09 - Attempt
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09 - Attempt
Arabella’s Point of View
“Let me go!” pagpupumiglas ko mula kay Spade. “Ibaba mo ako, Spade, ano ba?!” Hinampas-hampas ko ang likod niya pero parang wala lang sa kanya. He didn’t mind it at all.
“Sorry, Miss Arabella, utos lang ni boss,” aniya bago ako isinalampak sa loob ng sasakyan. Ini-lock din niya ang pinto bago ko pa man ito mabuksan.
I groaned in frustration. Napapadyak na lang ako sa sahig ng kotse at napatili. “Bullshít!”
“Let’s go, Spade,” sambit ni Uncle nang makapasok siya sa front seat. “Let’s take this wild lady home.”
“Uncle!”
“We’re going home, Ara. You’ve been a bad girl tonight,” aniya na para bang bata ang kausap niya.
“Let me out, please!”
“No,” matigas niyang sambit. “Knowing what you’re after, I just can’t let you go. Your mother entrusted you to me, so it is now my responsibility to take care of you and make sure that no harm shall come to you,” paliwanag niya at sinenyasan si Spade na patakbuhin na ang sasakyan.
“Harm? There’s no harm in going to a bar!”
“No harm? Marami. You’re new here, Ara. The culture is way too different from the place you grew up with,” tugon niya sa akin. “And knowing how wild you can get, then the more cautious I have to be.”
Naikuyom ko na lang ang kamay ko sa inis. It’s not like I came there to be fùcked. Sinabi ko lang ‘yon out of frustration. I just wanted him to worry about me. I just can’t accept the fact that he’s dating someone.
Well, I know I don’t have any rights to be this mad and jealous, but I just can’t help it. I like him. I like him so much and I want him for myself alone. I want him to be mine alone!
“Why am I not allowed to do what I want?” naibulalas ko na lang.
“Because not everything you wanna do is good for you,” mabilis niyang sagot. “Now that you’re under my care, you have to follow me and always consider my opinion. I am your guardian now.”
Guardian.
Naikuyom ko ang kamay ko at huminga nang malalim. I knew it. “I came here not to be babysitted, Uncle.”
“Well, if I have to babysit you just so you could be safe, then I am willing to even put you to a crib,” matigas niyang sambit. “You’re my only family now. And you’re the only one who carries the blood of the Dela Fuentes so I have to take extra care of you,” mahabang litanya niya. “And you have no choice but to listen to me because I am now your parent.”
“Ayoko. I don’t want you to be my parent. No!” mariing tanggi ko. There’s no way I’d settle with that. I can’t just accept that. I want him to be more.
“I know I can’t replace your mother nor I can be your father, but I will do my best to make sure that you’ll be guided,” aniya.
Nakagat ko na lang ang labi ko dahil hindi kami nagkakaintindihang dalawa. Well, I just can’t tell him that I like him. Panigurado akong mag-iiba ang relasyon naming dalawa. Things will surely be awkward. Fúck it.
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Pagkauwi namin sa bahay ay agad akong pumunta sa mini bar ng mansion at naghanap ng maiinom. I need something to get me really, really drunk tonight. I need a strong alcohol to get rid of this frustration I am feeling right now.
I scanned through the wines and decided to go with a whiskey. Kumuha na rin ako ng mga ice cubes.
“Where do you think you’re taking that?” pagsalubong sa akin ni Uncle at tinaasan ako ng kilay. “That’s a really strong drink, Ara.”
“Well, what do you want me to drink, milk?” sarkastikong tugon ko sa kanya. “I wanted to get drunk, so I’m going for this one. Don’t tell me pati ito bawal din?”
He looked at me and sigh. “It’s not like that.”
“Great. Now, let me through at iinom ako sa kwarto ko,” inis kong sabi sa kanya at lalagpasan na sana siya nang hawakan niya ang kamay ko.
“Let’s drink together and talk,” aniya. “Doon tayo sa veranda.”
“O-Okay...” I was surprised to hear his response, pero sumunod pa rin ako sa kanya. At pumunta nga kami sa second floor ng mansion at doon kami sa veranda.
It was my first time to be there and I must say, ang ganda ng lugar. I can see the surrounding area. Ang lamig din ng hangin, but not to the point na mangingnig ako sa lamig. The couch was comfortable, too.
“So...” Kinuha na sa akin ni Uncle Damian ang alak at binuksan sabay salin sa baso. And it was then I realized na isang baso lang ang nadala namin.
We’ll going to share the same glass!
