Never Again

Time to live the dream

" No , no , I have realized my mistake . I just sank in the moment . I thought that I will win her back but she made it very clear that she won't leave Tyler because he has more money than I have and his dad is some famous person that could help her in her career but she also wanted to have a relationship with me . "

" And what did you say ? "

" I told her that if I get back with he r then I want to be sure that I am the only one and she is just mine . I hate to think that she is with me and the other second she is in the arms of Tyler . "

" So . . . . . why have you come here ? Why are you telling me all this ? How do you want me to react ? "

" What do you mean ? "

" You are clearly not over her then why are you here with me ? . . . . . .What do you expect from ' us ' ? Just because she said that she didn't wanted to be with you , you went out looking for a rebound . And the first name that came into your mind was Emily because I told you that I had feelings for you , I like you . "

" No it is not just that . "

" I know what it is Matt and I am done with you . I wish I never went to our party at least then I would have respected you . "

" Emily . . . . . "

" Just leave Matt I don't want to hate you but if you stayed here even for a minute I know I will . "

" I . . . . I am really sorry . Please forgive me at least temporarily , I swear I will earn back your trust .. I will try to reciprocate the same feelings like you do . I promise . "

" Just go . "

She didn't even looked at him . Matt went away . Emily locked the door and sat on the floor crying her heart out . She has never been into a relationship before . And when she came in one all she felt was pain . She was happy for a second and then the next second she was either cursing her life or she was judging herself .

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She was happier when Matt was just a crush for her . Every time she used to see him , her lips curved and she used to get butterflies in her stomach . She used to get visions of her future . Her belief in love used to get stronger and stronger . But now she hated to be in love . She hated her feelings for him that took away the peace from her .

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She wished that there was someone she could share her feelings with . Of course there was Rachel but she was going through some s**t herself . She didn't wanted to trouble her . She wished her mother was around to help her out or may be just to listen her or may be she could just be present so Emily's hard could relax that at least she has someone with her . She is not all alone . But sadly that was not possible .

She was remembering the day when she last saw her mother a few years back . She was in school it was her dancing competition . Her mother had some work so she said that she will join her later . She was working late the night before also . Emily was not able to sleep , she asked her mother to sing to her but she was too busy . But later she felt hands caressing her head . She didn't open her eyes but she knew that was her mother . The next day her mother left early .

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During the competition Emily's eyes were searching for her mother but she could not find her so she was a little angry at her that work was more important to her than her daughter . She went home a lot of people were there , her neighbors were crowding the place . She was looking for her dad but he was not there . Her neighbor told her that her mother fell off the stairs and was bleeding very much . Her father took her to the hospital later she found out that her mother died . That was the worst day of her life .After that Stella came into her life and nothing was normal again .