My Three Mates A Post Apocalyptic Love Story

Chapter 4 - WTF

AVA

"Oh? So now you want to speak? How about that Shelly, now he has something to say?"

"Mhmm...why should my sister talk to you now Jack?"

He stood there like a deer caught in headlights just floundering. I wanted to feel bad for the lost look on his face, but hell no, this is his own doing. I asked him nicely. He is the one who chose violence, so to say, I'm just here for it.

"I .. I just want to explain, please. I've made some bad choices but I am trying to fix them. Just please let me explain, I only want you, I just want to be with you, my mate."

He looks sincere enough at least. Glancing at my sister, she agrees and nods her head.Poking Jack in the chest with her pointer finger she tells him.

"You better not hurt my sister."

She gives me a side hug and strolls off like the bad b***h she is. Best sister ever!

"I'm so sorry Ava, I didn't mean for any of this to happen. Could we go somewhere quieter to sit and talk? This might be a bit much honestly."

"Ok, We can do that."

We walked a bit away from the rest of the people at the ball and sat on a bench near the huge garden. I would have thought about how romantic it was if this wasn't the kind of talk i felt might make or break our relationship. I could feel his tension.

"So?"

"Ok so..shit how do I tell you this? How can I even explain how much I have messed this all up even before we found each other?"

"Generally by just saying it. Look Jack, we are either honest from the get go or this fails and, personally, I don't want it to fail. You are my mate and that means allot to me. So just out with it, rip off the bandaid."

"I had an agreement with a long-time girlfriend if we reached 22 and still hadn't found our mates we would choose each other. We are currently 21, but against my better judgment, in order to keep her happy, I had moved her onto the beta floor."

I cant help but frown. Here I am. I have been waiting for my mate ... like an i***t apparently, while my mate has been shacking up with some girl.

Taking a deep calming breath "Ok? What else."

"I know she will try and stir up trouble. I broke it off before we left for the ball just incase but she insisted I would still choose her and wouldn't really accept what I said. I called her. I already spoke to her about all of this. I have also already spoken to Alex about it all. He is completely on our side of things and after a few, I told you so's made sure to remind me how special you are."

"So you weren't really looking for me were you?"

The look on his face said it all. He wasn't even looking for me, he was just going to take a chosen mate and call it a day. I can feel the tears in my eyes. This is, after all, heart-breaking. I was so excited about finding my mate. I waited all this time for nothing. He shook his head no and I could see the shame on his face.

"I'm so sorry Ava .. I know I have messed this all up and made what was supposed to be a special night into a horribly upsetting one. Everyone tried to tell me but I wouldn't listen. I wish I knew why I thought a chosen mate would be the same. But I want you. I only want you! Please give me a chance to make this all up and show you every day how special you are to me?"

"Is there anything else?" I snapped. I can't help how rudely it came out at this point. I'm so hurt my heart feels like it's in pieces he didn't even want me. He wasn't even going to look. I was completely disposable.

"No, except I am very sorry about this and will do anything I can to make it up to you. Maria is already being moved out of the packhouse to somewhere else. The Alpha insisted she not be anywhere near you and I agree."

"Jack.. I..I don't know how I feel about this. You were just ready to throw me away without even thinking about it for someone who isn't even your mate. You have this whole life with someone else in that pack. How...how will they ever accept me after all of that? I want this. I have waited my whole life. I saved myself for my mate because of how special the bond is, just to find out my mate was willing to just not even deal with it and pick a girl from his pack. How am I supposed to live with this? Do you know how embarrassing this is for me? I ... I need some time. I'm not going back with you Jack. I want you to leave me alone. You weren't worried about me before, so don't worry about me now. I'm going home. It was nice meeting you."

I stood up to walk away to let my sister know i was just going to take the car and go home maybe her mate can bring her later. Odds are she won't come back till tomorrow. Anyway, I just can't do this right now.

He reached out and grabbed my hand as I stood. "Wait Ava, how will I find you? How will I know one way or the other?"

"You weren't worried about it a few days ago," I said as the tears started to run down my cheeks. "I don't think you should worry about it now."

I pulled my hand from his grasp and walked back in the direction of my sister. I just can't do this I thought maybe he had a girlfriend or something and I get it not everyone waits. But to hear they were living together and he wasn't even going to look for me? It's just too much. I just can't do this. I feel so tiny right now. I'm trying to be strong, but it's just not working. Right now I just want to at least make it to the car before I have a break down.

