Anastasia
I stare at him pleadingly, hoping he will understand that I don't really want to have s*x with him. Yes, I signed the contract and he kept his end of the bargain. I am even willing to admit that I misjudged him about my father and I feel guilty for it. However, that does not change how I feel when he initiates intimacy with me. Why doesn't he understand that what he did to me was wrong? That he hurt me and made me feel demeaned and degraded? That I would not have slept with him if he hadn't coerced me to? He is so different from anyone I met before. His way of thinking is so completely different that I don't really know how to make him understand how I feel. He is just so damaged in his own way.
Maybe if things were different and I hadn't misjudged him, we could have been a cou
