A light In Her Darkness

Chapter Six - Letting her guard down

Dylan’s P.O.V

Ava and I arrived back at my place to find most people gone, but Alannah, Aiden and another couple of people were still here crashed out on my sofa or the floor, completely wasted. I would have some mess to clean up tomorrow, but I don’t mind, as long as everyone had a good night. Ava had not said much to me after what happened on the beach that was OK with me, she needed time and I need to be patient which for her I can do. I can’t explain it the way I was feeling about her. I just knew they were strong feelings which to me is crazy since we only met. I was drawn to her as soon as she smiled at me, she was beautiful, even with being as broken as she was. I was going to do whatever I can to make her life better whether that will be us not getting past being friends or if it will turn into something more. All I knew is, I wanted her in my life no matter what. I was still trying to work out all the emotions I have been feeling tonight when it came to Ava.

“I should probably get a cab home.” She said, taking my jacket off, handing it to me.

“Stay here tonight with me?” I asked, hopefully.

I wasn’t ready to let her leave just yet. I wanted to keep her around in case she wakes up tomorrow morning and decides it would be best if she never saw me again. I don’t think I could cope with that.

As soon as I said those words to her, she froze, shaking a little. The look on her face said it all, and I knew what she was thinking…knew what she thought I meant by that.

“I…I…can’t Dylan.” She stuttered out like a scared child.

“Ava I mean to sleep, nothing more than that I thought I made that clear. Just sleep, I promise. I am not ready to let go just yet in case you change your mind about me. If you want to go home I will take you there myself, I will understand.” I said, pushing her hair from her eyes.

She studied me for a moment, something I noticed she does a lot. I think she does it to see if she can read me, see if I am being genuine and not lying to her. Even after her studying me carefully for a moment, I could tell she was still not sure what to do. I reached for her, hoping she wouldn’t pull away and pulled her close to me. She looked up at me, the look in her eye breaking my heart. Someone should not be this scared to be close to someone. I hated that she had been hurt so badly she never trusted anyone, it is not right.

“I only want to be close to you Ava, nothing else,” I whispered cupping her face in my hands.

“OK.” She said, finally responding to my question.

“Really?” I said, smiling like an i***t.

“Yes.” She giggled.

My excitement seemed to amuse her, but I like that I can make her laugh, that I can entertain her. Her next move surprises me before I could say anything else she reached in placing a soft kiss on my lips, smiling into the kiss. I was a little confused too by it cause she said she wanted to try being friends first, but friends don’t kiss friends like that. Maybe she is confused as I am about the full thing. I had no complaints about it, just never wanted her to feel overwhelmed by it all or feel she had to do it for me. I kissed her back, in the same way, smiling into her lips, the way she did with me.

Once we pulled apart, I reached for her hand, leading us through to my bedroom. I felt her hand tremble a little in mine, telling me, the closer we got to my room, the more nervous it was making her. I opened the door, switching the light on, heading in. Ava, however, stopped at the doorway for a moment. She took a deep breath before following me in.

“I can sleep on the floor if that will make things more comfortable for you, Ava?” I asked.

“No, it is OK. You can sleep in the bed with me.” She smiled.

“OK. I will get you some clothes to wear. I don’t want you having to sleep in your dress.” I laughed.

“Thank you. And no, I don’t want that either.” She giggled.

I headed to my closet, grabbing her one of my t-shirts and a pair of joggers, passing them to her.

“Bathroom is in there.” I smiled.

She nodded, thanking me before heading to the bathroom to get changed. I stripped my clothes off, pulling on a pair of PJS bottoms but no top, it was too warm for that, but I would need to make sure Ava was OK with it. I never wanted her feeling uncomfortable around me. I got the bed ready, waiting for Ava to arrive back. When she stepped back into my bedroom, she looked at me, and when she saw I only had bottoms on her eyes began trailing my upper body, a small whimpering falling from her lips. I chuckled a little at her reaction, making her look up at me, her face now red, blushing.

“Sorry.” She whispered embarrassed, looking at the ground.

“It’s OK. I don’t usually sleep with a top on, but I will put one on if you would prefer me too?” I asked.

“No, it is OK. I am sorry I looked at you the way I did Dylan. It’s just, your body…is um…it is beautiful.” She stuttered out, playing with the material of the joggers she had on, refusing to look at me.

I smiled at how cute she was before heading over to where she was standing nervously. She sensed me approaching, looking up at me, biting on her lower lip.

“I don’t mind. Look, all you want.” I smirked.

She turned red again, letting out a nervous giggle before nodding her head. Her eyes found mine, an intense look in them. It seemed she wanted to say something to me but was too scared. I see her hands twitching a little at her side, her eyes then trailing my body again before falling on my face, a look of want now in her eyes. She swallowed hard before reaching her hand towards me, running her fingertips over my chest and stomach. I groaned, my eyes closing over under her touch. I think I was a little surprised too by what she was doing. She was quick to pull away.

She started making her way over to my bed, climbing under the covers, pulling them tightly around her as she sat up, her eyes watching me. I was trying to work out what she was thinking, but I couldn’t. I followed, doing the same as she did, climbing under the covers to join her. She turned around, her body now facing mine.

“Ava do you have a question? You look like you want to ask me something?” I asked.

“It’s stupid, never mind.” She said, resting her cheek on her knee, her eyes still watching me.

“Ava, you can ask me anything, don’t be embarrassed,” I said, stroking her cheek.

She closed her eyes over, staying that way for a moment before opening them. She went to say something but changed her mind. I looked at her, a smile playing on my lips, hoping to encourage her.

“I wanna touch you, but I’m scared.” She whimpered.

“Why?” I asked.

“Cause touching leads to other things, and I am not ready for that.” She whispered.

I swallowed hard; the thought of her touching me made me crazy. I reached for her hand, lifting it over to me, placing it on my chest, just where my heart is. She seemed a little taken back.

“Your heart is racing.” She said.

“That’s you that makes it do that.” I smiled.

It was right; it was her being close to me that was doing this to me.

“It is?” She asked, shocked, and I nodded.

She pushed her hair behind her ear, blushing, a small smile creeping on her lips. She moved her hands from my heart, using her fingertips to trace the skin of my chest and stomach once again. A touch that was gentle and soft.  I closed my eyes, whimpering at being underneath her touch this way. My body shivered when I felt her sweet, hot lips on my neck, butterfly kisses tracing over my skin. I opened my eyes looking at her. She was looking at me as her lips trailed from my neck, towards my throat, to my chest, over my ribs and stomach before making her way back up, her lips inches away from mine.

“Kiss me,” She whispered, her beautiful brown eyes, staring straight into mine.

I nodded, reaching in, closing the small space between us, Ava responding how she always has and whimpering into my lips. She shifted herself, climbing onto my lap, her knees at my hips, and her arms around my neck. I felt my heart race again, my pulse too as the front of her body pressing against mine. I placed my hand on her hips, holding her close, kissing her with everything I had in me.

“Ava, what are you doing?” I breathed out against her lips.

“Do you not want me too?” She asked the scared look back in her eyes again.

“What? No, of course, I don’t, but I don’t want you feeling like you need to.” I said, stroking her hair.

“I…I just wanna kiss and touch each other, nothing else.” She whispered.

“OK. Promise me you will tell me if you want to stop if you don’t feel comfortable, OK?” I said.

“I promise.” She replied, her lips pressing against mine again.