My Three Mates A Post Apocalyptic Love Story

Chapter 6 - I'll find you

JACK

I've locked myself on the beta floor and decided I am going to just renovate everything and wipe out any trace of Maria. If my mate decides she wants to work, then I want our home to be ready. I don't want her to be here looking around at what my stupidity caused. I don't want her to have to wonder every time she looks around our home if that was something Maria did. It's bad enough I am such a moron and allowed this to begin with just to avoid an argument. In the last two days I have had a lot of time to reflect on this whole situation. At this point, I'm not even sure what I saw in Maria. She is such a diva who always had to have the best clothes and her voice is like nails on a chalk board. I just don't understand. On top of that, she isn't even my type. She is tall and slender and, honestly, I am more like the Alpha and I like my women a bit curvy. I just have no idea. But I have to make sure this is all ready if Ava is gracious enough to give me a chance.

I've gotten a new bed and mattress along with all the comforters, sheets and pillows. Repainted and redecorated everything all in an attempt to make my mate more comfortable. I just hope I haven't messed up so badly, that she just never comes to me. The pain in my chest gets worse every day and it's almost unbearable. We must have had a strong bond from the get go for it to be this painful after just a few hours of being together.

I was such a mess when we came back the day after the ball. Maria had been waiting for me in the front of the packhouse and tried to cause a scene. I'm almost glad that Ava wasn't here to see it. She threw herself at me, hugging and screaming, crying and making a huge scene while the pack stood there watching it all. I was embarrassed and I can only imagine what it would have done to Ava emotionally had she been there. The warriors had to come up and remove her from the area while she made a fool of herself. I only told her the truth, which is, Ava is my mate and I will do whatever it takes for her to be my wife. That I have no feelings for her and she needed to move on. I think that was the most surprising thing for me to realize. The fact that I feel nothing for her and I don't even think I ever loved her. It makes me feel like s**t to think I was with her because I was afraid to actually put myself out there and find my mate.

What was I thinking? My thoughts just keep circling and I'm rambling to myself. Maybe I'm driving myself crazy. But I don't want to face this life without my mate. The bond that I feel and the way just looking at her made me smile is just unbelievable. I should really call my parents and let them know how badly I have f****d this all up. I know they will be so disappointed, they tried to get me to see reason they tried to tell me how special the bond is. But in my infinite wisdom, I didn't believe them. Putting his head into his hand, he just sits there trying to figure out some way...any way to fix this. I need to speak with my mom and maybe get some pointers to win her forgiveness. No matter what she decides I won't be giving up that easy I have to fight for this.

Picking up my phone, I go through my contacts till I find my parents' cell number and I push call. It rings three times before my mother picks up.

"Hello? Jack is everything OK?" she asks me, knowing I'm normally busy at this time.

"No mom, it's not. I messed everything up." I told her sadly.

"Jack, what do you mean hunny? Tell me what's wrong? Hold on, I'll put you on speaker phone. Your father is here as well."

I heard mom yell for dad to come and talk to me that something is going on and that she put me on speaker phone. I heard my dad enter the room.

"Hey son, what's going on? You OK?" My dad asked in his rich deep voice.

"I messed things up, I found my mate and I've made such a mess, dad. I don't know what to do." I said as I started to sob, unable to hold it back anymore.

"Hey, hey calm down, it's going to be OK. Tell me what happened. Just take a deep breath, OK? We are here. Just let us help you."

"Alex made me go to the ball this year. He said if I wasn't going to bother looking, that I needed to at least go so that I could give it a chance at least. So I went. I broke things off with Maria before leaving, just incase. We both know she obviously didn't take it seriously."

"Mhmm yeah we know how she is." Mom pitched in.

"So I went and I found my mate almost immediately."

"Oh my goddess son, that's amazing!!!" My mom squeals.

"Laura stop. Obviously, things didn't go well, let him talk....Please."

Sniffling, I continued, "Well, I tried to hide it at first, but she is so smart and so beautiful she instantly caught on and got mad at me for keeping things from her. So I called and made sure that Maria left the packhouse before going to speak with her. Her name is Ava, by the way. She got so upset with me. She was upset about me having a girlfriend, but what really caused the disaster is the fact Maria was living here. She left, she went back to her pack saying she needed time to think. I know I have messed this all up, I know it." I said as I started crying again. "I don't know what to do. I locked myself on my floor and completely renovated just incase she chose to try and when we got back, Maria made such a scene. I am glad Ava wasn't there. O goddess, what am I going to do?"

My mom spoke first. "Oh baby boy I know this is painful, even though we did try to tell you. You need to try and see things from her point of view. This is a horrible situation for her and very very embarrassing and hurtful. To know the one who is supposed to be your soul mate wasn't even going to look for you? Jack, it's heartbreaking just to hear about it. You need to be patient and give her space, but not too much space. Go after her, show her how much she means to you. It might take a while. Be prepared for that. But don't give up. I can tell how upset at yourself you are, and you should be. But don't give up. You will NEVER find anyone who will love you the way your mate will."

"Your mom is right Jack, you need to go after her. Sleep on her porch if you have to. Camp out in her yard. Let her know you aren't going anywhere."

"I don't even know what pack she is from dad."

"Then find it Jack. I know Alex and Izzy will help you. Stop moping and go find your mate. The floor is done?"

"Some workers are finishing things up, but yea, pretty much."

"Then go, Jack, go find her. We love you and good luck son." With that, my dad hung up on me, leaving me to do as he said.

OK, time to go find Alex and find my mate. I need her and I'm not giving up even if I have to step down from being the Beta. She is the most important thing to me now and nothing else matters. I haven't changed my clothes or had a shower in a few days, so I think I should do that before I even think of leaving this floor. I'm coming, Ava, and I won't give up on you again. I'll prove to you that you're it for me. I promise you I will do whatever it takes to be the man you deserve. With renewed hope and my head in the right place, I march into what will be our room and headed for the shower. I'm going to prove what you mean to me, Ava, I promise you.