Christian
Impotent rage is coursing through my veins, threatening to boil over like hot lava from a volcano, and I only have myself to blame.
You stupid f**k! You dumb fucker! How could you have screwed this meeting up so bad? Now you really scared her away. I run my hands furiously through my hair. I want to smash something, break something the way I have just been broken into a thousand pieces. She does not want me and who could really blame her? I am a worthless husk of a man. I thought she was different from all the others; pure and innocent and caring. But she isn't. She is throwing me away like I am nothing. Well, I am not a 4-year-old little boy anymore, I won't stand for it, not anymore. This time, I will claim and keep what is mine no matter what it will cost.
She wasn't being
