Perilous Sea || Homer Series

Chapter 9

CHAPTER 9

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"What?" I asked.

He's staring at me intently, he's looking as if he's searching for something.

"Aren't you mad?" he asked, I smiled at him.

"Why I would be mad? Is there anything I should be mad off?" I asked.

He sighed and didn't answer, I continue eating, it's my day four here in the island and I still haven't done anything, I should remind myself that I am not here to relax and have a vacation.

"I'll wash the dishes," I said at him.

"Anica," he called me, I glanced at him.

"Hmm?" I asked.

He watched me intently, what's wrong? He's acting weird since this morning. What does he want?

"You sound so cold," he said.

I look at him and unbelievably and laughed, "What are you saying? I'm not cold, Wyatt."

He link his lips and sighed heavily, "You're not like this, I know there something wrong," he said.

I shrugged, "You're being paranoid, don't you?" I smirked at him.

He clenched his jaw, "This is not so you—"

"You don't know me enough, Wyatt. I'm fine, maybe you're the one who have a problem?" I muttered at him.

He drop his utensil in frustration, "I'm sorry," he murmured.

"For what? Did you do something wrong, hmm?" I said while looking at him intently.

"You're mad, you're just hiding it," he concluded.

"Why are you pushing it, Wyatt? I said I'm fine but you keep insisting that I'm mad and now I'm starting to get annoyed," I said calmly.

I don't want to start a fight, I want to have a peaceful day.

"Because I can feel it—"

"You can feel what? That I'm mad? Did I shout at you? Did I mistreat you? Did you saw me rolling my eyes on you? Did I do something to show that I'm angry? None, right? So stop, Wyatt," I gritted my teeth.

He look at me darkly, "Because this is not you, Anica. Why don't you just admit that you're mad," he said.

I closed my eyes as I felt the extreme emotion of anger and annoyance.

"Drop this, Wyatt, It's useless," I closed my fist.

"No, let's talk about it," he insisted. f**k him.

"I'm not mad and there's no reason for that, so stop," I gathered all the remaining patience left in me to say those word calmly.

"Then stop acting like that—"

"What is your problem really?!" I exclaimed.

He looks so serious and intimidating but I couldn't care cause the anger is eating me.

He wants me mad? Then let be it. I tried my best to treat him right even tho he made me worried, I tried to act normal at him but he just pushed me at my damn limit.

"I'm sorr—"

"Stop saying sorry! It's making me more angry, Wyatt!" I shouted at him.

He tried to hold my hand that place in the table but I pulled it.

"You're saying sorry?" I asked unbelievably, as the vehemence that I'm keeping last night and this morning associated.

"Let me explain—"

"No need, Wyatt. You want me mad then I'm fuming mad! What is your sorry for? For making me worried last night because you didn't go home and you probably f**k her good the whole night while here I am, waitin' for you to f*****g come home!" I burst in anger, when I woke up last night I searched for him but he wasn't around.

"Anic—"

"Shut up, asshole! You're making me disgusted by looking at you, I didn't know you can stoop that low, a cheater bastard," I looked at him with disgust remembering what Salera said.

I want to stop myself, this is the reason why I don't want to talk to him.

I know to myself that I might give hurtful words that I will regret.

The shade of his eyes turns darker as he clenched his jaw repeatedly, I swallowed hard as my chest moves up and down because of shouting.

"Take it back," his voice is very authoritative.

I smirked at him, "Take back what? That you f**k her all night—"

"Not that—"

"So you really f**k her?! Damn you!" I yelled at him as I felt my heart pinched.

"I didn't say that, Anica," he said frigidly.

I felt my eyes moisten, I bit my lips as my imagination went wilder while thinking about Wyatt and Vaeren last night, they probably had a good night.

"We didn't do it, Anica, I wouldn't do it so stop that dirty things in your mind," he explained, his eyes soften a bit.

I chortled sarcastically, "I'm not dumb, but let's stop this nonsense conversation, I don't care if you f**k her—"

"I said I didn't," he frustratedly said, he looks so miserable as he looks at me.