“Do you hate me, Arabella?” diretsong tanong niya sa akin sabay abot ng isang baso ng whiskey. Diretso siyang nakatingin sa mga mata ko at naghihintay ng sagot.
Agad kong kinuha ang baso at uminom. Napangiwi pa ako nang maramdaman ko ang pagguhit ng alak sa lalamunan ko. “W-Why did you suddenly ask me that, Uncle?”
Hindi siya agad sumagot. Nagsalin siyang muli at uminom. “Because I want to know.”
“What do you think?” mabilis kong tugon at ako naman ang nagsalin ng alak at uminom.
“Based on how you reacted, I guess you do,” aniya at siya naman ang uminom.
Hindi ko mapigilang makaramdam ng kiliti sa loob ng tiyan ko nang mapagtantong nagpapalitan kami ng laway sa baso. We’re kissing indirectly.
“You hate me, right?”
Napakurap ako nang muli siyang magsalita. I stared at him. Mula sa liwanag ay kita ko ang itim na itim niyang mga mata na naghihintay ng sagot ko. Bumaba ang tingin ko sa matangos niyang ilong na mas nadepina pa dahil sa ilaw mula sa gilid niya, pati na ang labi niyang tila iniimbitahan akong halikan ito.
He’s so attractively hot.
“N-No...” tugon ko at nag-iwas ng tingin. “T-There’s no way I’d hate you, Uncle. After everything you did for us, especially to my mom, there’s no way I’d hate you,” paliwanag ko sa kanya at muling uminom.
“Then...”
“I am just frustrated.” Hindi ko na siya pinatapos magsalita. “But it doesn’t mean I hate you.”
“So you don’t hate me?” aniya at nakita ko ang pagkapanatag sa mukha niya.
“No. I...I just hate it when people try to stop me from doing what I want.”
“It’s for your own sake,” seryosong sambit niya. “You’re this family’s princess. And you’re as precious to me as how you are to your mother and grandparents,” dagdag niya habang nakatingin sa mga mata ko.
Hindi ko naman napigilang mamula sa sinabi niya.
“O-Okay. But still, you shouldn’t have dragged me out like that. Nakakahiya,” nakangusong sabi ko at muling uminom.
Dama ko na ang sipa ng alak sa sistema ko. And I am getting braver and bolder to express my thoughts.
“I don’t have a choice. Alam kong hindi kita mapapalabas kapag pinakiusapan lang kita,” aniya at ngumisi. “And I have to get you out of there as soon as possible before your wild side could even take over,” dagdag niya at mahinang natawa.
“Wild? Me?” Itinuro ko ang sarili ko at napailing. “I am not wild, Uncle. I am a behaved, good little girl,” malanding sabi ko sa kanya bago ako tumayo at tumabi sa kanya. I stared at his eyes and grinned at him. “Don’t you think so?”
“Y-Yeah,” aniya at bahagyang lumayo sa akin, pero hindi ko siya hinayaang umatras.
Umusog ako para panatilihin ang malapit naming distansya. I saw how he gulped, so I grinned even wider. “Am I a bad girl?” tanong ko sa kanya bago ko ipinatong ang palad ko sa kanyang dibdib.
Mabilis niya itong inalis. He looked at me. Pansin ko ang pagsisimulang paglalim ng paghinga niya. “W-What are you doing, Arabella?” mahinang tugon niya sa akin at akmang tatayo na sana pero hinawakan ko ang magkabilang balikat niya at pinaupo siya ulit.
“What do you think I’m doing, my dearest uncle?” nakangising tanong ko at napakagat na lang ng labi. At para masigurong hindi siya basta-bastang makakatayo ay inupuan ko ang hita niya. “Tell me.”
“Arabella...” matigas niyang banggit sa pangalan ko. “Get off me. You’re drunk.”
Sinalubong ko ang mga mata niya. “And what if I don’t?” tanong ko at hinaplos ang kanyang pisngi.
Biglang nagdilim ang ekspresyon niya kasabay ng pagbigat ng kanyang paghinga. “You’ll regret it. Something will happen that you will surely regret,” pabulong niyang sambit.
Napakagat ako ng labi. Even his whispering voice sounded so hot and tempting. I am already getting excited down there. “Oh? Then make me. Make me regret it, uncle,” mapanghamon kong sambit sa kanya bago ko inilingkis ang isang braso ko sa leeg niya habang haplos-haplos ko ang pisngi niya.
“Shít...” Dinig kong bulong niya bago niya ako sinunggaban ng halik.
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