I'll Never Be Your Luna

Chapter 3 A second chance to hell

“Natalie!!!! Natalie , please wake up!”

Who is calling me? I know that voice…

“Please, Nat, open your eyes! Open you eyes woman, and help me exist this f*****g tornado or dark hole or whatever it is because I am going to vomit!”

Kelly? Kelly is calling me? But it can’t be. I just…holy crap! Adam killed me…why can I still hear Kelly?

“Open your eyes now!” Kelly growled at me and as if her command was mandatory I found myself opening my eyes just to become perplexed.

Where the hell am I?

“It’s a dark hole, I am telling you. We are in another dimension!” Kelly said and I can feel her emotions. She is confused and scared for having no idea what is going on.

Maybe I am in heaven, but heaven can’t be so cold and lonely. If this is heaven I am in big s**t. I lived my life doing good things for nothing.

“Can you walk?” Kelly asks. “Can you see if there is a secret door that we should open and escape from here?”

Escape from here? Is she kidding me? This is a f*****g void. I have no idea where it starts and where it ends.

I’ve heard stories about heaven and hell. Green forest with white wolves running in freedom or deserts that makes Sahara look like a little child, where the werewolves, most of them rogues and criminals are being fired under the heat until they look more like hyenas than a wolf.

Adam killed me. I know he did and I was expecting to meet my heaven and find my reward the moment I closed my eyes, so what the hell is this?

“Is anyone here?” I yelled but the sound came back to me like an echo. “ here…here…here”

“Great! “ I whisper and turn around, trying to figure out if this is real or I am having some kind of hallucination.

“Pinch yourself!” Kelly commanded me.

“I am dead, it doesn’t matter, Kelly” I say and this situation started to piss me off.

“Just do it!” she says again and I am doing just as she said because otherwise she won’t stop from asking that from me.

“See?” I say pinching my arm. “I feel nothing!”

“s**t! We are really dead!” she whispered in disbelief.

“Yeah, surprise, our mate killed us for good. Now that we clarified that, can you shut up and let me think?” I ask her and she takes a step back, leaving me alone.

“I don’t like it here” she whispered and I just stopped there.

“Then shut up, just for a second, let me think, Kelly”

I stretched my arm and I tried to touch what seemed to be a wall but as soon as I touched it I entered a new space and was surprised. It is another void space. I repeat this again and again until I become tired and right when I thought that I am going crazy a big light appeared out of nowhere and that horrible void that tormented me became lighter and lighter until everything around me became clear.

I am in heaven! I made it!

Everything is splendid and the waters are clear like crystal and the mountains look so perfectly beautiful and those forests I read about it are so green. And here every single wolf is white.

“Do you like it?” suddenly a woman’s voice asks me from behind, making me startle. I thought that I am alone here.

I looked at her and my heart stopped. It can’t be, but she looks just the way I’ve heard. Tall, slim, with white blonde hair long until her waist, braided and decorated with little shining stars. Her skin is so white and pure that you could say that she doesn’t have even a drop of blood in her system, and maybe she doesn’t. Maybe she is dead too…

“Stop blabbering in your own head ,Natalie,” the woman told me and motioned to me to come closer and I just followed her command without blinking.

“You are the Moon Goddess” I say in awareness. I am staying in front of the Moon Goddess, this is how dead I am.

“I am” she says and stops and watches the scenery.

“Is this heaven?” I ask her and she turns her head and asks me.

“Do you like this place?” but her eyes make me confused. They are like two shining turquoise gems and at this moment they are making me look in another direction, because her gaze on me is too powerful.

“I love this place, but why am I here?” I ask her.

“Isn’t it clear?” and she looks again at her white wolves that salute us every time they run close to us. “You are dead”.

“I know that, can I stay here?” I asked her, or better said, begged her but the goddess didn't answer.

“It is so nice here, goddess,” I whisper, inhaling the pure air and feeling calm for the first time since the madness with Lexie and Adam started. Her presence makes me feel safe.

