How Far Would You Go For Love [M×M]

LIER

One hour later-

Aaron's POV

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I opened my eyes slowly slowly and tried to adjust with my surrounding. I got up and looked here and there. I was in one of hospital room, surrounded with few beeping machines and a tube with needle attached to my hand.

All the memories of Kenneth's accident, his injured body, his unconscious face, last fateful night, those beeping machines, my racing heartbeat, my pain and worries, then Kenneth's still heartbeat, his pale face, his ice cold body and my shattered world..............all came hitting me with thousands of needles at once and this pain is unbearable!!!!

I took out that needle out of my hand and started walking towards the exit door. Once I got outside the room, I started walking aimlessly in that huge corridor. I don't know where I should go now because my home, my Kenneth is no more!! I don't know what should I do because there is no Kenneth to tell me.....to hold me and take me to the right path.....

I don't know what should I ask, because there's no Kenneth who will answer me....!! I don't know how should I feel now because there's no Kenneth who will love me anymore.....!! I don't know how to smile because there us no Kenneth to makes me laugh.

My love, my dreams, my present and my future, my soul, my smile, sleep, my shine, my world, my journey, my love, my Kenneth.......my everything has been snatched from me.....!! For forever......!! Without any reason....!! Why.....??? What I did wrong to get punished like this......?? How I am gonna live now without him.....?? how.....??

Without my knowledge my legs pulled me to Kenneth's room. When Mike saw me he came to me and hugged me tightly and started saying some soothing words, which I don't want to listen.....!! No words can clam me now. No magic can make me happy. My everything is ruined now......

"Everything will be fine Aaron OK, just.....don't cry!!" Mike tried to clam me.

He is saying everything will be fine.....!! How...!! When.....?? How everything will be fine when there is nothing left in my life....?? How everything will be fine when Kenneth is not next to me guiding me....???

I pulled myself from his hug and looked at him. I don't want to do this but I can't control my emotions now. I started crying and shouting loudly on Mike.....!!

"Then tell Kenneth to get up because it is the only thing that can make everything fine....!! Can you do that.....?? Tell me can you....??" I shouted on him because I didn't known why on hell he was trying to convince me. Am I a child who can be easily manipulated.....???

"Relax Aaron y......"

"How can I relax Mike, when my everything is finished now....?? Tell me Mike....!! How can I....?? How can I relax when I lost the one I love the most.....?? Have you been relax if something like this would have been happened with you.....??? Tell me Mike....??"

"I understand you Aar....."

"No, no you can't understand me Mike....!! You haven't lost your life, your soul, your breath, your love Mike.....!!!! Then how can you understand me.......on one can understand me now......no one??" I sobbed loudly feeling the pain bleeding heart.

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"Ssshhhuuu Aaron, shhhuu do(sniff)...don't cry please....!!" Mike again tried to clam me sobbing silently.

"Ke(sniff)......Kenneth...??" I asked Mike.

"He is still in his room. Doctors are doing some paper work."

I opened the door and went to my Kenneth and placed my hands on his cheeks. How he can leave me like this when he said that he will be with me.....?? Why he have to die without any reason......???Why he left me alone like this.....??

He has promised me that we will be together for eternity........then what is this...!! He had told me that he will never leave me......then what he is doing now....!! He had promised me that we will build our future together....what about that now....!! Then why he left me alone in this world......why.....?? He lied to me....!! It was all a lie.....!! A white lie.....!!

I got up and saw Kenneth carefully with my teared eyes and went out of the room...!! Mike was still seating and sobbing on chair. I am feeling very suffocated, I need to get out of here now. And without thinking anymore I ran from there as fast as I can....!!

Again I don't know where I am heading....?? Where these corridors will take me....?? I just want to get out of here....!! I don't want to be there where my love, my hope, my future, my dreams, my Kenneth had died...!! I don't want to be here...!!!

After running like forever, I found myself outside of the hospital. I don't know where I should go or what I should do....?? Which road I should take that can take me to my Kenneth...!! Where should I go....?? I was deep in my thoughts and was a crying mess when suddenly someone pulled me backward. When I looked carefully, it was Mike and he was looking at me worriedly.

"Aaron, I know you are upset but you can't kill yourself like this. That car could have hit you!!" He tried to reason out.

"Kenneth(sniff).."

"Aaron(sniff)...he has gone !! You have to control yourself."

"I(sniff).....home!!"

"You want to go home?"

"Hmm"

"OK, just wait here. Don't go anywhere."

I don't know where Mike went after that, but I was still standing there with the help of a pillar at the same spot sobbing silently!!

People who were passing by there were looking at me strangely, few were looking with sympathy and few were with their loved ones, so they just ignored me. I don't care about their looks towards me because their looks are not gonna give my Kenneth back, if it can then I will allow them to look at me for the whole life.....!!

I don't know after how many seconds or minutes or hours, Mike came with his car, opened the door and tucked me inside and put my seatbelt tightly.....!! He started driving his car towards my apartment and I was sobbing and looking outside the window.

