Ain't Meant For LOVE..!

Getting Trapped

Tasha’s P.O.V.

Merbourn Enterprise.

It’s been two weeks since that night; things are quite awkward between me and Damien. The thing is, I wanted to avoid him since then but being his Personal Assistant wasn’t helping it. Also, there was that Rachel who was trying to reach out to Damien and I was hell bent on not letting her get near him. What’s more, as if that wasn’t enough for me; that evil lady joined Merbourn Enterprise to get close to him.

Ever then when we crossed path, things were getting complicated. Damien would pull me closer to him not giving a darn to what others might say. He in fact made it sure, that everyone gets this idea of us ‘Dating’.

-Gosh, why did he choose to make my life difficult?-

No, I am not over reacting because Edward was really pissed off for all that was happening around. Even though he knew it was all pretence, he didn’t buy it. So, yes! It was ruining our relationship. I was frustrated because of Damien, Rachel, Edward, my emotions that weren’t in check and apart from all these; the truth that was still hidden from Damien.

I was engrossed in these, trying to find a way to sort it out when suddenly I felt my right eye twitching making me leave everything I was doing at bay. I ignored it and continued filling important data and making notes to be handed over to CEO.

I heard my intercom go as Damien asked me to come visit him. I went taking a small memo pad with me, who knows what he wants?

Knocking at once, I pushed the door open and walked up to his desk. Judging by his appearance I could tell, he too was in some self discussion.

“Mr. Williams?” I waited for him to acknowledge me.

“O well, Tasha I have a request to make. I hope you would agree to it?” it was more like a question.

I scrutinized him for a few seconds thinking he might be down with a fever, because he never would have ‘requested’ in his sane mind. His eyes held... what? Is that desperation? Well, to be honest I am not a person who could read the other with ease. It is only when at times, there are some sincere emotions coming from a person; that I could recognize well.

I finally nodded and saw him exhale in relief.

“I think, we are quite comfortable around each other now. So, I wondered can we go for a PDA to keep Rachel away? I hope I ain’t asking much.” He asked curiously and silently praying as his lips were quivering a little.

-‘PDA? Is this man for real?’-

“But...” before I could have argued he cut me off.

“Listen Tasha, it is for me and I hope you would help me out. It is really important because that woman is a leech and I would tell you everything later just say yes. She still hasn’t taken the hint, so PDA would only make it real.” Damien said as he stood from his chair and walked up to me with slow yet strong strides.

I could feel his nervousness as he studied my face.

-‘O God. Why does it look like he is begging? I can’t stand that. Shey, it’s getting to me. I thought I was done being sweet. What should I do? Am I really ready to help him?

Isn’t it for the best? Think about it, with Rachel gone Damien would be safe and there would be no one to flirt with him. No one dares that- an inner voice pointed it out.

But what if I fall for him? He is the only guy that has touched me in all romantic way, he is my first kiss and that hell means a lot to me?-  Another part of my brain debated.

So, why don’t you do this for the one that means a lot to you- The inner voice poked me.

But what if I lost myself in the whole situation? I know he will never return those feelings. Is he worth taking the risk?- The brain debated again.’

“Tasha... Hello...” Damien called out to me waving a hand over my eyes.

Realizing I probably zoned out, I shook my head. He took it as a no as I saw his face change into disappointment and his hands fell down to his sides before going back into his pants pocket.

“I mean, I am fine with the PDA but only when Rachel is around.” I quickly lowered my eyes sighing deeply because I know what I have agreed to.

“Of course... thank you so much Tasha. I owe you one for this,” with joy, he hugged me tightly and kissed my forehead before pulling away.

I felt my heart at ease seeing him all happy and something fluttered in me when he kissed me.

“I cannot see Rachel nearby...” I tried to change the topic and push away those feelings.

He laughed and said, “That was my gratitude.” He then took his chair and fished out his cell phone, scrolling something writing away god knows what, he turned to me and asked me to have coffee together.

I decided to talk about my little secret to him now as he seems in a good mood but when I was about to enter his office again with two mugs in my hand, I heard Rachel’s voice from inside.

I quickly pushed it open with my hips, as I was stunned to see the scene before my eyes. Rachel was all over him and he was grabbing her arms, face tuned away as she tried to kiss him. His shirt pulled out and one button undone and her dress slid down over her shoulder. He was pushing her away cursing her all the while.

