Broken

Chapter 13: Macy's Issue

As I look at Macy, she tries to smile slightly. I look at Landon, he nods at me, I stay by him,

“Okay confess,” I say to her slightly rude, she did f**k the guy I loved for a bit and was sort of with.

Macy looks at me and sighs before beginning, “Look, I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have gone for Trevor, I have a lot of issues, sleeping with multiple guys is one of them, I’m not asking for forgiveness, I don’t deserve it, I was such a b***h, you didn’t deserve to be hurt like that, I hope one day we could become friends, but I’m not holding onto that, I’ve always liked Trevor, and I apologize again for what I did, it was wrong.”

I look at her, “Okay Macy, ” Was all I could say to her, she had hurt me bad.

She made the person who saved my life, who loved me, sleep with her, she had issues alright, I wondered what else she hid from everyone. She looks at me, her eyes tearing up, she never cried at school, she looked sorry, I don’t think I could forgive her, maybe one day we could be friends, but not right now, it had just happened a week or so ago. She admitted she didn’t deserve forgiveness, that’s a start, she apologized, that’s also a start.

I was shocked by everyone’s confessions, they were all people that hurt me somehow, Trevor is the only one who will remain on my s**t list, I’m not going to let anyone hurt me again, I don’t know what else to do. I looked at Landon, he squeezed my hand, Macy started crying and ran off to Trevor, I kept my focus on Landon,

“I’m ready to get out of here, I am processing her words, I’m sure there’s more, but I’m not pushing.” I say to him.

He nods, “Yeah, let’s go,” he walks with me to his truck.

He unlocks it, I get in, close the door, placing my backpack on the floor near my feet. He gets in closing his door, setting his backpack on the back seat, he starts his truck, looking at me,

“Lucy, she’s a crazy b***h, honestly, if she changes be careful, I’ve heard stories from girls who became good friends with her. I don’t want to see you get hurt again, you don’t need that type of friendship. I love you, ” he says, grabbing my hand, he pulls me closer to him, kisses me lovingly.

I just want to melt, he was to good, way to nice now, it intoxicated me, he tried all those years to tell me, he loves me it was so hard to believe that 5 years ago could have been different, but living in the now, I’m finally better, in this moment I never wanted to hurt myself, was he my cure? I look at him as he pulls away,

“I love you too, you may have just fixed me,” I say to him .

He smiles, “That was my goal babe, I should have just asked you out back then, sure we were young, but things wouldn’t have been harmful for us all. You should have told us the moment we touched you, that you had money, regardless of the fact you took all that s**t, you turned out amazing, you are gorgeous as ever, you are talented, and you are all mine.”

I blush as he says all the nice things at once, it nearly overwhelmed me, I wanted to never lose this, I wanted Landon and I to stay a couple, he seemed happy calling me his, he had changed, no anger outbursts yet, we may have fixed each other, it was like a dream to feel this way, Trevor never made me feel like this, he took away some pain, but not all. I hid my pain well like always, that’s what happens to a girl who has trust issues.

Landon was trying to make up for it but, honestly he was just no longer angry with life, things changed for us the moment I told them all I died. I think I scared him, I scared myself, I didn’t think I could do it, I messed up, the scars forever remind me, I am lucky to be alive, by some miracle Landon made me so happy, fixed the broken pieces of me, built a new me, a better me, I don’t take s**t now, I’m stronger than that, I don’t need to be walked on again by any guy, you don’t get to fool me, and expect to still be close. Ride or die only went so far, you both needed to be all in, not one in and one f*****g around on you, like your not good enough.

He finally pulls away, driving off towards his house, I smile as he had pulled me out of deep thought, I loved this guy a lot, everyone has their demons, judgement isn’t needed anywhere, some can be forgiven others can’t. He places his hand on mine, he was so warm, I looked at him smiling as he drove,

“You continue to amaze me, every day you say something new and it instantly makes me love you more, every piece of broken being whole, for the first time in years, it feels like a miracle, I feel blessed to have you, I hope to never lose you, no secrets ever, is all I ask, no cheating, no lying, if we don’t think it’s working we say something.” I say, “I know we’ve been together for nearly a week, but I feel true love with you.”

He smiles big, he keeps driving, pulling onto his street,

“You are my first true love Lucy, I never was with another really, because I couldn’t commit, I couldn’t sleep with a girl, pissed them off, but they couldn’t rat because any girl I was with I had dirt on, I was messed up for that long, others girls hated me after being with me, they still thought I was hot.” He says.

He pulls into his driveway, parks and shuts his truck off, he turns to me,

“You are the only girl, I really ever had eyes for, you were never ugly to me, I won’t go back to that Landon ever again, not as long as we’re good.” he pulls me onto his lap, placing me facing him, “I love you more that words can describe,” he kisses me with passion.

I kiss back, pulling back, looking at him, whispering in his ear,

“We should go to your room, lock the door.”

He smirks, “Yeah? Let’s go.”

I climb off his lap, open the door grab my backpack, and walk with him to the front door as he locks his truck, his dad’s car unlocks as we walk inside, his dad and some girl kissing in the kitchen, Landon rolled his eyes, his dad looks at us,

“I’m staying out for a few nights, don’t forget to lock up at night, please.” He says to Landon.

Landon nods, “Yes dad,” he says.

He dad nods as well, “Goodbye, see you in a few days.”

