After Your Rejection

Chapter 22 The Rogues Leader

Alexis

'Alexis, Seth is also the leader of the rogues!' Sebastian says it like I'm stupid.

'Yeah, I figured as much.' I tell him, trying to compose myself. Just then my phone rings.

'Who's Mr. Bad Guy?' Nathan asks while looking at my phone. I saved his name like this because I like the nickname I gave him. It suits him. Now more than before. The joke's on me, then. I pay Nate no attention, contemplating if I should answer the phone or leave the call unanswered. My curiosity gets the better of me and I press the answer button.

'Seth!' I greet him. I want to know what he's about to tell me.

'Baby, I know you recognized me and I know that you know the truth about who I am now, but baby, it's not like it seems.' He sounds composed and that makes me angry.

'Tell me, Seth, how does it seem to you? Because to me, it seems like you knew who I was and that was why you approached me…' At the end of the sentence, my voice breaks, and I'm not able to finish it. I give up on holding my tears back.

'Yeah, it was like that at first, but then I got to know you and everything changed. My whole plan changed because of you. I'm doing my best to secure a place for us, a place where we can be together. I love you, Alexis. Please, baby, come back to me.' Seth's voice sounds broken now. I don't know if I can trust him anymore.

'Are you crazy? You lied to me! Our relationship was based on a lie, Seth!' I whisper the last part, not able to talk properly.

'I admit, I lied about who I was. But I've never lied about how I feel about you.' Seth tells me, desperation filling his voice.

'Your rogues just attacked me…'

'I took care of the ones that attacked you and the rest are dead, too. Your Dad's warriors killed them. I checked before I escaped to safety. Nobody is ever going to hurt you, baby. I swear, I didn't know what they were planning. I was about to drive away from Greenville when I got the call that some of my f*cking warriors caught Kieran's daughter. I was so worried Alexis, you have no idea. I left everything as it was and ran to you, hoping I would get to you in time. I don't want to lose you. I can't lose you!' Seth sounds distressed now. I can't talk to him anymore. I turn to Axel, crying uncontrollably. Everything hurts. I was trying to persuade myself I didn't love Seth, but the truth is, I was slowly falling for him. His betrayal hurts like a b*tch.

'I loved him Axel. It hurts.' I tell into Axel's chest. Axel hugs me tightly, trying to ease my suffering.

'Seth, this is Alpha Kieran. I want you to forget about my daughter. Don't try to contact her ever again.' Dad took my phone to end this call.

'Well, hello there, Alpha. Is my brother there with you, too? Say hello to him for me, please. I know he was her fated mate. But she chose me because I love her with my whole heart and I showed her that every day. Tell him he will never have her. She is mine now. I love her and I chose her as my Luna. He broke her, he neglected the best thing in his life and never came to see how she was doing. Even if she isn't my fated mate, she is the best one for me. I was there for her when she was struggling, not because she is your daughter and other cr*p about revenge, but because I love her. I know it looks like I took advantage of her, but it's not like that. My intentions were not pure at the beginning, but everything changed for me after I got to know her. That's why I stopped the attacks. I don't want to fight with you anymore. I want Alexis by my side, in my pack. And trust me, Alpha, I will do everything to secure that future for us.'

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After the phone call, I was brought to the pack hospital. I didn't want to, but Dad and Axel insisted that I get checked since I wasn't healing. The doctor gave me a few stitches and made me stay the night at the hospital. I protested, but Dad insisted. Now I'm lying in a hospital bed and my brain is working overtime. I still can't believe Seth is Sebastian's brother. I was stupid. I thought he loved me. We were great together. The s*x was great, better than anything else before. But he was only using me. A knock on my door interrupts my train of thought.

'Come in.' I say. The doors are slowly opened and Mum's head pops up.

'Hey, you are awake. I thought you would be fast asleep after… well, everything.' Mum says with pity in her eyes.

'I can't sleep. Too much is going through my head.' I say honestly.

'Your Dad told me everything.' Mum confesses.

'Of course he did. He can't keep anything from you.' I tell her with a small smile. My parents have a beautiful relationship, one that I envy. They overcame Dad's past mistakes and together became stronger. Axel and I always wanted the same for us. I guess Axel is on the right path. Me, on the other hand, I f*cked up like a champion.

'Is Dad pissed at me?' I ask her with a small voice.

'He is pissed, but not at you.' Mum answers after a while of thinking.

'I didn't know Seth was Alpha Sebastian's brother. I feel stupid for not realizing it.' I tell her, hoping she will believe him.

'They look different.' Mum points out.

'They ARE different. And I'm not talking about the appearance.' I say while playing with my tattoo again. 'Mum, I f*cked up badly.' I tell her and break down into tears. Mum hugs me, leaving scolding about my language for another time.

I cried hard for about half an hour. Mum held me tightly, whispering words of encouragement, not even for once trying to stop me. She knew I needed this.

'Mum, I don't know what to do now. The whole situation is a mess. Everybody knows about me and Sebastian. Axel told me Sebastian felt pain every time I was intimate with another. I mean, Alpha Sebastian... I didn't know, I swear. I thought the bond was broken. I caused him so much pain. And the thing about his brother. It's so f*cked up. But I can't bear to be rejected now. I know I'm selfish, but with Seth… it looked real!' I try to tell her everything at once.

'You liked him.' Mum states that like it's nothing. No big deal.

'I liked Seth a lot. I was falling for him slowly. He was… He never gave me a reason to think anything bad about him. He was perfect, helping me and taking care of me. I can't believe I fell for his trap. I was so naive!'

'From what I've heard, he fell for you and is really in love with you, Alexis.'

'It doesn't matter now. I can't see him anymore, not after everything that happened. He has too many secrets for my liking. Plus, he was the one attacking our packs for years! Even if he talked about the change in his plans or that he wanted to be with me, it's still not enough for me to trust him. It was too good to be true, I guess. I didn't want more at first. He won me over after our one-night stand. And for what?' I ask even if I don't expect an answer. Mum just listens to my blabbering, letting me vent my frustration and sort through my feelings.

'Alexis, you need to sort things out with Sebastian.' Mum tries softly to change the topic.

'I can't right now.' I tell her pleadingly.

'Why Alexis?' Mum asks me, not understanding my hesitation.

'You two need to talk to each other. This can't go like this longer. You need to clean up your mess. Either sever the bond entirely or accept each other.' Mum says sternly this time.

'I can't now. I need a few more weeks to get on my feet again. Like I said, I can't bear the pain of rejection right now.'

'Are you sure he will reject you?'

'Mum, I was sleeping with his brother. Even if he didn't reject me back then, he will definitely do now.'

'These are all your speculations. You don't know for sure. Talk to him. Even if he rejects you, you still have us. You have Axel, Dad and me. You have your friends. We are all here to help you and support you. Sebastian deserves to be free from the mate bond if he chooses to. But maybe he won't, even after everything he found out. And if you feel like giving him a chance... My point is, you need to talk to him. Sometimes, you are just like your Dad. Too quick with your decisions, too proud and too stubborn. Thank Goddess Axel is not like you too, because Freya would have her hands full of balancing him. I have my hands full with your Dad. But I love him endlessly, despite his flaws.' Mum says, the last part with love in her eyes.

'You should think about everything we discussed. You will have a lot of time for that. You know, your Dad wants you back in the pack. I can't argue with him this time. You are not safe in Connance anymore, Alexis. But don't worry, we will find a place for you where you will be safe and happy. You can do whatever you want, choose whichever profession you like. I'm here for you and I will help you with putting your life back together.' Mum tries to reassure me, but to me, it still seems like prison.