Chapter 11 Finding the Truth of Who Am I
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Helene’s crying in front of Queen’s Rianne that night, I hear when she cries, explaining that it’s her fault she doesn’t accompany us on that day.
“I apologize; My highness, I didn’t accompany the Princesses for the reason I take care of my son. I should be punished.” Helene’s weeping.
It breaks my heart hearing Helene’s cries and pleads because of my fault,
I want to break in and defend her when I peek in my mother held her and rub her back;
“It’s okay Helene, Khazir is your son, you need to look after him too” My mother voice is soft
“But my highness Princess Mia might get in trouble for my absence” Lady Helene’s tears is flowing freely.
“Don’t say that Princess Mia is fine. I knew her enough, she is my daughter. I trust her that she will not betray me and our Kingdom. Princess Mia grew up admiring his father King, how his father takes care of the citizen of Querencia, she aims to be like his father, she is the future Queen of Querencia. My crowned Princess.” Queen Rianne confidently expresses her thoughts to ease Helene’s anxiety.
“I know you have high expectations towards Princess Mia between the Princesses she carries a tough heart and a brave soul to win battles against the Kingdom enemy.” Helene gave her remarks
“yes, she has it. The thing we need to assure is she can’t be near the Forbidden Forest before her eighteen birthday, we have to make sure she is protected from dark forces that luring around. I know Helene that he wanted to have my daughter. He has been waiting for the right moment to take her away from us. We don’t have to let it happen. Princess Mia is the fated Queen of Querencia next in my regime, no one can change that” Queen Rianne is shivering.
“My Queen, I will make sure that no dark forces can be near Princess Mia on the day of her birthday that the Princesses will be safe. I will put my life in line with my Queen” Lady Helene's words are sincere.
I saw my mother timid smile, “I hope we didn’t resort to that. Helene I trust you enough that the things are under our control before the King and the Elder’s knows about this” Queen Rianne whispering to Lady Helene
“Indeed my Highness, Arruis, and I will tightly guard the Princesses” Helene assure my mother, Queen.
I slowly step backward, forgetting what I supposed to do after I heard the conversation, my flesh seems like burning, I’m shivering, I hug myself. I lay in my bed, eyes open, my mind is in agony. I didn’t sleep.
My self keep asking, “Who am I?”
“Why are my loved ones guarding me against who?’
‘Why Ruininki keeps appearing and gravitating me?”
“Why my energy getting weaker when we're apart for a longer time”
“Why Helene and Arruis willing to lend their life for me not to be taken by him”
“is the man there talking about is Ruininki”
“If Ruininki is bad, why did I feel this way towards him, my heart is pounding in a mere uttering of his name”
“Why I lied to my twin Siana, my loved one and hide the truth that I’m seeing Ruininki”
“Why I’m hiding the fact that I let him pass through the barrier that Queen Leonor has made”
“Why I’m like this, why I felt I’m changing”
“All the lies, all the things I hide, my loved ones that I hurt”
All those thoughts keep running, the pain is consuming me. I’m lost.
I wake up and Siana look at me worried, I didn’t notice that I slept halfway while worries consume me.
My eyes reflect that I didn’t sleep well,
“Mia look at your eyes, it's swelling” Siana soft voice and concerned look
I hug Siana and didn’t say a word, I felt I need my twin sister concern in my vulnerable state.
“Mia, we need to go to the preparations for our birthday celebration. Mother says we need to be there” Siana softly talking to me.
I let go of the hug, I nod to her, and say ‘Okay, I’ll fix myself”
Siana smile to me and hug me once again, “You’ll get through it”
"Yes" I answer within me, I'll get through this
I wanted to pass through this, I made up my mind.
I look at the mirror, staring at my reflection,
“I’m not gonna let the dark energy eaten me, I will be the future Queen of Querencia”
Before we leave, I walk in the garden to get some fresh air, I overheard Lady Helene’s conversing with his husband Roberto; he is my father King adviser.
Roberto held a hand of a fifteen-year-old boy, I believe it is their son Khazir.
“When we come back Arruis will take him” Helene blurted out
“Why?” Roberto confused
“I and Arruis discuss it, he sees something in our son; a magnificent power to be his descendant”
“The Guardian of the Passage” Roberto asking
“Yes, aren’t you happy with the news?” Helene's voice is full of excitement
“I thought we talk about this Helene that we will not involve our son in Royalty duty. We aim for him to grow up in a healthy, normal life not like us” Roberto seems to try to make his point.
“Roberto, you know very well that serving the Royal family is an honor” Helene reminded his husband
“I know very well but it’s also sacrificing yourself to serve well for the Royal family and the Kingdom. At least I want Khazir to have a normal life and experience the things that we can’t” Roberto voice saddens
“Roberto, please be understanding. Master Arruis said that Khazir possesses higher energy much more than a normal citizen of Querencia that might be when he is in my womb, Queen Rianne bless for him to be healthy and she held my tummy. Khazir is fated for this.” Helene made up her mind
“Helene” Roberto voice is pleading
“I better get going, Khazir will stay for you for a while until we get back” Helene quickly said her farewell and kiss Khazir in his forehead.
