev?” I ask him with a smile.

He nods, “A little you?”

I nod, “Yeah.”

He lays down, pulling me into him, I lay next to him and lay my head against his chest, he wraps his arms around me as we both fall asleep.