Christian
I am furious, awed, frustrated, and totally bewildered. How dare she tell me no, or question my judgement? She is a force of nature, and I am a hopeless planet crumbling under her might. She is making me question everything I thought and believed in, and it's making me feel rudderless. I was so scared of caning her when she confronted me in the playroom that I needed to keep away from her. I don't understand this! Why did that feel so wrong? I have caned many women but I never felt like this. I have not told Elena yet; I know what she would say. She told me once I was too soft on Anastasia, and that I shouldn't give her any safe words. If she knew what I was doing now she would call me weak and feeble minded for sure. I don't want her to think I was a bad student of disappoint h
