The b***h Luna

19. Breakdown

After school Ana suggested to show me around town so I could feel more at home. She showed me this awesome little mall and few places with decent food. Actually everything seemed delicious if it wasn't served by a school canteen. After our little tour we sat down in a small diner to which I would never go if not for her recommendation. Place looked like time had stopped there and it was still 1970's. We sat down and ordered a cheeseburger with fries and vanilla milkshake for each. I wasn't expecting much but didn't want to hurt Ana's feelings so I decided to give it a shot. And Oh. My. God. I'm glad I did because food was the best I've ever had. I think I'll make myself a regular here.

We talked, we laughed and shared our stories in details. Actually Ana's grandmother was a pack wolf. She was the daughter of a Gamma. Beautiful and strong yet she didn't have any luck with finding her other half. Things got complicated when her Alpha lost his mate and started looking for a new one as he still didn't have an heir. He thought that Gamma daughter would be an excellent match but she had other plans and left her home. Yes, her grandmother prefered to become a rogue than spend her life with Alpha. I didn't quite get that but who am I to judge? Soon after leaving her home she met her mate he was a rogue as well because of some accident he was taking part in. It was a lovely story finding each other against all odds.

Her mother Dora on the other hand fell in love with a human and never once did she think of finding her destined one. And that's basically how Ana and her family fell apart with our world. Ana can't even feel her wolf just like she doesn't have one. Maybe she's more of a human than werewolf. She doesn't mind though, cause after living a human life she couldn't imagine pack life for herself.

When she finished her story it was time to share mine. I felt really comfortable with her so I told her everything about my family, Aaron, finding Keith and our fight. She listened to me intensely. When I finished with me meeting her, she pondered for a moment and asked:

"So what now? You didn't reject him so mate bond will lead you two to each other. And I believe that it will happen rather sooner than later as you two are mated. Don't you miss him?"

"Of course I do. I think about him every day since I left, but what's the point? He was disappointed with me and I felt offended and lonely. You know, everything was fine till our stupid duties broke us apart. I sometimes wish that he wouldn't be an Alpha and I his Luna, maybe then we could be together caring for only one another."

" May I be honest with you?"

" Yeah, go ahead."

" Don't get mad at me but I think you let your emotions take over. Yeah, it was not cool, all those things he said, but you did promise to be the Luna of that pack and yet here you are. Running, hiding. Screw him, he would eventually come around but every Pack needed their Luna. It's like growing up without a mother, at least that's what my grandma used to describe it."

" You don't know what you're talking about. They all hated me. Why should I care?"

" Because you made a promise, besides what have you done to be loved by you people?"

After that we changed subjects. Ana told me more about school, who is who, which classes are nice and which I should change as soon as possible. She informed me that bimbo from this morning is Morgan and is this school's most popular girl. So that's who I was back home?

I drove her back to her home, she lives about half a mile from my apartment so it's nice to know I have someone close by other than Brad.

I went inside my gorgeous home and looking around asked myself: does it really feel like home here, without him?

Talking about him today made me miss him even more. I wish that our argument would never happen and we would now lay in each other arms just enjoying closeness. Who am I kidding, we wouldn't be only lying there that's for sure.

I don't know what I was thinking but my subconscious must've dialed his number.

"Hello" - came his voice. He sounded amazing. Just from hearing this one word I felt goosebumps all over my body. - "Cecilia, are you there? Is everything OK?" - he asked when I didn't answer back.

I ended the call. Embarras as f**k.

What are you doing?! I thought to myself.