Till yesterday this whole world was bright, colourful, happy, cheerful, then what happened suddenly......??? Why these all seem to be very dull.....??? Why I can't see anyone smiling....??? why I can't hear any bird's chirpying anymore......???? why this sunlight seems to be dull.....??? why people are this much silent.....??? why I can't feel any warmth now.....!!!! What had happened to everyone....?? Is everyone mourning for my dead love.....??

Mike was saying something to me but it didn't reached to my ears because I don't want to listen that. He is trying to clam me but how can I.....?? I don't want to listen to anyone, I just want Kenneth......just my Kenneth......!!!

We reached my apartment and I got out of car. Mike also came out and tried to hold me for my support but I refused it because it's not Kenneth's hand who can make me feel secure. He will not come to me......he will not!!

I don't know how but suddenly sun rays got dull and slowly slowly disappeared and whole sky got dark and dull, an ugly shade of grey!! Slowly- slowly it started raining!!! One drop.......two drop......then three......four......then many more. And within few seconds it started raining heavily.

People were running here and there and were searching roofs to protect themselves from rain and lightning. It was like, god was also mourning for my Kenneth....!! And I don't like it because he is the one who snatched him from me.....!!!

I walked slowly-slowly towards elevator drenching in rain with Mike beside me. I want this rain to wash away my tears, because I don't want these people to look at me sympatheticaly because they're also a reason why Kenneth is not with me today. Their carelessness, their impatience has snatched Kenneth from me!!

When I got into the elevator, I saw aunt Jane and his grandson Peter. They are our neighbours. Kenneth always use to help aunty Jane with her groceries, official works and many more things. And Peter always use to play with Kenneth whenever they use to be free....!! But now...............

"Hello uncle Aaron, how are you....??"

".........................."

"Umm....where is uncle Kenneth.....??"

"......................"

"Aarin, child, are you ok....!! Why are you crying....??"

"....................."

Now, what should I answer them....?? I was looking at them with my teared eyes. I want to answer them but I can't speak because of this pain and knot in my throat. I turned my face to opposite direction because I can't answer them....!!

What should I told them, that their dear Kenneth is no more, that he will never help them, that he will never play with him, that he will not listen to their stories because he is gone for forever, because he is dead!! Mike was consoling me and by that they must have come to know what had happened.

I reached my home and went inside the room. Mike also wanted to come with me but I stopped him. I want to be with Kenneth's memories alone. I don't want anyone between those memories and me!! I was alone in my room, with all the memories of Kenneth and mine.

Kenneth was standing near window, looking and smiling towards me. He was calling me and giving his hands to me to hold it. I know it's my illusion but still I don't want to loose this opportunity. Maybe I will get my Kenneth back. So I moved towards him to took his hands. But with a blink of an eye, he disappeared. He disappeared again leaving me behind.....!!

I sat on the floor crying and looking for Kenneth....!! I can see Kenneth watching T.V and looking at me...!! I can see Kenneth cooking food for us and smiling at me...!! I can see Kenneth ironing our clothes and smiling to me....!! I can see Kenneth cleaning our home....!! I can see Keneth coming out of bathroom freshly showered...!! I can see him giving flying kisses to me...!! I can see him everywhere, but I know he is nowhere.....!!!

He is nowhere now. He left me alone. I know I use to fight with him but it didn't mean that I didn't loved him.....!! I loved him with all my heart, I loved him with all my breath, I loved him with all my soul, my body, my everything, then why he leaved me alone...........why....??

All the promises of a happy life, all the dreams of being together for eternity, all the hopes of a better future, all the love that he showed to me was a lie.....!!!! A complete white lie.........just lies....!!!!! And he is a lier.....!!

I got up and went to cabinet where all the photos and cards were placed. I started crying, shouting and throwing them one by one because they're proofs of that white lie....!!!

"Lier...lier...lier..lier...(sniff).....lier....(sniff)......lier.....!!!"

Then I went to our wardrobe, opened the door and started throwing his shirts, pants and other stuffs one by one because they belong to that lier, who left me alone without any word.....!!

"Lier...lier...lier...lier....(sniff)......lier.....(sniff).....lier....!!

I went to our kitchen and started throwing utensils, pots, bottles, and knives one by one because he used them to make me happy which was also part of that lie.....!!

"Lier...lier...lier...lier...(sniff)....lier....(sniff)...lier...!!

I can feel something sharp going through my hand and something warm and liquidy coming out from my hands.....!! I know I have cut my hands but I don't care. I wish something sharp can cut my throat so that I can also die. I can't handle this pain. This is too much for me. I fell on floor crying and shouting and holding a photo of Kenneth....

"Why Kenneth,......(sniff) why...?? Why you have to.....(sniff) do this....?? You are a lier...!!.....(sniff) Why you loved me......(sniff) whene you were going to leave me alone....(sniff)why....??"

How can I live now with my broken life and dream....?? I am alive, I have to continue my life, but how....??? I have never imagined my life.....my any second without Kenneth in my life....!!! Then how I am gonna live now.......how......!!

I was still crying and shouting when suddenly.....................................

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