I glared at him, "You're being so defensive! I said I don't care if you f**k her or not!" I yelled at him.

He sighed heavily and look at me intently, "Let's talk without shouting," he said.

"Just drop this, Wyatt. We were fine a while ago, you just ruined it," I said while calming myself.

"We're not fine, you're just pretending that everything's okay—"

"What do you what me to do? To shout at you for not going home? To blame you for making me worried? To tell how I didn't sleep peacefully by waiting for you? What for?" I bit my lips, he didn't know how I told to myself to stop acting like a jealous girlfriend so I had to control myself.

While waiting for him last night I asked myself if I like him and it made my head-ache again. I can't like him.

I wouldn't let myself to fall for a man whose not done loving someone else, If I have to guard my heart then I will.

If I have to avoid him then I'll do it, I'll do whatever it takes.

"I'm sorry," he said, he can't say anything other than sorry, huh.

I smiled, "You don't have too," I whispered.

This fight is futile, we're not in a relationship, we're just friends or can I even consider him as a friend?

I shrugged at him, "Sorry for over-acting, you just pissed me off," I said.

He sighed heavily and tried to catch my gaze but I avoided it, "Anica, let's settle this properly," he said softly.

I look at my plate as I bit my lips, "Let's just focus on something important, Wyatt. In the first place were here for something else and not ourselves," I said and stood up.

He's done eating so I took his plate, I'll wash the dishes and focus on the design of the island.

"We didn't do it anything—"

"I don't care, just drop it,"

"Anica don't be like this," he said, I exhaled heavily as I faced him, he's standing near the table, in front of me while I'm leaning on the sink.

"Wyatt, I'm just being rational, this is purely nonsense and it's okay, whatever happened between both you is fine, you're both single," I said, I didn't let bitterness escape my lips.

"Nothing happened, believe me," he said, his voice is pleading like he doesn't know what to do anymore.

I stares at him, "Okay," I said plainly.

"Now, can we drop this topic?" I muttered, he comb his hair with his hand as frustration written on his face.

"What do you want me to do," he asked.

My brow furrowed at him, "What?" I asked confusedly.

"You're just saying that it's okay to end this conversation but you really don't believe me, right?" he stated.

I closed my eyes tightly, "I already said it's fine, what do you want me to say for you stop?" I said while gritting my teeth.

Can't he just let this go? I already did but he wouldn't stop.

"See? You're still mad—"

"Because you're making me mad again!" I yelled at him frustratedly.

"We wouldn't be able to fix this if you keep saying that it's fine," he said calmly but I can see his jaw clenched repeatedly.

He looks hot when his mad but I disregard that thought.

"Because you keep saying the same thing! Sorry! Sorry! You're sorry for what?!" I shouted angrily at him.

I hate this, I hate him.

He sighed and held my waist but I pushed him away and he was caught off guard on my sudden aggressive move.

"Don't touch me," I said disgustedly, an image went to my mind and it made more ire. It's Wyatt holding Vaeren waist like how he always hold me.

I closed my fist, "Tell me, where are you the whole night?" I asked directly to him.

He stared at me intently as his eyes filled with hesitation, I waited for his answer but nothing came.

I laughed as I felt the pain in my heart, like someone pinched it.

"See? You can't give me an answer," I murmured bitterly.

I turn around and face the sink as I felt my eyes heated and in one blink my tears rolled in my cheeks, I pretend busy to wash the dishes, it's only two plate so I immediately finished it, I wash my face to hide the tears that shed in my eyes.

I faced him and he's just looking down while leaning in the table.

I just ignored him and head outside the kitchen but before I can get out he immediately spoke and it made me stilled.

"I slept with her," he whispered but it's just enough for me hear it.

I felt like a cold water poured at me and it made my heartache, I bit my lips as I felt my tears continuously flowing, I expected that but it felt more painful that he admit it.

