One Sided Love

Chap 12

Kate 

(After two month) 

I visited Emily's grave and put some flowers in her grave. I sit and remember our time  together and what she would do If she was in my condition.

Hi Emily...I'm in trouble... And I know if you were here then you might even have a solution like you have for everything.  But I'm doomed for good. but first thing first, i'm so sorry for being a horrible sister.  I have already apologized to you about what I did with Alex but now I  think you will never forgive me for this  but I really want you to forgive  me because you're the only one who's going to support me otherwise I  can't live like this .... plz emily forgive me and pray that today I can do  something '  

With that I left the graveyard and drove to Alex mansion. I kept my promise to Alex  that I won't tell anyone.... two month ago when Alex threw me outside his  house. I feel so guilty about what I did with emily. I made up my mind that I won't  come back here but after a few weeks I start missing Emma so much that I  know if I don't meet her I will die.

Alex's mom told me that Emma is also missing  me and always asked about me. I decided I have to meet her.... so I asked alex  mom where is alex .. she told me that alex is in the office and he usually comes  early in the night to spend some time with Emma . So I made sure to visit  Emma on those days where Alex was not around....I was thinking so much  about Emma that I forget that I have already reached Alex home. 

Alex

'Dadda! Dadda... horsey.. horsey....' emma said to me in her cute baby  voice 

I laughed and picked her and tickled her   'You want me to become a horse , what about flying like Superman ....' 

I start flying Emma like a superman and she starts giggling that puts a smile on my  face. 

Emma was the highlight of my days. She kept me so busy with herself that I  forgot about my worries. 

I said ' now it's food time ... so let's see what we have' 

I started looking in the fridge and found some rice and chicken. 

Emma is taking  hard meals so I decided it will look good.

I put food in front of her and said eat but my baby was distracted by the birds  she saw in the kitchen window.

I said ' sweetheart come on eat ' 

Emma said 'Dadda ... birdy....(while eating her food and then she starts bubbling  about other things which I don't get but then she calls Kate name) 

EMMA: aunt katie .... Emma needs aunt Katie dadda 

Everyday emma talks about kate. I know she meets Emma when I'm in the office and always cooks meals for us and always goes when it's my time to come  home. Honestly speaking I feel like s**t what happened between us but I tell  myself that was important but I did. I never saw her after that night and she has kept her promise about not telling anyone ... but every night the flashes of  Kate's flushed body with her swell lips always came in my mind but when I saw  my Emily picture on my bedside table I feel so guilty that I'm betraying her. 

I was lost in my thoughts that I heard a bell ring since all the staff was working  outside so I went there to open the door when I did I saw kate standing  nervously in my door 

' kate' I don't know what my tone was when I said her name but she flinched n  looked me with her feared eyes 

'can.. I.... come in please ' she said 

I didn't say anything and opened the door for her to come in.

She looked so weak and fragile that the first thought that came into my mind was that she was sick.

She said ' I know you don't want me here but I want….want to talk to you 

about something' 

I was still shocked she was here, I composed my voice ' ok ... but emma is in the kitchen after I put her for nap we will  then' 

After hearing emma's name her whole face lighten up and she started to walk  towards kitchen when she stop and looked at me nervously 

' if you don't mind... can .. I meet her please' 

They way she said it totally break me ... clearly she miss emma alot n her love  for emma is quite evident 

I said ' I don't mind. ...she was also talking about you' 

She went directly to the kitchen n said 

'Emma!!! My beautiful baby girl .... I miss you so much. She picked Emma and kissed her face.

Emma was so excited to see kate she started giggling and keep holding kate  neck and told her she miss her too 

' Aunt katie ... emma want no eat... emma want dolly' 

'Aww my baby you eat then we will play with dolly ok I will feed you'. Looking at both of them made me realize it should be Emily who should be  feeding Emma not Kate. It was a gut wrenching moment for me to look at  them and I felt so angry towards me and Kate . 

Alex ... Alex...' kate hesitantly said my name 

I replied angrily ' what ' 

She flinched 

'your phone is ringing ' 

I looked at my cell. It was from Dubai, a deal I was having nowadays. Without saying anything I picked the call and went to the office. 