Something snapped in me, as I placed the coffee mugs on the table that lay beside me in front of the couch. I approached her and growled. “What do you think you are doing here?” I crossed my arm over my chest as I peered at the two bodies in front of me.

They jumped before she ignored me as ALWAYS and continued molesting my boyfriend.

-‘Wait? My boyfriend? No he isn’t. But he can be right? No, we both know he can never be mine. Argghhh...’-

With the little realization, I was determined of one thing “if he cannot be mine, I won’t let him be with anyone else too.”

I reached my hand as I took hold of her hair and dragged her away from him. She squealed with surprise at my sudden action; clearly not expecting me to do it. I turned her around to face me as I slapped her hard. The loud sound, astound me.

-‘Did I just... slap her? Dammit what did I do? I never raised my hand over anyone in all these years and here I hit her?’-

As much as she deserved it, I was still upset because it was unlike me. I never hit anybody not even when my in-laws beat me mercilessly. I sighed as my eyes fell on Damien taking in his shocked yet proud appearance.

“You b***h, you trying to mess with me?” Rachel’s voice brought my attention back to her as I saw her holding her left cheek with her left palm as she threw daggers at me and flicking her hair back. She was really pissed off.

-‘See, and you were feeling sorry for this psycho.’-

She charged towards me and before she could have laid her hands on me, Damien caught her wrist and twisted it so now it was her back facing us. She twisted in pain to get out of his hold. I saw Damien look at me as I gave him a thankful smile.

“Damien... it’s hurting... you are helping this b***h? She is just toying with your feelings Damien.  Just listen to me for once.” Rachel tried reasoning clearly in pain but I was in no mood of her excuses because Damien protecting me only made me frustrated.

It was giving me hope, it made me feel good and I couldn’t help but feel happy and wanting more from him. So, I did what I could have done best.

I grabbed her neck and threatened her, “I asked you to stay the hell away from him. Didn’t I? Looks like you ain’t taking me seriously. But it was just a trailer of what I can do when you defy me. Next time I would make sure to suck your life out of you. Now before I finish counting upto 5, I want your ass out of this office.” I pushed her forward as she fell on the ground.

Looking at her pathetic ass like that, I felt good and I was scared of it because I am everything but this.

“One... Two... Three...”

“Fine. Let me see for how long you can get away from me.” She huffed and left us behind.

“Whoa! That was intense...” Damien said amusingly as he started sorting his clothes.

“Guess what? We may not require snacks anymore?” we laughed together as we drank our coffee. I was now upset because I clearly lost my chance to get clean.

***

Things weren’t going great now. It was a really stupid idea to agree to PDA. After some ten days past that incident, Rachel was crossing our path intentionally and we followed our deal.

It was all okay until I was in cafeteria with Leina and Katie as they were excitedly telling me about the new guy that joined the healthcare dept. when suddenly my phone chimed notifying me of a message received. I ignored it till it went off angrily. I was about to pick it up to see what the hell was causing it to be so restless when someone slammed on our table loudly. Following the hand I looked up to see who this i***t is and found Damien glaring at me.

-‘Now what is his problem?’-

I stood up and raised my eyebrow in question as I gestured to him the presence of my fellows. He ignored them plainly and grabbed my hand before pulling me into him and hauling my hair downwards, making me put my face up as he cupped my face with the other arm, letting my shoulder go and kissed me roughly. I was confused at first but soon got lost in his kiss as he bit my lower lip hard, taking the chance to enter my mouth and exploring it with his tongue. My knees wobbled so I hooked my hands around his neck for support and pulled his hair. The kiss went on as he pushed me backward until I felt the presence of the table behind me, I heard something fell as he lifted me up and made me sit on the table. He left my lips and kissed my jawline. I could feel my entire body heat up as my fingers raked his hair.

(Smash)

I heard the breaking of glass as my eyes shot open. Seeing the cafeteria help-boy my eyes grew wide as I perceived the fact that we were actually making out in a cafeteria. In a damn cafeteria filled with employees. I quickly pushed him away and searched around panicking.

-‘Thank god there are only six of us as it was a Saturday, weekend holiday.’-

Scanning the area my eyes fell on the manager, who along with the helper were clearly shocked. Then Katie who gave me a smirk as if she knew something, Leina on the other hand was angry? I then looked at Damien who was frustrated and then it occurred to me something broke as I saw the food spilled near our table as both the girls stood far to avoid the mess.