I smiled bitterly, he can't see my face cause my back's facing him, "Okay," that's the only word I can say without my voice breaking.

I immediately went to my room and locked the door. This is too much.

I don't like him, I'm just hurting because he made me worried and I felt offended that he didn't think that someone might be waiting for him, that's it.

I suppress my tears and smiled. That's okay, I'm just really a crybaby.

I took a bath and chose to walk outside, I roamed our island with my sketchpad, I'm in the middle of the island, wandering and thinking about the places of the buildings. I sat on the sand and make myself busy in sketching, I first sketch the Hotel but I'm still not sure on the motif so I'll just draw my ideas and I'll asked dad what he want.

When afternoon came I decided to go home, I saw him waiting on the door, I smiled at him genuinely. He did nothing wrong, I was the one whose being irrational.

He look miserable while looking at me, like he doesn't like what I'm doing right now. I saw how his chest moves up and down as his breathing became heavy, his eyes darken too.

"You won't go inside? I'll just get my phone, I'll eat in the next villa," I said, referring to Donovan's island.

He stared at me for too long before he spoke, "I'll just cook," he said, he doesn't like the idea of going in that island. I can see it by just looking at his face right now.

I smiled at him, "You don't have too, the food there is delicious and besides, it will take a lot of time if you'll cook," I said normally.

I went inside without waiting for his answer, I just informed him but I'm not asking for any approval.

I wore a black two piece tube top and high waist bottom, I just put a sarong skirt so my tube top is showing.

I went out and my lips parted in shock when I saw Wyatt standing in front of my door.

He's wearing a black khaki short and just an open button up shirt. I watched him scrutinize me from head to toe and I saw how his brow furrowed, he frowned.

"Where's your cover up," he said, like he's demanding for it.

I shrugged, "This," I point my sarong skirt, but his forehead wrinkle as he glanced at my sarong.

"That's your cover up? It's too short, what about your cover in your top?" he asked, his voice filled with frustration.

I laughed at him, "This is it, Wyatt. This is my outfit for today," I said with finality in my voice.

He clenched his jaw, his eyes screams with disapproval but.. I don't care.

I walked passed through him, I'm holding my phone and my card, I already put my pin in the right side of my tube.

I heard his footstep behind me so I conclude that he'll eat there too.

We didn't talk and just walk silently until we went in 'The Bleak Loss of Heisha', I remember the way to the restaurant so I don't need their assistance anymore.

While walking someone called me so I stopped to find it, I saw Saweas waving his hand on me, I heard a groaned behind me, I glanced at Wyatt and he's looking darkly at Saweas.

Tss.

When he's finally in front of me he glanced at Wyatt and smirked at him, "Saweas," I called him to rebuke because he's starting to tease him again.

He turns to me and smiled, "Lunch?" he asked.

I nodded at him, "Yup,"

"I'll go with you," he said normally, I don't know if he's doing it purposely or what.

"Vasqen—"

"Vaeren's waiting for you, she said you promised her that you'll eat together," Saweas said coldly.

My lips parted as I look at Wyatt and he didn't even denied it, so he really promise her, huh.

I bit my lips to stop the bitterness, Wyatt turns at me so I immediately smiled at him, "Go, I'm fine, I can handle," I said confidently.

"I'll go with yo—"

"Wyatt," A woman voice and we all know whose the owner of that voice, Vaeren.

I smirked at him before I turn around, I glanced at Saweas and I signal him to come with me, I know he's hurting.

He smiled at me but I know that it's fake or I'm wrong? I wish Helena's here to tell me.

Before I can finally go Wyatt pulled my wrist, I look at him. "What?" I asked.

"I'll go with you," he said with finality.

I look at Vaeren whose looking down right now, tss.

"What about her?" I asked while looking at Vaeren. She looks like a lost child.

Vaeren look at me with her sharp eyes, "I'll go whenever he go," she said with her b***h voice.

I smiled sweetly at her, "Okay," I pulled my wrist at Wyatt and just walked.

