Feel Me Love Me

Confused Mind

April's POV

The next morning after the coronation, I woke up from a sleep that was not restful at all. When I remembered what had happened the previous night, I wanted to cry but I couldn't. I couldn't believe that the moon goddess would give me a mate that was philandering. Someone who did not believe in the sanctity of waiting for his mate.

Was she mocking me? First I don't have a wolf and now I have a mate who will sleep with others just for the sake of pleasure and I wouldn't know because I can't feel him when he is cheating.

I almost threw up thinking of how many girls my so called mate had graced their beds. I don't want him but he is an Alpha. If I didn't apply wisdom, his wolf was going to take over and mark me forcefully.

I had not gone back to the after party that night. I had stayed in the room, lost in thoughts and wondering why me?

Was I even sure he was not faking the mate thing? I had said that much to Raven when she came to knock on the door later the previous night.

'He didn't look like someone faking it,' Raven had said.

'How are you so sure Raven? He is a philanderer. How are you sure he hasn't used this trick on other girls? How are you sure he hasn't heard the fact that I don't have a wolf?' I had said to Raven.

'Nobody has told him anything about you. My mates must have told him about uncle Marcus finding you and your mum but they have never said anything about you being wolfless.'

'Are you sure. Not even Selene?' I had asked Raven.

'Not even Selene. I am sure about that,' Raven had said.

'It still doesn't erase the fact that he is a man w***e. I have kept myself for whoever is going to be my mate but what do I get in return? I philanderer.'

'I guess I have myself and Selene to blame for telling you the things we did about him. He is not that bad April. I think you should give him a chance to prove himself,' Raven had said and I had stopped arguing with her since it seemed she did not understand me.

I lay in bed that morning scared of opening the door and running into him. I didn't want to see him much less talk to him.

I had prepared my mind to at least like my mate if and when he eventually found me but I had not expected to hate him. How do I move from hating him to fairly liking him not to talk of loving him.

The knock on my door brought my mind out of my thoughts. I grudgingly stood from the bed and walked to the door to open it. My dad and mum stood outside my door looking at me with concern in their eyes.

'Hello Princess. Can we come in?' Dad asked smiling at me.

'Good morning dad. You can come in. Good morning mum,' I greeted my parents as I stepped out of the way for them to come in.

I sat on the bed as my parents took the seat opposite me. I knew they had something to say to me from the way they were nervously looking at me. Of course they would have seen my interaction with Adrian the previous night.

'Princess, we saw what happened last night between you and the Alpha of Luna's Alter. We decided to stay away in order for you to digest everything first without us interfering. What is your conclusion about the young man?' Dad said.

'I don't want him dad,' I said flatly.

'He is your mate, April. You can't push him away,' mum said.

'I am not sure he is even my mate. What if he had heard about the fact that I don't have a mate and he decided to play a fast one?' I asked throwing my hands up in the air and standing up to pace.

'Look at me princess,' dad said stopping me from pacing and holding my arms so that I was forced to look at him. 'You are only looking for excuses princess. Deep down in your heart you know he is not lying,' dad said looking at me intently.

'Dad he is a man w***e. He sleeps with everything female,' I said stubbornly.

'I heard Roman used to be like that too and all it took was one single glance at Raven and he couldn't look at another female again. He might change too,' dad said.

'That is because Raven has her wolf and they can feel the bond. There is no bond here dad. I don't want to have to live the rest of my life like that,' I said hotly.

'Will you prefer to live a life that will be eventually lonely? Mummy asked coming to stand beside dad. 'I didn't get a chance with my mate because I was already pregnant with you when I met him. I love your dad totally but all through the years before now, I had constantly wondered what it would feel like to have a mate bond.'

'I might be lucky too mum. I might have someone who loves me someday,' I said stubbornly.

'And you don't think Alpha Adrian is the one?' Mum asked solemnly.

'I don't know mum. I just don't want to get hurt. And the fact that he had slept around while I kept myself for him is so annoying,' I said.

'Like I said before, you are merely looking for excuses princess. Why not give this relationship a try. Besides, remember that he is an Alpha. I don't want a situation where he has to mark you by force. You need to talk to him and you can both reach a compromise and forge a way forward.'

I nodded at my dad and mum. They hugged me and left but not without them first making me promise to seek Adrian out.

I put myself together and went to the bathroom for my morning routine. I entered my room to find Selene sitting on the bed smiling like a cat that got the canary. I had forgotten to lock the door after my parents left.

'Adrian hun? Selene said as she saw me coming out of the bathroom.

'If you are here to gloat, you had better leave. I am in a very bad mood right now,' I said as I went into the wardrobe to get something to wear.

'You actually forgot that we share a room, I am here to have my bath and change my clothes,' Selene said and I cursed under my breath. I had totally forgotten that we were sharing a room and I had locked her outside last night.

'I am sorry, Selene. I totally forgot. Where did you sleep last night? I asked.

'Don't worry about me. There are a lot of rooms in this place besides it was an opportunity for me to have a lot of fun last night. Believe me I had fun,' Selene said before she winked at me and went into the bathroom humming happily.

I just hope whatever fun she had wasn't going to put her stubborn heart in trouble.

I got dressed and left the room in search of Adrian. It would have been easier to find him if I had a wolf. All I had to do was scent him out but as it is, I had to rely on asking anyone I see.

Luckily enough, I ran into Roy when I asked of Adrian. He said Adrian was in the garden with Roman. I thanked him and went in search of Adrian.

I walked past those cleaning the surrounding. I tried my best to smile at them as I greeted them.

True to Roy's words, both Roman and Adrian stood side by side giggling as if they were sharing a secret.

'Adrian, I need to talk to you,' I said calling both their attention to me.

'Hello April,' Roman greeted me.

'Good morning my king. Congratulations once again,' I said to Roman smiling.

'Thank you my princess,' Roman said winking at me. 'I will leave you both to talk,' he said as he walked towards me.

When Roman got to me, he bent down and whispered in my ears, 'Forget the fact that he is my best friend. I give you the right to kill him if he dare hurt you,' he said and walked away.

I couldn't help but smile at his words. But my smile slipped off as I made eye contact with Adrian.

'You wanted to talk princess. So let's talk,' Adrian said grinning but his grin only made me angry.

Oh, how I detest him!