“I want to make a den for myself and live here if you will allow me.”

And I just sit there and wait for her to tell me that she was just waiting for me, but instead the goddess is mute.

“Don’t tell that she will send us to hell?” Kelly says panicked.

“Moon Goddess?” I call her a little bit taken aback. “Can I stay here?”

Is she says no…

“No you can’t!” she simply says and looks at me.

“But I only did good deeds while living on earth!” and I feel that I will die again right now. “Don’t send me to hell!” I almost cry.

“Hell? Who said anything about hell, Natalie?” the Moon Goddess asked me.

“BUt…” What the hell is she talking about?

“Look, Natalie” the Moon Goddess told me and looked into my eyes. “You are so perfectly fitting to this place. Heaven was made for people like you but if I allow you to come here, at this moment, everything I worked for in all these thousands of years will be in vain.

What the hell? Heaven is not with limited seats!

“I don’t understand” I simply say, because I really don’t get the goddess ‘s point.

“I am sending you back, Natalie” she says and I start to laugh, because she must be mocking me. Is this some kind of test?

“Back where?” I ask her as soon as I can breathe again after I stop laughing.

“Back to Earth, silly,” she says with a calm voice. “ I am not doing this easily but I need you there. I need you in that pack , because your presence there will have a significant impact on the pack.

Back to the Red Blood Pack?

“NO WAY!” I growled at the goddess making her frown.

“I am not going back there. I have nothing there, just betrayal and pain in my heart. I don’t want to go back!” I say . No, I am shouting in the goddess’s face, I am not just talking. I am shouting my heart out.

“You better send me to hell than to send me back to my former life”

“Do you think that I'm doing this every day, Natalie? With every wolf that dies? I am making an exception here and I am giving you a chance for reincarnation, a chance to build your life again. “

“No!” I growl back but the goddess face becomes pissed off and snapping from her fingers says.

“Well in this case you don’t give me any option” and the moment she said that two strong arms pulled me from behind and threw me through a darkened tunnel. Everything was spinning around me.

“Help me!” I scream “Take me out of here!” and I would like to add and send me anywhere but not to the Red Blood Pack, but before I could say that I found myself in the middle of my bed, in my and Adam’s room.

Fucking goddess…she send me back. I pinch myself and it hurts like hell. I look again around me and it is my room but it looks decorated like almost three years ago, when me and Adam just got married.

“Please, send me back to heaven” I whispered in my mind, closing my eyes but no one answered, except the door that hit the wall. And now I died again. Is this why she sent me back? To make me relive the most horrible episode of my life?

“Get out of the bed, Natalie!” Adam tells me as he is caring for a woman that looks wounded in his arms, which now I know is Lexie, his fated mate. But you see? First time he did this my heart hurted like and I just kept my mouth closed but now I am not able to react the same way, so I wrap my arms around my chest , I lean on my pillow and I ask him.

“What the hell are you doing, Adam. Take her out of my bedroom! Are you out of your mind to bring this woman in our bed?”

“I can’t” he tells me, and of course I know he can’t do it, because he is a cowardly weak man.

“She is my fated mate, Natalie. I found her.”

“So what?” I ask him. He marked me and it doesn’t matter anymore if she is his mate or not. I am his Luna and he swore that if at some point he will find her he will reject her.

“What do you do with that?” He asks while still holding her and I can see the b***h grabbing his shirt and wiping her tears. Everything is just bad theater and now I am able to see it.

“Throw her away!” I tell him without even breathing. I didn’t get forced to reincarnate just to make the same mistakes and be submitted and weak in front of Adam. The b***h must stay out of my life. I know now what she is looking for.

“Are you nuts, Natalie? I can’t do that to her!” and holding her tight Adam says.

“I want to offer her a place in our pack. This way she will be protected.” but I am not letting him escape with that so I say out loud.

“She is a f*****g rogue and an omega. She will not put her feet on our pack!”

And with that I get out of the bed and pointing my finger in his direction, I say just before I exit our bedroom.

“Get rid of her!”