His Only Weakness

Dull and Boring

Chapter nine

The last bell rang for the day and I hurried home. Surprisingly my mother was there. I passed her straight and tried to go to my room but she stopped me. "Uhmm...you want to go out to dinner with me? I really need to spend some time with you." The way her voice was soft and sounded so weak broke my heart and made me feel so guilty. "Sure. Let me go and change." I said in shame.

When I came back down stairs my mother took her purse from the coffee table along with her keys and we left together. We fell into and uncomfortable silence as we walked until she spoke up. "So... How’s school?"

"School's great mom. Thanks for your concern." I told her in a flat voice. A sad expression crossed her face at the tone of voice I used at her and it made me regret it as I looked at her.

Now that I really looked at her, she looked tired and stressed out. Her eyes were dull and had dark bags under her eyes. Since she and my dad started having problems, she didn’t have that glow she once did, and I felt really bad for putting her under more stressed than she already was.

I let out a sigh and lead her to a nearby bench. "Where should I start?" I mumbled to myself. "Okay...Mom I'm sorry for putting you through so much stress. It's just that.... it’s been hard at school lately and with everything that's happened. I was stressed and I released it on you. I became a disrespectful little brat and I totally deserved that broom beating. I'm sorry." The words were sincere.

I finished what I was saying. At first, I was struggling for words but as I got lost in thought the words just kind of came out. I looked up at her to see that her eyes were eyes were gleaming with unshod tears. She was happy. That I could see swirling in those brown orbs. Her face broke out into a large grin.

I knew how she was feeling. Giddy. You know that feeling you get when you're extremely happy or excited about something and you want to burst out screaming but you can’t because you'll look crazy or embarrassing. The only thing you can't control is the smile or grin and the happy look in your eyes.

I used to feel like that once when this someone said something to me. He would make me feel like this but it was all fake and I regret some of the things that I did in my past. Maybe it was Karma for something wrong I did or the Universe just hated me.

~~Flashback~~

"Want to come over at my place tonight?" My boyfriend Shaun for nine months asked. Back then I was a cheerleader and he was the captain of the Lacrosse team. We were the perfect couple to everyone as they thought we were meant to be. I even thought so myself because I absolutely liked him. A lot.

"Uhm...I’m not sure..." I trialed off.

"Please??...it's my birthday babe." He almost begged.

"Yeah fine." I agreed.

I went to my cheer practice and when it was over, I went home to shower and prepare to go a Shaun's place.

We went up to his room and we were talking then kissing and then one thing leads to another and we had s*x. It was my first time and I was shy at first but found the confidence to agree. I regretted it cause it hurt like hell and it really wasn’t as good as people say it is. In the end I was sore and uncomfortable.

The next day I was happy for no reason and because of that I should have known something was up. As soon as I stepped foot in the gate it all started.

People stared at me as if I was a piece of s**t. Some laughed ant pointed at me and whispered in their groups and others threw insults my way like:

'Look it's the blonde b***h!'

'Slut!'

'w***e!'

And it went on and on. My heart was racing and I felt like i was going crazy. I looked for Shaun and found him with our group at a table.

They whispered to each other and laughed while they looked at their phones and I didn't understand what was happening. Come to think of it, everyone was looking at something on their phone. I snatched one to see what everyone was staring at. I totally didn't expect what I found. It was a video of us having s*x last night. Shocked, I dropped the phone and turned to Shaun.

"Shaun what the f**k?!"

He just laughed and said, "what's your problem?"

"Why the hell is there a video of us having s*x on her phone?! You were taping us?! Why the hell would you do that? I thought you said you loved me."

He just laughed in my face along with the group.

"Oh sweety...I never loved you. I didn't even like you. You were just another dumb blond w***e that I was dared to f**k. The video was just proof and a bonus because i got paid for it. We had nothing special Nelly...well I had nothing with you. You are so dull and boring and always listen to what your mommy and daddy tell you. But the s*x was good though. Now bye."

A tear slipped from my eyes and I punched him so hard that his nose broke and my knuckles throbbed. Then I left him and the crowd that had gathered there. From that day I started dying my hair and lost count how much times I did it. It would always be a different color every time. Eventually I dropped out of the cheer-leading squad. My embarrassment never ended because everyone knew including the teachers. I was treated like I had some extremely contagious disease and everyone avoided me. The insults didn't stop and Shaun's new girlfriend even started to abuse me verbally and physically. No one knew because I didn’t say anything.

I turned to a complete opposite of who I used to be and earned the title 'The mute freak/w***e' as times went by. I promised myself that I would never ever fall for anyone again or let anyone treat me that way. My parents were too busy fighting to notice or if they did, they probably just didn't care that their once happy, talkative, cheery daughter suddenly transformed to a depressed, and mute girl. A girl who went from skirts, tank tops, dresses and heels to sweats to hide her scars, and sneakers and dyed her blond hair she claimed she loved.

~~Flashback end. ~~