Impossible lover (true story)

Chapter 11

    It was really a busy, we needed to work fast to make place for the next trucks, I was glad he stayed to help. We were joking and laughing when we had some time but around 8 pm he left and I continued with my work.

    In the meantime Tyler was again angry with me, I am not sure why... he said something about his clothes that I didn’t wash or something. I didn’t know why he was always angry lately but he was making me crazy. He alwas found something wrong with what I did so he could fight about it. I hated fighting with him but it looked like he did it on purpose. Every time when he was an a*s , after he was acting like nothing happened, like it was normal and usually I didn’t say anything because I just wanted some peace, but I didn’t know how long I could take it. A lot of times I just cried in the shower , the only place where I could be alone and find some peace, it won´t fix the problems but I felt better after that, for a short time at least .

    The next couple of days were hard, I needed to work extra hard in the night... it was always like this, I told them already that one person was not enough here when it was busy, especially not a woman.

Finally this was the last day of the week, I really needed a good sleep and the weekend so I was happy for that but on the other hand, I didn’t wait for the weekend because it meant we will be at home together for two days with Tyler in the same house... yaaay.... *note the sarcasm *

    I drove to the company and parked my car like always. I lighted a cigarette and stood by the front .

The door opened and Tim stepped out , his face lit up when he saw me standing there.

“Oh... hey Nina, how are you? You look.... tired. Are you ok?” he said smiling, but when he came closer his smile dropped and worry appeared on his face.

“Hi Tim, I am fine, very tired but fine.” I said with a small smile what didn’t reach my eyes.

“Are you sure you are ok? You look like something is bothering you. Everything is ok with Tyler?” he asked with a frown.

“Yes ... yes.. don’t worry about me I am fine and anyway it’s only one day to go and it’s weekend so I will be fine..” I said smiling but I don’t think he believed me.

“OK, I will stay to help you out a little bit today.” he said with a huge smile.

“That’s great... it’s not easy to handle everything alone , you know..” I said shyly.

“I know, we are working on it to ask one extra person to help.” he said.

“That would be good because alone it’s impossible to do it for too long.” I answered and he nodded.

    At 6 o’clock we had a pause for half an hour, Tim was still here, he said he will stay till 8, so now we were in the canteen when my phone started to ring. I look at the screen and saw it was Tyler calling. I looked at Tim who was sitting in the front of me busy eating so I just answered the phone.

“Hallo?” I said quietly.

“What the f*ck Nina, what did you cook? What is this? Are you expecting me to eat this? What is wrong with you?” Tyler shouted in the phone and I pressed it tightly to my ear, I didn´t want Tim overhear his shouting. I looked at him who was already looking at me with a frown and he even stopped chewing. I lowered the volume on my phone, I didn’t want him to hear this, even though we talked in our language so Tim wouldn’t understand but he could clearly hear the anger in Tyler’s voice.

“What are you talking about I made chicken with rice... don’t you like it?” I asked while I turned away from Tim.

“It’s disgusting and dry, you are good for nothing you b***h!!!” he said angrily and hung up.

    I turned back to Tim sighing who was still looking at me with clenched teeth. He didn’t ask and just continued eating after a few seconds and I didn´t say anyhing either. My heart clenched from the thought of Tyler being angry at me... again. After a few minutes of silence he asked.

“Is Tyler treating you well?“ ´Crap´ I lokked at him with wide eyes and gulped. When he saw my surprised expression he added

“I know it’s personal but we are friends, I use to sleep over at yours for Christ sake'' he laughed but became serious again ''so I just want to make sure he does.... I have eyes you know ..“ he said a little hesitatly.

“Uhmm.. yes.. of course, everything is fine” I said a little embarrassed of the question, I felt ashamed to talk about this with him, with anyone for that matter. 

“You don’t need to tell me if you don’t want to but I can see that something is bothering you and now I am sure this have something to do with Tyler..” he said. ´He is so sweet, why can´t Tyler be like him anymore with me? He was before, what changed? Maybe it’s really my fault.´ I thought.

“You know... we have some problems, but I don’t really want to bother you with it...” I said , playing with my fingers on my lap. I didn’t know if it was a good idea to tell him about this things.

“Really Nina, it’s not a bother and you can trust me, I won’t tell .... now spit it” he said... he could not take no for an answer that was sure.

“Ok.. but promise me you won’t tell him, he will kill me..” I said worriedly. He narrowed his eyes.. thinking but he didn’t say anything just nod his head. I took a deep breath and told him everything, well almost everything, I left out the most agressief parts. For the time I finished he was pissed, I didn’t really understand why so much but he just clenched his fist on the table and looked on the ground, didn’t say a word.

“Look, we are together already 10 years , it’s not easy to just leave him but I can not take this anymore, I don’t love him anymore and I don’t think I can love him again like this.” I said with tears in my eyes. “I don’t know what to do.” I added. He looked at me with pity and said

“Well, I didn’t expect that, I don’t know if that would be proper if I give you advice about this but I will listen to you” I guess he didn’t want to give me advice since it’s his friend we are talking about. We finished eating and headed back to work. We didn’t talk about Tyler after that and Tim tried to lift my mood with stupid jokes..

“You know Nina , you are that ´hair guy´ from the Adams Family.” he said and started laughing on his own joke like crazy. He meant ´Cousin Itt´ because I have a lot of hair and it’s reach till my waist so I have an idea why he chose this joke..

I faked a gasp .. “Are you saying I am just a hair?” I asked him half amused. He started laughing even more as I said that and I laughed along with him.

“Ok... but then you are the ´hand´... so stop talking... “ I said challengingly.

    We were laughing and joking, he could easily make me laugh, that was the first thing I liked about him...

A lot of time we were just staring at each other without words after laughing about something, it was not awkward though, like we could understand each other without saying anything. I don’t know what he was thinking but I could read admiration and desire in his eyes. I think he liked me too, but he didn’t say it because of the same reason I tried to avoid him so... yeah... it was messed up.