When I came back after 2 hours Kate was sitting alone in the living room  looking at the wall, a picture of my wedding day where Emily and I were standing  in our wedding dress .

I came towards her and sat on a sofa and looked at her 'I'm sorry it was an important call... where's emma?' I said 

She smiled ' After you left she and I started playing with her doll and she  was so tired , so I put her in her bed and stayed with her until she was fully  asleep '

'Thanks ...you didn't have to do that ' I said 

She tiredly looked at me 'Emma is very important to me I love her ...that  was nothing ' 

She looked very tired to me. She has dark circles under her eyes and looked  very thin 

I asked ' Are you sick... I mean you looked very tired and thin ...' 

She replied ' im absolutely ok ... look (she was very nervous about  something) Alex I want to tell you something .... it's about that night ... 

I stopped her ' Kate I don't want to talk about that night .... It was a big mistake .... I told you very clearly I'm not interested in you. I  still love my wife ... I know my way was very harsh and I'm sorry for that  but that's reality .' 

Kate replied ' Alex I totally understand but i'm not here to talk about that  night but what i'm going to tell you about is related to that night .... Alex  ... Im ... I don't know how to say this ..... Alex im pregnant' 

Fuck what the f**k she said totally blow my mind. 

Kate 

I looked at his expressionless face. I expected shocked , anger, any  emotions that shows that my pregnancy news matter to him but he looked so  dangerously calm 

He said 'congratulations then... so who is the father...or you just came  here to help you to find him' 

I was so hurt by his words that I can't control my tears 

I said 'please don't say this .... you very much know that you're the father  of this baby ... so don't cheapen this.... I know you're shocked and you are  reacting this way but you're my first and after you I never slept with anyone' 

Alex stood up and turned his back 'How can I believe you... who knows you slept with whom  .... unfortunately for me I may be your first but im not will be your last ...  you can't f*****g trap me' 

I said 'Alex believe me or not but this is your baby i'm carrying and im  not trapping you.... you deserve to know this so that's why i'm here and if  you don't believe me then we can have the DNA test'

He stop me said ' I don't f*****g care ... I don't want this damn baby and im  f*****g serious about it. Emma is the only child I have and no one will  take her place' he looked so dangerously angry that I was little afraid 

'Alex this baby is not going to take emma place... because this Will have  his/her own place in your life ...please think about it 

He galred at me and said ' I don't want to think about it I already made up mind  and why the f**k you are doing this. You are young, unmarried, you don't  want to tie with a thing which will cause problems in your life' 

I know where he was going but still I can't believe he meant that.

He sat beside me. Try to explain to me..'look kate ... I can never accept this baby nor  your family. It's very important for you to not have this thing. I made a promise to myself no matter what happens I won't let anyone replace Emily and my dead unborn child. You are more jeopardizing your relationship with your family and so have an  abortion ...no well know about this and I will make sure all the expense of  hospital , doctors , your medicine will be bear by me. I'm going to give  you some money also ... so this problem can be solved in a split of a  second'. 

I was so f*****g angry that how dare he .... how can he say something about  ending our baby life and giving me money but he thinks im who're I stood  immediately n glare him n said 

'Alex you know what,  f**k you and f**k your money.... what do you think of  me i'm kind of some slut and a greedy b***h who is going to end her baby  life.... i'm going to have this baby with or without you .... so goodbye' I started to move but he hold my arm so roughly that I know it will leave marks  and said 

' if this is some kind of trap then let me tell you i'm not a man to play with  ... I will never accept this baby nor do you expect  anything from me in  return ... I will make sure everyone knows it was you who seduced me and  you are responsible for this mess' 

I was tired and too angry said ' do whatever you want to do... is not like everyone will  favour me ... so go ahead and put the blame on me but you also know  what's the truth' 

I moved to a gallery where I saw Alex's parents standing. I don't know for how long. Alex's mother looked sympathetic and embarrassed to me and I know they heard everything. 

Alex's mom tried to stop but I shook my head.