"Salera told me you ate to 'The Veracious Fate of Life' or I should call TVFoL, don't you want to eat in 'The Revealing Jar of Hope'?" he asked.

I looked at him confusedly, "That's the other restaurant?" I asked.

He nodded and smirked, "Yup, they have a very tasty food there," he said convincingly.

I laughed, "Lead the way then," I said.

"Let me tell you a fact," Saweas while looking at me, "In all restaurant here, the most popular is TRJoH," he said.

"Why?" I asked.

He stop and leaned on me, "Becau—"

Before he can continue Wyatt pulled my waist away from Saweas and groaned angrily. I stared at Wyatt and sighed.

"What the f**k are you doing, Vasqen," Wyatt said emphatically.

Saweas forehead wrinkle, "I'm not doing anything, Wyatt." Saweas said irritatedly.

"Stop, Wyatt let go of me," I said but his grip just tightened as he pulled me closer to him.

I frowned at him, not liking what he did, "Wyatt," I said frigidly.

He stares at me and he look like he doesn't have a plan of letting me go.

"Helmer," Vaeren said painfully as her eyes moisten.

We're all shock seeing her in edge of crying like she's f*****g hurt on what she heard and what she's seeing.

Helmer? Wyatt's second name, so, she called him that.

Wyatt's grip loosen and second passed he let me go, I smiled bitterly but I quickly hide it.

I saw Saweas looking at me, I smiled at him and just acted like nothing happened, Wyatt held Vaeren arm as he guided her, she looks weak as she cry.

I glance at Saweas when he held my arm to catch my attention, "Don't look when it's already hurting you," he said and smiled sadly at me.

"Saweas," I whispered.

He smirked, "That's the only way to east the pain," he said but I can see sadness in his eyes.

We went ahead of Wyatt and Vaeren cause she's walking very slow.

"You still love her," I stated.

He chorted, "It doesn't matter, someday love will fade and you'll forget how much it hurts you," he said.

"Love never fade," I said.

He look at me in the eyes and it broke my heart when I saw his eyes glint in sorrow, "If love never fades, then how about this? How can you explain what happened to us? What happened to her? That in sudden I was left hanging.. in the love that we built, in the promises we made, I was left.. alone." his voice cracked as he avoid my gaze.

"If love never fade then she should be here in my arms as I embrace her, as we should make some memories together, you don't know how I beg to God to give her back to me.. but it just wrecked me as I watched her in his arms, I have to accept that she's not for me, that no matter what I do she wouldn't come back anymore," his tears fell and I felt it.

The pain.. I didn't know how broke he is until now that I saw it in my own eyes.

I went in front of him and hugged him, he stilled in what I did but as the second passed he hugged me back, he cried and all I did is to hushed him.

"I love her so much that's killing me, I love her so much that I'm willing to let her go, I love her.. so much," he whispered.

I tapped his back to comfort him, I don't want him to feel that he's alone cause I know how it feels.

"Let's buy food and go somewhere," I said because I know that Wyatt and Vaeren will eat here and I don't want him to see that. He's so pure to be this broken.

I step back to look at him, he smiled at me and nod.

He's the one who ordered and after we got our food we left immediately. "Where are we going?" I asked.

He smirked at me, I don't know but after what happened I can't help but to wonder.. those smile and smirk.. are they true? Or he's just using that to hide the sadness he's been keeping.

"You're the one who said that we can go somewhere," he said mockingly.

I laughed and pouted, "I don't this place, Saweas, so I'm giving you a chance to pick, you should bring me to the most peaceful place where we can have a respite." I said.

He held my hand, "Let's go, I'll bring you to that place," he said.

I just let him pulled me somewhere, when we stopped I rambled the place and it left me breathless. It's so beautiful, it has a big rocks near at the oceans, I can see the trees hitting each other as the wind blew stronger, and the waves of the ocean are making me calm.

I look at him and he's just watching the nature like me, "How did you this place?" I asked.

