Fighting for her (Novak series #1) {Completed}

21. Letting go

Hope’s POV

It’s the evening when I come back to the Novaks’ house, and the whole family is in the living room when I enter through the door. Jessie refuses to look at me, even though I think I see shame in his gaze. It hurts that he might choose to leave me when he finds out the name.

“Your dad’s name is Drew Carr, and you’ll find him in Nevada,” I say finally, and he looks at me with his eyes wide open as tears fall from mine. “I wish you all the best in finding what you’re looking for and hereby promise to distance myself from you. What I’ve done is unforgivable, and I’m sorry I caused you pain. No matter what happens, carry with you that you gave my life a purpose, and I love you more than anything, my dear little brother, even when I need to let you go.”

With those words, I turn around and walk up the stairs to the guest room. I got to get out of here; I can’t take this anymore. It’s impossible to be in Jessie’s presence and not be able to hug the little boy I raised. I don’t know how long I sit on the edge of the bed before someone knocks on the door and Mr. Novak enters the room.

“Is it okay if I come in?” he asks, and I nod slowly before he sits down next to me on the bed. “I understand it’s tough right now, with Jessie and everything that’s happened to Farris. But I want you to know that you always have a place in our home if you need it.”

“Thank you, Mr. Novak,” I answer, smiling faintly. “But I honestly don’t know if I can handle this.”

“Give it a chance, please, Hope,” he whispers, and I look at him in surprise. “Don’t choose to leave until you’ve given him some time. Darby needs you, Camilla, too. We care about you.”

He looks at me with fatherly love in his eyes, making my tears roll faster. In the end, I can’t help but throw my arms around him, if only to feel how a father hugs his child. He becomes quiet at first before gradually relaxing and hugging me while his hand caresses my hair.

“I’m so sorry, Mr. Novak!” I exclaim, trying to dry my tears.

“You’ve nothing to be sad about, Hope,” he replies, smiling. “If you need a hug, then you’ll get a hug. All I ask of you in return is that you stay at least one more day. If you feel that it doesn’t work out until then, I’ll help you find an apartment where you can start all over again.”

“Okay,” I answer low, and he smiles big.

Someone knocks on the door again, and this time it’s Darby who comes in. Mr. Novak leaves the room, and Darby takes his place on the edge of the bed next to me. His arms surround me, and I immediately relax when I feel his familiar scent that has given me peace of mind so many times.

“Say what you need, Hope, and I’ll give it to you,” he whispers, and when I look into his eyes, I know the answer.

“You,” I answer and kiss him.

His reaction isn’t immediate, but at first, he seems almost shocked before his mouth moves towards mine. I slowly drag him down to bed with me. My hands caress his torso, and he grunts into my mouth before pulling away to look at me. He seems to be unsure of the continuation.

“Are you sure you want this?” he asks.” I don’t want us to do this, and you regret it later because you felt emotional.”

I love his kindness and that he cares about my well-being. However, it doesn’t matter right now because this isn’t about us doing anything under emotional circumstances. It’s more about the fact that we held back for a long time, and I now realize how easy it is to lose someone.

“I’m sure,” I whisper, and he’s quick to press his lips against mine again.

Gradually our clothes disappear from our bodies, and he caresses every cell of my body as if I’d break if he touched me. His lips kiss my throat gently, and his tongue moves in swirling patterns across my skin. A low-key moan comes out of my mouth, and he takes it as an invitation to knead my breasts like a fluffy dough gently.

I had no idea it could feel like this. Only by these few movements am I prepared to release every drop of my bodily fluids through my lower regions. Of the few times I’ve had s*x, I’ve never achieved orgasm but have always had to finish it myself in the bathroom because my partner didn’t see to it.

But now, with Darby, it’s as if my body is in a trance, addicted to his movements, smells, and love swarming from his actions. His hand moves slowly down towards my s*x, and I close my eyes when he puts a finger inside me. I’m not used to having anything there except tampons, which makes my inner walls hug his finger tightly as if to hold it.

Darby’s mouth follows his fingers, and when he makes contact with my little sensitive button, I moan loudly. He drinks my juices like a kitten drinks milk from a plate while my hands automatically move to his hair to hold him. It’s like an out-of-body experience when my hips start moving at a high pace to rub myself against his face.

I pick up the speed, and when Darby inserts another finger, I see stars. It feels like my whole body will break into pieces as my orgasm sweeps through me like a tornado in a storm. Darby continues to caress me through my euphoria before his mouth moves back up to mine, and I taste my own juices.

“Are you really sure you want this? It’s the last chance to pull out,” he says uncertainly, staring into my eyes.

“I’m sure, make me yours, “I answer, smiling.

“We don’t want any unexpected surprises,” he says and chuckles as he puts on a condom.

