"Don't do it," Noel whispered, just as I was about to reach for it. "Logan and Ash will be really disappointed,"
"I really need this at the moment,"
"Rose more than anyone," he added softly. "She knows why you started drinking. Do you want her to feel like the reason you started on this path again? Is it fair to punish her for something she has no control over?"
"I am not punishing her," I answered.
"If you understand her at all, you know she will blame herself if you lose yourself to this s**t again, Noah," Noel prompted. "Your mom has done enough already. This is not the way to deal with this."
"Then what do I do?" I wailed.
"Go home to her." he said. "Talk to her. Ask her what she wants and if it's him...then I guess we have no choice." I closed my eyes, the suffocating feeling