"This is part of Donovan's island, it's called 'Mystery of Broken Soul'," he said.

I smiled, "Is it hidden? Nothing's here aside us," I asked.

He nod, "I found this when she broke up with me," he said bitterly.

"This place is so beautiful, just stare and you will be lost," I murmured.

"Did you know that some rumor said, Heisha named this 'Mystery of Broken Soul' cause when she's so lost and broken.. she found this place and she found a home, that her soul felt at peace.. and that's when she found out that even in those darkest part of your life and you felt like there's no hope anymore.. you'll just have to be strong until you found the place that will heal you naturally," he muttered while looking at the sea.

I smiled sadly, "I wonder how broken she is.. that she can understand all of this," I said.

"That's what makes me going, knowing how strong is that woman, she created this to inspire and motivate those people who feel so lost, broken, scattered and ruined." he stated.

"Someone taught me that love isn't love without pain, battles, and misunderstanding.. I was crying that time, it's here exactly in where we standing, the pain is wrecking me and it's tearing my heart into pieces and I was shouting in so much anger and sorrow, then a women came from nowhere, I can't see her face because it's already dark and my tears are making it blurred, I was kneeling while facing this beautiful sea," He smiled.

"She hugged me, she let me cry in her arms and hushed me and I don't know what kind of power she has but I felt so peaceful in her arms, the feelings that the word can't express, I felt like she understood me even without a word, I told her how broken I am and it's killing me," he bit his lips and glance at me.

"Do you want to guest what she said?" he said.

My forehead wrinkle, "Hmm.. that's everything gonna be okay?" I asked.

He smiled at me and shook his head, "No, she told me to embrace the pain until it hurts no more, until one day I'll just woke up without it, she said it will takes time but it will be worth," he shrugged.

"Do you know who she is?" I asked curiously.

He smiled, "Heisha—"

"Heisha?! You mean Heisha?! Donovan's girl?!" I exclaimed.

He nod, "I didn't able to see her face tho, but I'm sure that's her, she made me realized so many things and before she left she whispered something to me and I couldn't forget that, she said, 'You can call me Heisha and the part of this island is called Mystery of Broken Soul, fix your soul, find your comfort place, let it go, freed your heart from the pain, so you would be able to love yourself and love others at the same time, you cannot give when you're already empty, love is pain, and pain is a lesson, a lesson is a gift from above that you can use to build the stronger you," he smiled at me.

"She's.. damn, well.. she really exist.." I unbelievably said.

He laughed, "I thought she doesn't exist too, I thought Donovan is being crazy," he said.

"What does she look like? I mean her figure, is she tall? long hair? average?" I asked curiously.

"She's tall, I think five six but that was two years ago, she has a long hair, maybe she got taller now, it's been two years since that happened," he said.

"Do you think she's okay now?" I asked.

He smiled, "I hope so, I felt like she doesn't deserve all the pain, she feels like an angel," he said.

I pouted, "Is there anyone who deserve pain?" I asked.

He glanced at me and shrugged, "Pain is part of us, it's living within us,"

We savor the silence and tranquility of the place.

I smiled, there's a place where you can feel calm and discreet but... you can only feel a home in someone's arms, cause home is a person.

A home where you can feel safe and protected, someday I hope to have a home that I can embrace until my last breath.

I closed my eyes as I felt the wind blew, someone cannot hurt you unless you gave them the power to do it so.

The potent of love is within the soul, it can break us anytime but we kept risking it.

"Let's eat," he said.

I open my eyes and glance at him, "Where? here?" I asked.

He smirked, "There," he pointed a small penthouse.

My lips parted, I didn't saw that, "Who's the owner of that?" I asked.

He shook his head, "Donovan," he stated.

"Are we allowed to go inside?" I asked nervously.

He chortled, "Yep, as long as you have a pin you can go anywhere," he said.

We walked, as we went closer I can see the modern design of the penthouse. It's gorgeous.

We stopped in front of the door, he shows his pin and the door opened, I followed him inside and I was amazed, we went to the kitchen.