In the mess it included me as well. I was a hot bothered mess by now. Trailing my eyes on the ground I saw the glass shreds.

‘-Oh Shey, so it was not glass but glasses. I got it wrong.-‘

Finally, a familiar fuming figure caught my attention as I saw Edward taking long strides and walking over to me, grabbing my hand he tugged me away from Damien only stopping at the entrance.

I counted all the people who witnessed my shame.

‘-O God. Wrong answer again. There are total seven people including me. –‘

“I would like to talk to you Mr. Williams in the next ten minutes at your office.” Edward hissed and tugging me again we stopped in front of the CEO office. He let go of my hand as he remained silent.

Now he was freaking me out. I haven’t ever faced this side of him. I called him twice but he ignored me and I would say it hurts.

I was looking at the ground when Damien arrived there and only when he went inside, Edward took me with him and asked me to sit across Damien’s table.

After a long killing silence Edward spoke. “I don’t know what the hell that was for? But I am here to warn you Damien to stop playing with her feelings.”

I was baffled as I looked at him with wide eyes. How did he know?

“What do you mean by playing with her feelings? Don’t compare me with yourself! Everyone knows I am not the relationship sort of guy and so does she. It is all mutual and you have no right to say.” Damien spoke gravely.

Edward laughed bitterly. “See... that is it. That is why I want you end this shitty game or plan whatever it is. You are nothing but a selfish ass who is so focused on yourself and your body that you clearly doesn’t care whatever the hell she feels for you.”

Damien looked at me and then turned to face Edward. “What do you mean? You want to blame me for nothing? I never promised her anything and she is working willingly on it. I never pushed anyone so don’t f*****g call me selfish. If she turns out to have feeling for me then it’s her problem not mine.” He shrugged again looking at me.

-Ouch! That hurts.’-

I already knew it but listening him say it and that too so casually, it really hurt me because it was crystal clear that he didn’t care about my feelings and doesn’t want anything from me. My eyes welled up with tears as I looked down to stop them from falling.

As I felt Edward slam his fist on the table and then turning to look at me. “Is that clear now? He doesn’t f*****g care if you have fallen for him. He doesn’t f*****g care the fact that what all the kisses and hugs mean to you. He doesn’t even acknowledge the fact that he is the first man to have ever touched you and he may be ruining your image in front of all those f*****g employees down there.”

I avoided his gaze because it was hurting me real bad. I wanted this from Damien but it is Edward who cared about me all these times. He knew exactly what kind of person I was and he clearly can see that I am getting myself troubled.

“Edward, it isn’t what you thinking.” I tried to calm him down.

“Enough Tasha, don’t you dare to make a fool out of yourself. I can see past you. So don’t think of lying to me. He isn’t even bothered so why do you? Just end this crap before I see you broken.” With that he left me behind as I strained my neck looking at his retreating body.

“Tasha is he telling the truth?” Damien was furious as he scanned me.

“For god’s sake, will you answer? IS HE TELLING THE TRUTH?” he yelled at me.

I was startled. I didn’t know what I should reply.

“I have told you I want nothing to do with relationships if I haven’t then at least you knew everything from others. I don’t want you clinging to me hoping to get more out of it...”- Damien was pacing frantically across the floor pulling out his hair while talking.

-‘Now... it pinched. The way he said ‘I don’t want you clinging to me’ it really sucked.’-

Before I could break down I decided to put an end to this without hurting me so I decided to lie.

“Gosh. Why did you get this wrong idea that I might ACTUALLY be falling for you? Clearly you aren’t my type. A man who cannot keep his that thing (pointing to his zip) in pants isn’t someone I would dream about. So get a hold of yourself. Jeez.” Letting out a breathy laugh I shook my head and rushed out of his office.

Exhaling deeply I ran to the restroom and closing the door behind I cried. I effin’ cried after one and half years ever since I arrived here. It was painful to lie when I clearly wanted him to see what Edward could. I thought he might be feeling something for me the way his eyes say but dammit I was wrong. He might be using it to get his way with me. I cried before washing my face and taking deep breathe holding the sink tightly. Looking at the mirror and talking to self I gathered courage.

-‘I can do it. I have to do it for him.’-

Phew...! Sorting my hair and dress I headed back to work with a smile plastered on my face.