After that, we don’t exchange any words but enjoy each other’s closeness, and I’m entirely relaxed when I feel the tip of his d**k towards my opening. Gently he penetrates me, and I can’t stop myself from moaning. He lays down on his elbows on either side of my head to not crush me with his body weight.

His hands caress my hair, and his mouth moves over mine while his hips methodically begin to move. It’s tight, and I can feel my inner walls hugging his d**k harder than they did around his finger before. He grunts into my mouth again, and I find myself seeing beads of sweat on his forehead as if he’s holding back and it’s a physical effort.

“You don’t have to hold back,” I say, and he looks at me in amazement. “I want to feel you, all of you, for who you are.”

His hips move faster and faster until all you can hear is my moans as our bodies slap against each other. There’s a strong force behind every movement he makes, and I didn’t think it was possible; even so, he manages to pull another orgasm out of my body. Over and over again, he succeeds until his breathing becomes heavy.

“I love you, Hope,” he grunts, and at that exact moment, I come one last time.

“I love you too,” I moan as he empties his c*m inside me, using only a condom as a barrier between us.

We breathe heavily, and he slowly pulls himself out of me before going into the bathroom to get rid of the condom. He comes back with a small towel from which it drips. I don’t immediately understand that he wants to wash me until he looks at me questioningly, and I nod. He’s cautious when he does it, and I love him even more.

He lies down next to me and kisses me on the forehead before pulling me towards him. I lay down on his chest with my arm around him and close my eyes. His breaths are still heavy but more restrained now, and his heartbeat thumps against my ear like the sweetest music I’ve ever heard before.

“I meant it, you know,” he says suddenly, and I know right away what he means.

“Me too,” I whisper back as I feel my eyelids getting heavier.

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In the morning, when I wake up, Darby is no longer in bed next to me, but the only thing I find is a note saying that he had to leave for work early but that we’ll see each other later tonight. I smile to myself and hug his pillow as his scent takes over my senses before reluctantly getting up from the bed.

Mrs. Novak’s twins are off from school today, and I’ve offered to take care of them while the others are at work. I plan on taking them to the zoo with me because Will obviously loves animals, considering the drawing he painted for me a few weeks ago. Oscar liked the idea when I introduced it to him; hence it’ll happen today.

I brush my teeth before getting dressed and Camilla before going down to the kitchen to meet the rest of the family, happily talking to each other. Mr. Novak reaches out to me for a cup of coffee, which I gratefully accept, and drinks half of the contents before I even notice the others staring at me.

My gaze lands on Jessie, and I leave the room immediately. I’m not strong enough to be around him when he doesn’t want to be with me. Instead, I go out on the back with Camilla lying against my chest and try to breathe. Mrs. Novak comes out and stands next to me with a smile on her lips.

“The boys are ready, so you can take them with you whenever you want,” she says, and I nod slowly.

“I’m ready to go, too,” I answer and go back inside. “Oscar! Will! Could you please put your shoes on?”

“On my way!” they both exclaimed happily.

“Here’s my card,” Mr. Novak says, handing it over to me. “It’s for the entrance, the food, and anything else you might need.”

“It’s okay. I can pay. After all, it was my idea,” I answer, getting a determined look from him.

“Nonsense! You take care of our granddaughter, and our boys, the least we can do in return is pay when you have fun. Take it now!”

I take it and smile before we walk out the door. Mr. Novak has packed the stroller into the trunk, which simplifies a lot. The boys quickly fasten their seat belts, and when I’ve secured Camilla, I start the car. We arrive relatively quickly despite the morning traffic, just when the zoo opens. I pay and get pulled into the park immediately. Let’s have fun!

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It’s dark when we get back to the house. Oscar and Will run in advance, hoping to tell the others about our day together. I bought them balloons and stuffed animals that they hugged tightly. Camilla sleeps in the car seat and doesn’t react when I gently pick her up.

When I step through the door, the boys stand before their parents and gesticulate wildly to describe everything we saw today. I point to the stairs to show Mrs. Novak that I’m going up, and she nods, smiling. Camilla sighs contentedly as I tuck her into the crib, and I sneak out of the room before entering mine.

Darby sits on the edge of my bed and looks at his hands. When he hears me, he raises his head hastily and has a strange facial expression. I smile at him and rush forward to hug him. He stops me before I even reach him and sighs loudly. I stare at him inquiringly, and when he opens his mouth, I don’t know whether to laugh or cry.

“Hope, I want to start by thanking you for everything you’ve done for me. You’ve truly helped me return to a life I’ve forgotten, and I’ll always be grateful. But what happened yesterday was a mistake,” he says, and I feel my heart break into a thousand pieces. “You no longer have to take care of Camilla, and I think it’s best that you move out of here.”

A/N:

Hello everyone!

Oh, my! What's going on with Darby? He's breaking Hope's heart, is he even aware of that?

~ Why do you think he's doing this?

~ Didn't he mean it when he said he loved her?

~ What do you think Hope will do now?

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