He leaves as we wave goodbye, Landon locks the door behind his dad, he picked me up, causing me to drop my backpack, he walks me up to his room, lays me down and we have s*x.

Holy God, he was amazing at that, always leaving me breathless, he smiles at me as he rolls off me, he kisses me softly, he was so loving, that was also really passionate and good, he knew what he was doing, despite us being each other’s first.

I got up, and went to shower, he followed, we showered after we had s*x again, then got dressed, and went back to his room, I sat down on his bed and he sat at his desk, we pulled out our homework, and started it.

My phone rang with a video 3 way from Tanner, I grabbed my phone, answering it,

“Hey guys,” I smile at them.

“Hey Lucy and Landon,” Tanner says.

“Hey there,” Greyson says.

Landon smiles at us, “Hi boys,” he says.

I look at them, “Have you guys read the options yet?”

“Yeah, I was thinking Gettysburg,” Tanner says.

Greyson smiles, “I was thinking the same actually.”

I smile more, “I hadn’t decided yet, but Gettysburg sounds good to me guys, it does seem interesting to do a project on. ”

They nod and smile, “Okay so we got the topic,” and we went on to get our layout for the project decided, we each wrote stuff down, by the end of the 2 hour convo, Landon was finished his homework, I still had some left, after I hung up with the boys, Landon smiles at me,

“I’m going to make us dinner while you finish, we’ll eat, then we’ll watch a movie and relax.” He says

I nod and smile back, “Okay baby sounds like a plan.”

He nods, “okay be back soon.”

He leaves the room, I finish my homework as he comes back in,

“Dinner’s ready babe,” he says smiling at me.

“Okay, I’m coming now,” I say as I get up, I put my homework in my back along with my books. Placing it back on the floor next his.

I walk over to him and follow him out of the room, we go downstairs, sit at the table and eat, we laugh together, it felt like we had been together for longer than, 5 days. Things got heated with us quickly, it was insane, I was completely in love, nothing could break that unless he betrays me, then I was not going to move on so quick. He had my whole heart, he was the only one in this far, no one else was allowed this close.

After dinner we put our dishes in the dish washer, we went upstairs, laid down as he put Netflix on, he put Grey’s Anatomy on where we had left off before we switched it to our group watch, we cuddled, I fell asleep fast, I was more tired than I knew. I dreamed strange that night, I had people I didn’t know there, I wasn’t me, I was someone else it was scary, I hated these dreams when you weren’t you in it, next thing I’m waking up to Landon’s alarm for school, it was loud.

I sat up rubbing my eyes, still tired, Landon could tell, he pulled me to him for a morning kiss,

“Wake up, there’s coffee waiting downstairs, I set it on a timer last night,” he says to me.

I kiss back smiling, “Mmm okay, you sold me at coffee babe, ” I get up.

I get dressed for school and do my hair, then we go down to grab coffee, he pours us each a cup, and we sit since we had some extra time this morning, we enjoyed coffee and breakfast, then grabbed coffee to go, leaving, locking up, unlocking his truck, he was carrying both our backpacks today I had the coffees, he opened my door, placed the coffees in the cup holders, kissed me before he went to get in, he put the backpacks in the back when he got in, I got in closing my door as he closed his, he started the truck, we buckled up and he drove us to school.

As he parked, he smiles, shutting his truck off, looking at me,

“You ready for today?” He asks.

I look at him and nod,“Yeah, why?”

“Macy has more to confess,” he pointed.

I saw him pointing at her, I sigh, I grab his hand and we walk towards her, I stop in front of her, she looks at me,

“My mother, she didn’t really raise me right, I was just taken from her home a year ago, I live with my uncle and his b***h girlfriend, my mother keeps trying to get me back, she’s a hard core junkie, I raised myself pretty much while taking care of her, I’m not a bad person, I experienced bad stuff, everyone’s got their stories, no ones perfect, why should I keep acting like I am?” She says, shocking me yet again.

“Macy..wow uhm, I, ” I don’t know what to say to her.

“It’s okay, I had a feeling that would your reaction, no one knows besides you guys now, can we keep that this way? I’m trying to keep my cool at school,” she says to us.

I nod as Landon says, “As long as you don’t hurt Lucy again.”

She nods, “I promise.”

“Then we’re good here,” he says.

She looks at me, “My dad died when I was 10, that’s when my mom became like this.”

I look at her, “No one should have to raise themselves from that age.”

She nods, “I know, but I did it made me cold, I was with someone who would yell and scream, when she withdrew, then when she drank on pills she got nasty too, she wasn’t a mother, she was a train wreck, probably still is.”

I just look at her and nod, she nods to knowing I was speechless, she seemed to expect it. I didn’t know what to tell her, she wasn’t a friend, she was a girl that ruined something, and I gained something better, I didn’t know if I could be her friend, but I’d hear her out any day. She’d have to not be the way she was like rumors said, she’d have to be a true friend, not a fake b***h, I wouldn’t chance this though, maybe next year if she’s way better.

The bell rings, we all walk to our classes, Landon walking me to mine, saying goodbye, I walk in and go sit next to Tanner since him and Greyson switched seats today since Sasha was sitting in the back with us today. We talk until the teacher comes in, then we focus on class. Once the bell rings we head to gym, parting at the locker room, we change and then go sit and wait for the teacher.

The whole day flew by, before I knew it was time for Drama class, I hated seeing Trevor’s face.