"Hey Shelly, can we speak a second?" I tried to smile at least a little.

"Sure what's going on, you look so sad?" She said, wrapping her arms around me.

"Can your mate bring you later or something I..I just want to leave i need some time to think."

"Umm yeah that should be OK. We were discussing it all anyway. Why are you heading home, Ava? What happened?"

"Readers digest version? He was going to take a chosen mate. His Alpha made him come tonight. He wasn't even looking for me."

"Ohh sis I am so sorry."

"The worst part? He wasn't going to tell me."

"But he did, right? What about her were they living together?"

I nodded sadly "They were. I guess the Alpha instantly had her removed from the packhouse. So who knows but I can't do this not tonight i need to get my head together. I'm just really upset and I want to go home."

"Ok sweetie, but will you do me a favor?"

"Of course, anything, Shelly."

"Just really give this a good thought before being rash, OK? I know it's not ideal and I can't imagine how embarrassed and hurt you must feel. But the goddess chose you for him and him for you and only she knows why. So please just really think this through, but you know no matter what, I ALWAYS have your back ok? Please send me a text when your home so I know you made it safe."

"I will, sis, don't worry. I love you try and have a good night. I'm sorry if my issues are bringing you down."

"Never worry about that, OK? I love you too. Just be safe going home please?"

She handed me the keys and I slowly walked towards the car. This isn't what I expected at all. This was supposed to be the greatest night of my life so far. I was supposed to come find my mate and fall in love and have a fantastic night getting to know him. Why did it have to turn to s**t? Maybe I should have just let the whole thing go? If I hadn't pushed, tonight would have been fantastic, but then tomorrow would have been the worst. He would have knowingly let me walk into that horrible situation without even telling me.

Once I get into the car, the tears just start falling and I can't even stop them as I just sit there and sob. The pain in my chest is just getting worse and worse. After what seemed like an eternity of crying, I forced myself to stop long enough to turn the car on and leave. The sadness hits me in waves the whole way home. I feel almost crazy. I go from being mad to being so very very hurt by everything. I know he didn't do any of this on purpose. I don't think he would purposefully hurt me. He doesn't seem like that kind of person. I just can't even think about him with someone else living this whole other life together. They probably even talked about kids and growing old together.

Then there is me, poor Ava, the second choice. The one he never wanted until his Alpha made him give the whole mate thing a chance. It might seem petty, but we grow up being taught about mates and the importance of it. A gift from the goddess...well I don't feel like I've been given a gift. Quite frankly, I feel like I've been smacked in the face and told to deal with it. I feel like he tossed me in the trash without even a second thought. I have no idea what to do and I can't even ask mom and dad because they aren't here anymore.

How can I just be like ok I forgive you, let's move on? I can't!! His whole pack knows... the whole damn pack and now here I am the home wrecker. Well, really she is the home wrecker, but that is not how others will probably see it. Packs support each other. I can't imagine they are going to be happy. She was thrown out of her home because of me. This is worse than I thought it would be. I wasn't expecting this at all. I don't think I'm going to be able to take him as my mate. I'm going to have to give this a few days and then I guess i can get the number from my Alpha and reject him. If he wanted her so badly I guess he can have her.

I'll go home, continue my training and move on from this. Maybe I will get a second chance, mate...maybe I won't. If that's not fine, I can live alone or take a chosen mate later on down the line if I can't find another mate. That's fine. I can do this. This isn't the end of the world. I don't mind being alone, at least we still have the house.

Having figured it all out in my head, I blast the music in the car and drive home feeling at least a little better. I know every day won't be easy and that I am going to give it a few days just to be sure this is what I want. But I can do this I am strong and capable. Maybe I'll train so much I can become a pack warrior that doesn't seem like a bad life. My dad was a warrior. There is nothing wrong with it. I have to chuckle, though here I was starting my night worrying about being curvy and an Omega. At the end of the night, that was the least of my worries.

Now I have a mate but he had a long-term relationship as the Beta of his pack. I don't even think it would be such a big deal to me if he wasn't the Beta. But his whole pack will forever think of her as the Beta female. I just can't do this. It's too much. It was nice to meet you Jack, but you can have what you always wanted and that wasn't your mate. I hope he is still happy with his choice because he made it a long time ago, apparently.