Don't call me cheater

Chapter-5

The next day I went to the bus at the exact time when Yosuf used to came but he wasn’t there. While returning home I waited for his call but he didn’t, when I tried instead it was off.

There was no hope, I lost him completely. With a burden in my heart, I went home that day.

The next day I asked Asif about him but he was also unknown.

‘Why what happened?’ he asked

‘his mobile is off from yesterday, so I was a little bit concerned about him’

‘he was never like that’

‘I know’

‘Don’t worry’

‘He is the only good thing that happened to me since I came here, how can I not worry’

I was blanked at that time, It was the first time I ever talked loudly with him.

‘I am sorry, it’s just I think I broke his heart’

‘Just tell me clearly what happened with you two’

‘I told him that I love someone else’

‘What?? okay did he proposed you?’

‘No, I just wanted to make him clear before things were worst and now I regret it’

‘I know Yosuf, he won’t be mad at you for long trust me he will come back soon as a good friend of yours. And I appreciate what you did, you are brave’

That was the first time Asif complimented me. I felt good, I trusted him.

Next day was valentine day. And there was still no news from Yosuf. One period was leisure at that time, so the whole class decided to play truth and dare. We all went to the ground and sat making a huge circle. To decide who was one to be asked we played hot potato and at first, it ended up on Angi.

So truth or dare asked one of the guys from the environment department

‘Truth’

‘Tell us the name of the guy whom you find most attractive here’

without hesitation, she said, ‘Asif’

All the boys and girls started making funny noises.

Again the game started and this time it ended upon Asma.

This time it was Angi's turn to ask

‘Truth or dare’

‘Dare’

‘go to the guy you want to propose here and tell the thing that is in your heart’

Asma stood up looked all around and went straight toward Asif.

‘Are we guys invisible’, shouted other boys from their position, they started making funny noises again,

Asma held Asif’s hand and pointed him to stand up. Asif stood up, Asma held both his hands

‘At first I just thought you were just handsome, but when I started talking to you I saw inner you just as beautiful as you are outside, how can someone be so perfect, I like you Asif too much’

‘I like you too’, said Asif hugging her, the whole class cheered up. I went numb. I was broke inside, everyone was cheering for them and no-one saw what was going on with me. I just sat there until the end of the game, thankful as my turn never came. That day I went home alone, Upisa was on a date with her boyfriend, Yosif was gone, And I was alone completely alone. Everyone was happy on valentines day with their love, with their friend, and with their company but I was just alone.

When I reached home without greeting anyone I went to my room, tears were running from my eyes. Never in my life, I thought I will cry for a boy, but there I was crying for him. It’s not like they were dating but that felt so bad so so bad. I picked up my phone and deleted my search history which said, Asif Rauf. I promised myself I am never gonna search for his profile again. Asma had become too close to me on those 2 months. I used to love her company, she was just carefree, I didn’t want to ruin my friendship with her because of that. I wiped tears from my cheeks and pulled a report from my case and started doing the assignments. Our Internals exams were near, I thought I will forget about Asif, Yosuf and Asma and just focus on my studies but that wasn’t going to happen. After half an hour notification started ringing on my mobile, I pulled to look at it, it was from Asif. I wasn’t happy like before seeing his msg, he must have a problem doing his assignment again

‘You didn’t go on a date today?’, his message appeared I was stunned, it was the first time he talked like that with me on messenger.

‘why should I? I don’t have anyone to go with’

‘what about the one for whom you hurt Yosuf?’

‘He was just a medium to say Yosuf, I wasn’t interested’, I lied, I was angry at that time.

He didn’t replied me. So I texted again,

‘And how was your date with Asma?’

‘Date, we didn’t date’

‘It was obvious, she said she liked you and you said you like her back’

‘I like Yosuf too, does that mean I should date him’

‘But you two were looking happy with each other’

‘she is humorous and cute, I like her company but it’s not like that. Just think it’s more like you and Yosuf’

My heart was at ease at that time. I was happy he was explaining these things to me.

‘Do you have anyone because of whom you can’t feel love with others’

‘No, in my life I dated many girls, I tried to feel what other people feel love, but at last, it all went so bad. I never felt the current when someone touch you for the first time, I never felt that pain when someone goes far from you. It was just futile. So I just didn’t want that type of futile relationship again. I just want the tacit one, which can’t be expressed just can be felt.’

I never thought behind his perfection he has such craving for the first feeling, love, enthusiasm. His word made me fall for him again.

‘I never thought you Asif would be saying something like this’

‘yeah, I never thought I will share these things with you’

‘so tell me more about yourself, your family’

‘I have an elder sister and our father brought both of us alone. What about you?’

‘I have a younger sister. You want to see her?’

I send him the picture of me and my sister clicking the photo together.

‘You both have the same face’

I was like what, it was the first time someone said, me and my sister look alike.

‘Are you serious?’

‘yes. Your face cuts are the same, same eyes, it’s just she has curls and you don’t’

‘You probably are saying this because you haven’t seen us together in reality’

‘Maybe’

we went on talking about random things, the same afternoon I was broken because of him and this evening he was healing me. Texting him was creating a smile all over my face when my sister came to the room, seeing me smile while texting she hurried and pulled the mob from my hand. I ran after her. She hide herself and looked at the message.

‘so, Asif Rauf he is one huh’

‘It’s nothing like that, he is just my classmates’

‘I am your sister, have seen the expression on your face when you were texting’

‘This is nothing like that, just give me the mob, he might be waiting’

‘waiting huh, so when are you going to introduce me about him’

‘Never, because you are assuming it all wrong'

‘then make me understand, why you suddenly started to iron your hair use cream, mascara, liner, and worry about your clothes. You used to talk with me for hours before but nowadays you are just involved with yourself. You don’t see it but you have changed a lot.’

‘Have I, I didn’t know but she was right lately I have been so involved with his thoughts. I didn’t know either he is ruining me or building me, but he was affecting me.

‘You know, assignments and internals. And it’s Uni I did ‘t want to be looser among girls like you so I wanted to look like a rose instead of throne’, I lied.

‘Okay then, but promise me if something has changed in your life I should be the first one to hear it’

‘I will tell you just don’t force me to promise, I don’t like promises’

“Okay, mom is calling for dinner, just bid him goodbye and come’

I nodded yes to her.

Asif was asking if I had my dinner or not and I told him I was about to. I thought he will tell me to go and eat. But instead he said, ‘I will be waiting for you, come fast’

Again series of current flowed through my veins. His each sweet texts were giving me butterfly. While having dinner I continuously thought about him saying he will wait for me

‘Did he like talking to me?’

‘does that mean he wants to talk more?’

‘Does he feel the same way?’

And my mind shouted, stop he was just being cute don’t build your hope on that basis.

I hurried and finished my dinner.

‘I finished my dinner’, I typed with a big smile on my face, The message was delivered right away but I got no reply.

He said he will be waiting for my text, and was gone. I would have been happier if he had just said goodbye when I was going for dinner. I opened his inbox and read all the messages again and again till I remember every word he said to me. I was happy just happy.