I'm Not Perfect ❣

Life has no limits

"I am not going to try to be someone I’m not, because there is absolutely no one out there exactly like me, and if I’m not myself, I’m someone else, and what is so special about that..."

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"Life has no limits except the ones you make"

Yun ang advice ni Maxim na palaging naaalala nya. Sabagay may point naman ito. At may idinagdag pa nga sya na nabasa nya sa isang libro, na ginawa nyang kasabihan kahit na sobrang haba para lang ipaalala palagi sa kanyang sarili...

'There are no boundaries in life. There are no dead ends that would stop you from going where you want to go. There are no walls that would keep you isolated from things that you want to get. There are no chains on your feet that would keep you from running to the place that you always wanted to be. None of these hindrances exist in life. You can climb all the highest mountains if you like. You can reach the brightest stars that you keep on gazing at night. You can make your wildest dreams come true no matter how wild it is. There is nothing in this life that is impossible. You just have to be persistent enough to be able to make everything possible. You don’t have to be such a pessimist about the things around you. You don’t have to limit yourself on things that you can do or places that you could go. You have to get out of your comfort zone to be able to reach the place where you wanted to go. You have your wings so fly high and wander around the world. You could even go to the outer space if you like. Life is full of possibilities, you just have to be brave enough to seize them. Do not say that sky is the limit if there are foot prints on the moon.'

Nabalik ang diwa nya sa kasalukuyan ng magsalita si Alexander. Ayaw nya sanang makipagkita dito kaya lang gusto na rin nyang maliwanagan. Maging malinaw kung anuba talaga ang nakapagitan sa kanilang dalawa. Yung real life ng relasyon nila hindi yung puro na lang sa chat.

"I meant what I said about my feelings for you. It is up to you if you will believe it or just ignore it. I am not here to please you but all the things I said to you I meant it every single letter of it. If you believe it I will show you what I really feel every damn day that I am with you but if not I still be glad that I told you how I felt."

Madamdaming amin ni Alexander kay Xylie. Hinawakan nyang kamay nito saka pinagsiklop. Napangiti sya ng humilig sa kanyang balikat si Xylie.

"Take the time to look at what I have to offer, look at everything I’ve laid out for you. I thought of everything to make your life happy. Yes I know it’s hard to believe, but it’s all here. Why won’t you take it? I have it all here, carefully planned, just for you. I promise if anything goes wrong, I have a backup, but please take it. I know you are deserving of this and more. Just say yes and let me work my magic. Let me protect you, hold you, serve you, and make you my everything without boundaries. Please do it soon before my anxious soul destroys everything I had all because it decided that everything I had wasn’t good enough for you or even deserving of the slightest bit of your attention."

Tiningala nyang binata saka nginitian ng tipid. Heto na naman sya, maniniwala at magtitiwala ulit dahil sa nagmamahal na naman ang puso nya. Siguro naman si Alexander ng sagot sa mga hiling nya. Siguro ito ng tutulong sa kanya para makalimutan ang kanyang kabiguan noon. Napalapit at minamahal na rin nyang binata kaya siguro panahon na rin para bigyan nya ng pagkakataon ang kanyang sarili para sumaya ulit.

"I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close."

Yumoko si Alenxander para halikan sya at matitigan ang kanyang magandang mukha. Nakikita nito ang kaligayahang nadarama ng katipan. Dahil masaya ito doble na rin ang sayang kanyang nararamdaman.

"Loving you is my choice. I will never had any regrets of entering a relationship as long as it’s you. even though we have downs sometimes still I am proud to say that you are my partner. Yes obstacles occur sometimes but without those I know it will not make us a better partner, a better person. I love you for not only because I love you, but also I love you because of who you are, what you are and I will love you on what you will be in the mere future. I will never had any regrets of something just because we have little arguments even though it happens, I will still love you. but also, I need you. just don’t leave me, just don’t hurt me and don’t let me feel that I am not already loved by you. "

Pagkasabi nya nun niyakap nya ng mahigpit si Alexander, mabuti na lang sinunud nyang payo ni Maxim, na sundin ang kanyang puso.. Masayang masaya sya ngayon habang inaalalayan ni Alexander sa paglalakad patungo sa sasakyan nitong nakaparada sa gilid ng daan paglabas ng park. Habang naglalakad sila panay ang sefie ni Xylie, marami rami na rin ang nakukuha nyang pictures nila ni Alexander kaya nakuntento na rin sya.

"Kain muna tayo, gutom nako eh!" Aniyang nagkakabit ng kanyang seatbelt.

"Okay, san mo gustong kumain?" Nagmamanehong tanong ni Alexander sa kanya.

"Ikaw? Kung san moko dadalhin, lang problema sakin." Abala pa rin sya kakatingin ng pictures nila kaya di nya napansin ang pilyong ngiti ng kasintahan.

Saglit lang nagmaneho si Alexander at ngayon ay naghahanap na ito ng mapaparkingan ng kanilang sasakyan. At ng makakjta ng bakante bandang dulo, kaagad nitong tinungo at nag park ng maayos.

"Dito na tayo, halika na hon."

Natigilan sa pagtanggal ng kanyang seatbelt si Xylie dahil sa narinig na tawag sa kanya ng kasintahan.

"Hon? Ibig mo bang sabihin ay Honey?" Nagniningning ang kanyang mga matang nakatingin sa katabi.

"Yes, bakit ayaw mo bang tawagin kita ng ganun?!gusto mo bang palitan?"

"Hindi ah, gusto ko." Mabilis nyang sagot.

Nangingiting nauna ng lumabas sa kanya si Alexander saka pinagbuksan sya ng pintuan ng kotse. Habang papasok sila ng restaurant may napapansin ng kakaiba si Xylie. Nagtataka sya kung bakit maraming nakatingin sa kanila. Pero dini deadma na lang nya yun masyado syang masaya para magpaapekto sa mga taong mapanghusga.

Saka, ganun naman talaga sa panahon natin ngayon di ba? Hindi na maintindihan ang mga tao. Bawat galaw mo may nakatingin. Bawat kibo mo may nakakapuna. Bawat mali mong gawin, ijujudge ka. Ganyan na ang mga tao ngayon. Pero kapag mali nila, hindi nila mapupuna.

Kapag sobrang bait mo naman, aabusuhin ka. Yung iba nga, kilala ka lang nila kapag may kailangan sa'yo, kapag wala na, who you ka di ba. Hindi ka na kilala. Hindi ka maaalala. Kahit kumustahin man lang, hindi nila magawa. Bakit kaya ganun ugali ng ibang tao noh? Sabagay, nasa atin na lang yun kung hahayaan natin sila na ganun ang ginagawa sa atin.

"I love you Hon." Bulong ni Alexander sa kanya saka hinalikan sya sa sintido. Kasi magkatabi silang naglalakad patungo sa bakanting mesa na pina reserve nito.

Napangiti na lang sya dahil sa kasweetan ng jowa nya. "I love you too Honey, ikaw lang wala ng iba, promise."

Feeling ni Xylie ay nakalutang lang sya sa ulap dahil sa kaligayahang kanyang nararamdaman. Feeling nya si Alexander ng destiny nya. Kaya ang tanging hiling nya sa mga oras na yun ay... 'Sana tayo na nga ang itinadhana.'

?MahikaNiAyana