He put the food on the table as he prepare the plates and utensil, I sat on the chair watching him carefully, he looks like a responsible guy when it comes to this.

"You know how to cook?" I asked.

He sat in front of me as he put the food in the plate, "Yup, I love cooking," he said.

"Really? Hmm, can you cook sea foods?" I asked curiously.

He glanced at me and chuckled, "Anything, hmm, seafood is your favorite?" he asked.

I nod at him excitedly, "Yup, how did you know?"

He laughed, "It's obvious, Ceanna. You ordered a lot of seafood dish and the first thing you asked is seafood," he said, I pouted at him.

"Tss,"

We started eating, "How old are you?" I asked.

"I'm twenty two, you?"

"I'm twenty one, what's your course?"

He smirked, "Guess it," he said as he ate his food.

He's looking at me, I glared at him, "Just tell me, Saweas," I rolled my eyes on him and he laughed at me.

"Don't look at me like that, guess it and I'll guess yours too," he said.

I sighed, "Engineering?" I asked.

"No,"

"Tourism?"

"No,"

"Surgeon?"

"No,"

I pouted, "Just tell me,"

He shrugged, "I'll guess first," he said.

I nod multiple times at him, "Go," I said.

He smirked, "Architecture," he said.

My eyes widened, "What the hell! How did you know?!" I exclaimed.

He chuckled, "I just know," he said confidently.

"Tss,"

He sniffled, "Now, guess mine," he said.

"Law?" I asked.

A smile crept in his lips, "Yup,"

"Really?" I asked unbelievably, he looks so naughty to be a lawyer.

"I know that look, Ceanna. I'm just playful but I'm serious," he said.

I chuckled, "Wao, hmm,"

"Do you know how to sing," he asked.

I look at him, "Why?"

He shrugged, "It's my passion," he said.

"Really? I love singing too," I said while smiling widely.

"After we eat let's have a karaoke," he said, I furrowed my brow.

"Where?"

"Here, I'll just set it up in the television," he said.

I finished my food quickly and he noticed that, "Easy, Ceanna. It can wait," he said while laughing.

I glared at him but didn't say anything, when we were done we head to the living room, as what he said, he set everything.

I sat on the couch, as he fix the microphone, "Mic check," he said.

"It's already okay," I said.

He sat beside me and gave me the song book, "You first," he said.

I just mocked him, "You first,"

He flicked my forehead, "Naughty,"

I laughed at him and scan the song book, I saw my favorite song before, 'Jar of Heart' by Christina Perri.

"Really, Ceanna," he said, I tucked my tongue to him. "Whatever, Saweas,"

"I know I can't take one more step towards you 'Cause all that's waiting is regret.." I sang.

I smiled at Saweas, "Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore, You lost the love I loved the most,"

I chuckled when he frowned, "Just sing, Ceanna. Stop teasing me," he said like a baby.

I shrugged innocently, "I learned to live, half alive, And now you want me one more time,"

I kept teasing him as the verse three came and I faced him sidewardly as I sang the song, "Dear, it took so long just to feel alright, Remember how to put back the light in my eyes, I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed," he pushed me lightly and I laughed.

"You're such a bad girl, Ceanna." he said while groaning, I just mocked him and we both laughed.

"‘Cause you broke all your promises, And now you're back, You don't get to get me—"

He snatch the microphone and glared at me, "What?" I asked innocently, I suppress my laughter.

"Tss, you have a good voice but you're such a brat," he said, I burst in laughter.

"I didn't do anything, Saweas," I held my stomach as I laughed harder as he frown even more.

"Shut up, Ceanna," he said but I can see that he's hiding his smile.

As I look at him.. I realized that I'm genuinely laughing and I almost forgot all my.. problems.

— ishanndns

Choose those people who make you forget that you even have a phone, those people who can make you laugh as you are left breathless, it's a happiness that no one can ever buy because it's priceless.

A moment of treasure. A friend.