I Love My Husband But....

Chapter 3

* "Hey, order me some more of the socks that helped my foot," "These are getting old," "Okay, give me a minute," I say as I log out of my work account. I usually massage his feet and I try to get him to take care of himself, but it's like pulling teeth. He never listens when I tell him to clean up his diet a little bit, but he always complains about the pain.

"I found a new herbal shop I'll go tomorrow to see if they have something for" "Okay" he says as he walks to our bedroom with our daughter running behind him. He's most likely going to shower and then put on his pajamas so that he can scroll Bookface and watch T.V. until dinner is ready.

I pick my daughter up when she starts crying because she wants to take a bath too. (She doesn't understand that she can't bathe with everyone) My son sometimes get's in the bath with her, but he keeps on shorts and she thinks she's in a kiddie pool.

I decide to take this opportunity to go to the grocery store. (Browsing clearance isles may be my new addiction) My husband got off early and even though I already cooked for the day. He won't want to eat early, so I will get snacks for the rest of the week with my children.

I rarely keep sweets in the house because I get in a snacking mood, and sometimes I can't shake it. Most times I grab something like a juicy mango and that will help, but if, I don't have anything healthy to take away my sweet craving. I will grab anything sweet unless there isn't anything to grab.

Even though I am more a salty snacker. I still have a weakness for sweets, but it's weird, I can go more than six months with no sweets, and then, all of a sudden I crave them. In order for me to steer clear of junk foods I have to be very strict with myself. Otherwise I will talk myself into giving in to a reward and then that will ruin my diet and I won't be able to say no to snacking until I get tired of it again.

I shake my head as my son looks through the sugary snack cakes. I don't really like snack cakes like I used to. Because when you have a sister and a niece that can both bake, store bought cake just doesn't taste the same.

"Just get one box and you will only eat one a day," "Don't try to eat the entire box today" (I need to take my own advice) "I won't there are too many," he says as he grabs two boxes. (Why are kids like this?) I don't say anything and I go to the chip isle. He grabs a couple of bags of chips and I look for the popcorn. I like the kind that you have to pop on the stove sometimes, because, I get to put to however much much butter or other ingredients I want.

After we get snacks and fruit for me I go to the clearance isle and my son talks me into letting him see the new video games in electronics. He runs off after I say yes and I browse the isles with my daughter asking for her brother every five second.

"Hey big boy" Are you looking for a middle aged woman with two kids?" I say to the tall dark stranger as I pass by him. I didn't really see his face because I just glanced at him really quickly. His lips and chin, are nice so the rest of him is pretty too. (Of course, I wouldn't say it out loud) This one sided conversation, along with the many others I've had with clueless, handsome gentlemen will stay inside of my head.

"Hey," he says from behind me. The look on my face right now as my heart beats faster. I hope I didn't really say that aloud. "Hello" I force out as I keep walking. I'm going back to looking at the ground, not that it has always worked. "Excuse me," I hear him say, but I keep walking.

Maybe I was staring too hard, or I didn't look away fast enough. I was trying to get a better look at his face he seemed familiar. This must be payback for all of the other guys that I've ignored. If I keep walking away after the third time you call out to me, it means I'm not interested.

One guy actually ran me down. I heard him the first time, I was in a hurry and he looked and smelled like he had been drinking. Anyways, I'm happy that this handsome stranger didn't insist on talking to me. (See, some men get it) (No answer means not interested) Maybe my baby is repellant. Nope, that can't be true, I have been hit on so many times when my son was with me. I feel sorry for dating women, with or without kids because it's some real crazy people out there. I guess there are women who are equally as crazy.

All I have to do, is to hold up my hand and show off my wedding ring. It works most times but I've heard.. "I'm married too," Or. "What does your husband have to do with me,?" "He doesn't have to find out," is also a popular one.

Now that I think about it. I have had so many opportunities to have my one night stand, but I never wanted it. Why now do I feel like I need one? How do I get rid of these feelings?

I walk over to electronics to fetch my son. Then we go back over to the snack area to get my husband some snacks. It's hard to buy for him because he is very picky. It can't be too sweet, so I usually just grab some sour gummies and some chips like always.