After Your Rejection

Chapter 16 The lunch

Alexis

Finn and I make our way to the winter garden where the lunch is served. It's February and the weather is not suitable for sitting outside. I spot my Mum and Dad sitting with Axel and Freya. Damian comes a moment later and sits across from me. He's sporting a black eye and a broken lip.

'Hey Dame, how is it going? Looking perfect. Red is really your color.' I taunt Damian.

'F*cking funny.' Damian raised an eyebrow at me.

'Language!' comes from the adults.

'I guess Axel wasn't happy about your interruption.' Finn says knowingly to Damian.

'You should thank me f*cker, as you can see, your sister is still unmarked.'

'Language!' comes from the adults again.

'It's just a matter of time. It'll happen sooner or later.' Finn tells Damian.

'Wow, you look pretty cool about the fact that Axel is going to f*ck you sister.'

'F*cking language!' says Alpha Darius, and we all burst out laughing. Mum and Luna Zara, Damian's mother, are glaring at him. My laughter is interrupted by a message.

Mr. Bad Guy: Miss your sweet p***y. Me: So romantic… Miss you too. Mr. Bad Guy: I'm horny as f*ck. When are you coming back? Today perhaps? Me: On Sunday. Mr. Bad Guy: What? I need you to take care of me now, not on Sunday. I miss you.

'Alexis, no phones during lunch.' My Mum scolds me from the other side of the table.

'Sorry Mum, it won't happen again.' Just to be sure, I silence my phone and put it into my purse.

'Your boy toy or your boyfriend?' Damian asks with a smug smile. I shot him a death glare and he gulps.

'What boyfriend?' Asks my Dad. Just perfect!

'He's not my boyfriend.'

'That's good. You should wait for your mate. Look at Axel, he waited for his fated mate…' My Dad says while returning to eating. I feel irritated, and before he can continue, I interrupt him.

'Funny, I don't recall YOU waiting for your fated mate.' My Mum is looking at me and begging me to stop. I know it'll be better if I just shut up, but maybe it's time they know the truth.

'That was different.' My Dad says unaware that there’s a storm inside me now.

'And how exactly was it different?' I ask him.

'Listen Alexis, I know it wasn't fair to your mother what I've done. And trust me, I regretted everything when I met her and almost lost her because of my past. I just don't want you to regret your mistakes when you find your mate. That's all.’

'That's where you are wrong, Dad. I don't have a mate anymore.' I tell him while looking everywhere but at Sebastian.

'And what does that mean?'

'You know what that means. It means either I was rejected or I rejected him.'

'Okay, now you have my full attention.' He puts down the cutlery and looks at me expectantly. I look at Axel, who's waiting for what I'm about to say. Then I look at Finn, who's pinching the bridge of his nose. I take a deep breath and start from the beginning.

'You all say how it's perfect when you meet the other half of your soul, but what if your other half, the one person who should love you no matter what, doesn't want you. When he rather hides from you and leaves you before you can get some answers… Let me tell you, it really sucks.' I take another deep breath and continue.

'Mum, Dad, I found my mate and I rejected him, because he didn't seem like he wanted me. He didn't even acknowledge that we were mates. I'm not sorry for what I've done, because the last thing I need is a mate that doesn't love me. I deserve to be wanted and loved. I don't have a fated mate anymore, and I won't have one, ever again, since I was the one who rejected him. We all know the Moon Goddess doesn't bless the ones that rejected her gifts with another fated mate. I knew I would find happiness in the end, but at first, I felt like dying. That was why I did what I did... And since I’m telling you all this…' I brace myself for what's coming next, because I know my parents won't like it.

'I didn't wait for the right one, because there wouldn't be any for me. I had s*x with a vampire, humans, even women, and maybe other species. I'm not entirely sure, since most of the time, I got drunk as soon as possible. It was the only time when there was no pain in my chest and I could breathe again. I'm sorry to disappoint you, but I'm not the old me anymore. But you probably know that by now.' I keep rumbling about everything on my mind and with every word I say, I can see the disappointment in their eyes.

'But I've met somebody. We are not dating, because I'm still trying to navigate through all of this. But he's very patient and is willing to take every step with me, at the pace I need.' At the mention of him, there's a small tug of my lips upwards. I don't love him, but I like him a lot, and maybe with time, we could have something more, something permanent.

'Is he a human?' Dad asks.

'Does it matter? I just told you I won't have another fated mate.' There's a total silence and everybody is staring at me. I don't dare to look at Sebastian and see his expression. I know he’s also staring at me, because I can feel his intense gaze. But I don't want to see him. He treated me like I was nothing, not even bothering to explain himself. I can't take it any longer. I need to get away from here as soon as possible.