“Listen to your father well Khazir,” Helene said before she leaves.
I know I have to go before they notice I’m not in the carousel yet.
I show myself before Lady Helene does, nobody noticed I’m late.
Siana held my hand, her face painted her happiness, she is excited.
“We're going to see our dresses for our birthday, Mia,” Siana said endearingly
“I design those” Siana told me delightfully
“Really?” I ask in astonishment
“Yes, the tailor asked if anything particular I want to put in the dress. I ask her if I can draw our dresses and made it exactly that way; they agree and I’m happy, I’m excited to see it” Siana's voice is cheerful,
“I trust you that you design my dress beautifully” I tease her
“Yes I do, I know your taste very well, you will be surprised” Siana smiles widely
Siana's innocence and happiness are a cure in my lost thoughts, the way she talks cheerfully to me makes me forgets about my problem.
Siana held my hand and all through the carousel ride, I smile at it.
I lay my head in her shoulders, the comfort makes me feel sleepy.
I don’t know if I’m sleeping, my consciousness is awake, I hear voices that calling me once again, I held myself.
I can’t let that voices win again, I can’t let Ruininki have me.
I’m shivering and sweating “Mia are you fine?” Siana trembles voice asking
‘Siana” I softly mutter
“You’re dreaming, must be a bad dream,” Siana says
I quickly hug her “I don’t want to hear that voice again Siana” I blurted unconsciously
“What voice” Siana asks confused
“There is a voice that I hear, that voice is the reason I cross the Passage” I bravely admit to my twin sister.
“you mean like someone calling your name,” Siana asks me
“someone calling you too, Siana,” I ask curiously
“No, I keep hearing voices calling you Mia” Siana confess
“You hear it too” I’m bewildered, I didn’t expect Siana hears it too, her confession fazed me.
“Yes but I can’t hear it well, it’s fading. The forest fairies they keep singing and they surrounding me whenever I’m attempting to follow the voice” Siana confessions makes me shivers.
“the forest fairies,” I said once again.
I remember whenever we are in the field of flowers and the dawn is settling, forest fairies started to gather in front of Siana, they are playing with her dress and her hair and putting her flowers. The forest fairies surrounding her path and making a light for her but never they did to me.
It came rushing in my thoughts, as the Elder’s say with my mother Queen echoes in my head “One will harbor the gift and the other is the curse. That can be hidden, their energy will reveal themselves.’
I remember Ruiniki says “the slimus monster won’t hurt you, they will not hurt their Queen”
And even says to me “I’ve been waiting for you for years, we have the same path to fulfill”
I look at my hand, I see the energy clearly, my radiating dark blue energy while Siana radiates a color of pure white energy similar to our mother Queen.
“Siana can you see my energy,” I ask curiously
“yes, it’s beautiful Mia. I like the color, yours have the color while mine is plain white” Siana blurted out cheerfully
I try to look around and check Helene and Arruis, they are outside the carriage, Arruis is the one navigating the horses while Lady Helene is beside him. They seem not to hear us and don’t have any idea of what we are talking about.
I whisper to her “Siana do not tell anyone about the color of my energy” I hush her.
Siana’s eyes widen and she covered her mouth “Does they hear us?” she asks worriedly
“No” I guarantee her
“I know, we shouldn’t brag about that we can see the energies of people and things. I know mother Queen reminds us to be careful. I’m sorry that I forgot” Siana lower her voice
My heart aches for Siana’s innocence, I don’t know how long I can bear not telling her the truth about my energy color.
I don’t know how long I will shut my mouth about Ruininki, I don’t want my twin sister to fear me because I have the curse. I don’t want to hurt her.
I can sense Ruiniki is around for my energy is radiating strongly and my heart beating fast.
Ruininki says something about claiming me when I became a fine true lady and that is my eighteen birthday; only a few days left before Siana and I have our grand celebration for our eighteen birthday in the palace.
My trail of thought cuts when I see someone in the field wearing a cape giving something to the villager, that thing is familiar to me, the medicine I bought.
I’m sure the man wearing the cape is none other than Ruininki himself, he is distributing the medicines to sick people, the thing that I wanted to do but I can’t.
Now my mind is more clouded how my loved ones painted Ruininki as a bad person,
My full attention is the spot where he is, our carousel is still moving, Arruis is not sensing anything.
Ruininki energy is radiating in it’s darkest color.
“What is Mia?” Siana gets my attention
Before I get my eyes off his spot, our eyes met and Ruininki's eyes express longing.
My heart race but I have to fight the urge to stare longer, I break eye contact and breathe in deeply. I look away as our carousel drives away.
I fear that Siana may see him and sense his energy,
I quickly sit straight and answer “Nothing”
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© January Garneth.2020. The Princess that Tamed the Villain
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